Chapter 232 - Insecure

Slightly Mature Content (16+): Please read it at your own risk. 

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|Innaya|

"I'm sorry about my mother's behavior. She had her reasons," Eshan took out the medical kit from the cabinet below the sink, "which I do not approve of," he admitted without missing a beat.

I nodded silently. I did not approve of her actions as well. Whatever, reasons she might have had, hurting an animal, hurting another human being- it was so wrong. I could never bring myself to do so to someone else. How people managed that was beyond me. It was disgusting to even think of.

"You said, she doesn't like pets… but why would she want to hurt Fortune?" I frowned, watching his serious face cleaning the small wound carefully. I had been through a lot. This minor injury was nothing compared to it, yet his concern was touching. He reminded me of grandpa in so many aspects. Grandpa would also take care of the smallest of my wound in a serious fashion. Both men treated me like a fragile child who needed someone to look after her.

Eshan wiped the area with cotton dipped in disinfectant. His fingers moved nimbly and accurately. Perhaps staying with me made him pro in taking care of wounds. I would get hurt so easily that even I started wondering if I sleepwalked. It was not humanly possible for 

"This is a long story. You better listen to it from Mom because I don't know it that well," Eshan replied. He then put a bandaid on the wound. "It's done." He patted on my unharmed shoulder. The small touch reminded me of my bare skin. Eshan behaved as if this was not different. While on the other hand, I could not help but feel the heat rising in my face.

"Okay."

I thought he would then pull up the zipper. Eshan did not. "You're right. You need a bath, but I don't think that's a good idea. So you'll have to do with a sponge bath."

Sponge bath? My eyes went wide at his suggestion which sounded like a declaration to me. His fingers moved in a gentle caress across my skin before he started rubbing my nape with his thumb, the rest of his fingers cupped my neck while the tip of his index finger moved across my throat.

W-what? 

I held his wandering fingers, for the simple action started making my eyes drop in shyness. "I'll handle it. You can leave," I said trying to calm down my heart, which decided to suddenly jump in my chest.

"You know, I've thought a lot in the past month." Eshan used his left hand, reaching for the center of my spine. I sucked in a sharp breath as my spine straightened up.

"A-about what?" My teeth clamped onto my lower lip, chewing them in nervousness. The rollercoaster ride my fate had placed me in, seemed to be running in a big circle. Currently, my position could be considered at the highest point of the gigantic circular ring with my whole body hanging upside and down. The feeling of being up there, and anytime coming crashing down, caused butterflies of anxiety to rise in the pit of my stomach.

After having seen unexpected events of situations that went out of control within a snap of fingers, I honestly did not know what to expect from the present case.

Eshan drew small circles in the center of my spine, leaning down he placed his chin on my right shoulder, this caused his fingers to press more into the side of my neck.

"Us. I thought why would you not be confident enough to come to me when you ran into a problem. I thought, why would you choose to hide things?"

My eyes helplessly ran across the tiles, taking my thoughts along. I found it a little hard to concentrate on his words for his small actions were building a storm.

"I had almost gone berserk imagining what was worrying you so much. Why you didn't trust me? I now understood the answer. The reason behind your silence…" Eshan softly blew air in my ear, it tickled. In response, my eyes closed, I moved my head reflexively pressing the right side of my face on my shoulder.

However, Eshan blocked my action with his lips, pressing his lips to my cheek. His hand on my spine stopped moving, and in the next second my eyes flew open.

Eshan's hands left the places they were occupying before they both sneaked inside from the sides of my waist through the open dress. They did not stay there, instead, they crawled forward, slowly yet speedily, gently yet firmly igniting a trail of fire across my skin an inch at a time. His large palms finally stopped at my front, clasping on my stomach while his lips trailed lower, sideways, and forward.

My brain stopped functioning. My heart started going into overdrive. 

The direct skin contact, and intimacy which felt first caused goosebumps to erupt across my skin.

"That I did not assure you well of our relationship. After knowing about those divorce papers, I guess you somewhere had thought about us not being together. You thought of leaving me, or you thought I would leave you… Maybe, you would not have thought it that way, but deep down, you were- insecure. Perhaps, the reason you could not open up completely had to do something with us not being one in every sense," Eshan said, almost hugging me from the back, plastering his firm chest to my back.

Outside, my body stayed silent being obedient without having much of reaction while inside every single cell was getting out of control, almost causing me to hyperventilate. 

Eshan's words were too direct. His actions were too bold. That low voice of his, murmuring against the corner of my lips, his nose sliding across the skin, rubbing against my nose… I did not know what to do anymore.