Chapter 256 - 256: Old Violin-III

Li Lian thought she should have known the words would travel quick to Li Jun Wei but she wondered how Li Xiao Chen was quick to tell Li Jun Wei? They must have often talk at each other. Li Jun Wei could tell what she was thinking. Last night soon as he came back home, he pulled some informations from his little brother and the talk they shared.

Li Lian stared at Li Jun Wei's face, she watch how his features under the light became sharper. With the shadow away, she could see the shadow formed bellow his cheekbones and she began to find herself wondering what he was thinking. With his expression, she could never tell what he was thinking.

Then her fingers on the violin felt his large hand placed on top of her, slowly wrapping it over her palm, and she felt her heart flipped, "I was only wondering how you would look when you are young. In high school." She added her words and heard him humming.

"You are trying to find out how do I look in university to remember me." As his words were right on the money, Li Lian's breath hitch. She felt his hand tighten over her.

She ran her tongue on her lips, "I can't?" she asked.

"Technically you can, this wasn't on the promise." Promise? Li Lian questioned herself on his words, "And I'm delighted to hear that you are trying to know more about me. Xiao Chen will bring the album next time, you could see. But for a warning, I don't look like how I am now, you'll find it surprising."

Li Lian saw how he tried to make her draw her wish but she shook her head, "I want to see how you look when you are young." she replied and her eyes went to his fingers. It was two times larger than her hand, almost the size of her face, holding the quiet strength beneath his touch.

"You did say you want to know more about me." He sang a hum and raised her hand, picking it up from the violin. "Is there anything else you wish to know from me? You could ask." He offered a kind encouragement and in impending silence waited for her to speak.

"Xiao Chen said you were sharper in high school." she started and her eyes shifted from the violin to his eyes. "How were you at that time?"

Li Jun Wei never had anyone asking the question she did. They never ask him of how he felt partly because no one was close to him to ask his feeling or keep his emotions on tab; and that he wasn't someone who would openly announce his emotions except when anger brew in him.

"I was like any other high schooler, a little unapproachable, and quiet. There isn't much to say. People find me to be hard to talk with, be it a person of my age or someone older than me. But at that time, I see no need to tell what I was feeling." He pushed his finger and tug the string of the violin lightly, when his finger let the string goes the reverberating sound came muffled.

"Were you lonely?" Li Lian asked him. She saw how Li Jun Wei's house was large and when she wonder if he had stayed there at the empty house for a long time. As someone who live with a merry family, Li Lian couldn't think of how lonely it would feel for him to be alone in the house.

To her two was always better than one. Being with someone was always better than alone. But she saw how Li Jun Wei bought a large house instead of a small one, and she wondered if he had felt used to the loneliness? If she was correct, she could imagine how deep the sea of solicitude he had on his heart now since he was young.

Li Jun Wei tilted his chin down, his eyes took its time to slide from the violin string to her eyes. His hair went down to where he had tilted his hair which he pushed back between his finger. It was clear that Li Lian felt sympathy to him as she has asked the question. She was one who like to believe family should be together.

"When I was young, yes I did." He replied, the words coming out as anyone would expected. "My family was a simple one. My mother is like any mother out there, she love to smile and my father always smiled too. My father looked more like Xiao Chen in both his appearance and personality. He was someone who would do something at a drop of a hat without thinking properly but magically nothing wrong happened when he did that." There were respect as he spoke about his father and love when it comes to his mother that was evidently hinted in his tone.

His eyes that were staring at the brown violin then looked at her with a smile pulled which disappeared a moment ago, and he spoke, "Loneliness is something we get used for. Slowly the hollowness going wider in heart like a burnt paper which start from the middle before it became wider and turn everything to ashes. When it become ashes, even the loneliness would become numb and you'll get use to it. That's the only way."

Li Lian who watched him spoke lightly as if it wasn't business didn't know what she should tell him. She felt her heart pained at his words. Holding his hand, she tugged it lightly to derive his attention. Li Lian didn't want to see him sad or feel the loneliness alone, "I'm here." she said her words fell to a whisper as she tried to stop herself from feeling emotional to his words that came from the past but she couldn't. To know that he had to go through the experience made her heart ache for him.

Li Jun Wei pulled out his hand to her waist and bring her close to stay by his side, his lips appearing wide with smile and seeing the smile, Li Lian found herself smile in relief. "Your right, you are here now." He agreed with her words and spoke, "I may experience the loneliness but the loneliness is what make me meet you now, I don't feel bad at it and you should not either."

When he saw her head slowly moving up and down to nod he moved forward, his face leaning forward and Li Lian felt how his shadow enlarge above her, Li Lian thought he was about to kiss her but the kiss didn't come as his face moved beside her face, stopping at her ears, he took the violin to his hand and the bowstring with another once he had let her waist go for a moment. Bringing the violin, he raised it to her, "Have you every play a violin?" he asked her.

"I have never," replied Li Lian, feeling slightly loss that she had thought wrong by thinking that he was about to kiss her and sank down on her own embarrassment. "But I've tried playing playing piano and guitar."

"You know the basics of music, it shouldn't be too hard to play, do you want to try? I could teach you if you don't mind the small mistakes." saying this, he took her finger and pushed himself from the desk to stand behind her. His one hand which was holding the violin slipped to her finger, holding the violin beneath her hand and took her other hand which was free to place the bowstring. Then he took one step close, before taking another one for Li Lian to feel how his chest pressed on her.

Li Lian felt her back slowly rubbed to his chiseled body and came the image of his n.a.k.e.d body she recalled from the bath the other time. He had been n.a.k.e.d at that time. With nothing covering him from his top to bottom and despite Li Lian's effort not to stare or glance at his body it was hard for her not to with the charm he held. It was as if a mice had seen a delicious looking yellow cheese placed half centimeters away from them. She wondered if there would be someone or a time when she would be able to look at him?

"Place your hand here." He whispered across her ears, the breaths falling slight and her heart snapped to run a few beats, drumming aloud in her head that she couldn't focus in holding the violin placed on her hand and shoulder. Li Jun Wei covered her hand with him, holding it again and found how her fingers had turned slack and unmoving, "Tighter," he added the whisper and a shuddered breath escaped from Li Lian. The tension she felt made her face hit and everything inside her blowing like a tea brewed before fire.