Chapter 133

The life in Provence is very comfortable.

Lu Shaofan not only owns a lavender manor here, but also has a winery nearby.

Here, the most famous are lavender and red wine.

Lu Shaofan gave up his career in China, but he was busy doing wine business here.

However, the life here is different from that in China. Most of his life is quite leisurely, and the affairs in the winery are mostly left to the staff at the bottom.

During my ten months of pregnancy, I had a terrifying life almost every day, and I often had nightmares in the middle of the night in thunderstorms.

Because I have lost a child, I still have a big shadow in my heart. I am afraid that my child will not be able to keep it.

Every time I have a nightmare, I wake up in a scream.

Lu Shaofan's sleep is very shallow. Whenever he hears something moving here, he will come to talk with me and comfort me to sleep.

However, my situation is becoming more and more serious. It is not only easy to have nightmares at night, but also often fall into a state of depression during the day, and the whole person has lost weight.

"Wei Ran, if you are so thin, you won't be able to eat. I'm worried that the child can't absorb nutrition. I've made an appointment with a psychologist for you. If you want to be good for your child, listen to me. Tomorrow's psychologist will come and have a good look at it, OK?"

Lu Shaofan feels that my mood is not right these days. In fact, I also feel it myself. I avoid seeing a psychologist, but Lu Shaofan reminds me.

For the sake of the baby in my stomach, I think I still need to watch it.

I look at Lu Shaofan and smile faintly.

"Good."

It's just a short word, but I don't want to say any more.

Seeing me like this, Lu Shaofan's eyes are all worried.

In fact, I don't want to worry Lu Shaofan, but I'm in a bad mood.

In the evening, I ate a few porridge and I couldn't eat it. My stomach kept rolling.

Seeing my appearance, Lu Shaofan's face was full of anxiety.

After I vomited everything I ate in the evening, Lu Shaofan helped me sit on the sofa.

"The child is still young, so it is normal to have such a reaction. However, Wei Ran, you must promise me not to always think about things or to live with yourself. Now you can live the life you want. If you can't get out of the past, all your efforts to escape from him are in vain."

Lu Shaofan, he can see everything.

Indeed, even if I came here, my heart still can't put down the past.

In particular, I still have mo Yunqian's child in my stomach. The existence of this child reminds me all the time, and reminds me all the time. There is such a person hidden in my heart that I can't forget.

I can't help but blush at the thought of him.

There is resentment and hatred in my heart.

But these resentments did not exist before I left Mianyang City. After I came to Provence, my mood was gradually enlarged, and my mentality gradually became pessimistic.

I was silent, did not speak, see me like this, Lu Shaofan tightly pursed his lips, and finally sighed and held me in his arms.

"Sometimes I really hate myself. Why are I brothers with him? But I have no way to make you fall in love with me. If you love me, you must be happy now."

Suddenly hearing these words, I can't help but turn to look at Lu Shaofan.

"Shaofan, it's not your fault, but love can never be forced."

The next day, early in the morning, Lu Shaofan helped me to make an appointment with a psychologist.

After the doctor asked me some questions and asked me to do several multiple-choice questions, he told me that my current state is inclined to mild depression, because it is during pregnancy, during which pregnant women can easily induce depression.

When I heard these words, I was confused, but I soon understood.

It's true. Since I left Mianyang City and came here, I haven't really been happy from the bottom of my heart.

When Lu Shaofan heard these words, he even held my hand tightly.

"Wei Ran, I'm sorry, I wanted to take you here to live a free life, but I didn't expect that you would become like this..."

Seeing that Lu Shaofan said so, I shook my head gently.

"It's none of your business. I know it's because I'm always immersed in the past and can't extricate myself from it."

Soon, the psychiatrist said, "Mr. Lu, I suggest you take Miss Su out for a walk every day. Miss Su happens to be pregnant. You can go out and buy some baby products together. You can pay attention to the children. As long as Miss Su can hope for anything, this situation will not continue to worsen, and it will slow down It's getting better. "After the psychiatrist left, Lu Shaofan did not avoid me and directly took my hand.

"What are you doing?"

I looked at him puzzled, but he said with a smile: "didn't you hear what the doctor just said? Of course, it's to take you shopping, shopping and relaxation. "

I wanted to refuse. I just wanted to stay in the room alone, but my eyes touched a smiling face of Lu Shaofan, and I still agreed to him.

Soon, Lu Shaofan drove me to a shopping mall.

Then, he took me to buy some clothes and shoes, bought these, and took me to the baby spot and bought a lot of baby products.

"You know what? I've been thinking about the name of the child

Suddenly heard Lu Shaofan say so, I raised my head in surprise and looked at Lu Shaofan.

"Are you thinking about the child's name?"

Listening to my question, Lu Shaofan shook his head in a funny way.

"Is that strange? I not only want to give him a name, but also think about what kind of babysitter to take him, but also what school he will go to when he is old... "

Listening to Lu Shaofan's words, I could not help but feel my stomach and immediately began to laugh.

"Yes, there are so many things to think about. I haven't thought of them yet."

While chatting with Lu Shaofan, I chose what to buy for the children in my stomach. After buying a large cart of things, I was finished.

On the way back, my mood was really much better. If Lu Shaofan didn't help me find a psychologist, if he didn't take me out for a walk, I thought, I would always think about the past, and I couldn't get out of the past. Naturally, it was just a walk out. At night, I would still fall into endless loneliness and nostalgia for the past Read it.

Just when I felt lonely, Lu Shaofan suddenly knocked on my door.

I opened the door and saw his quilt in his hand.

"Are you?"

Hearing my question, Lu Shaofan said with a smile, "you are not in a good state these days. You can rest assured that I am a self disciplined person. I will not do anything to you. I just play a floor in your room."