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"Snow, I can say frankly that I have never felt how shameless and selfish your behavior is. Even if it's selfishness, we all live in this society. We are no longer indifferent children. We all know whether we should live for ourselves or for others. I'm also selfish. I think I'm also shameless. I'm the husband of my best friend, but I'm a lover. No matter who we are in this relationship first, I can't change the fact that I'm a mistress.

I can't control my feelings. I can't leave him. At least I can't give him up for the time being. If I'm not selfish, I won't hold on to him. Mu Qianxue, do you know how jealous I am of you? Although you have a poor life experience and a heavy burden, you live in a family that is fighting for power and profit. However, you have a good platform, you can not deny the superior material life, your sister, your father love you very much.

And I was born in a poor rural family. My father died early when I was still in business. My adoptive father drank a moderate amount of alcohol, which was a bottomless hole. If I didn't like it, he still beat and scolded at home. It was my mother who pulled me up with the stone. I don't blame my parents, they brought me to this world, they gave me life, they have done their best to give me everything, I just want to live a good life, please plight.

To be honest, I really appreciate you. Thank God for letting me know you. When I was in college, you helped me more or less a lot. When I stepped into work, I received your invitation. Ah, it should be said that it was only right to carry me. After several years of hard work, I came to this position. Maybe you think that we just get what we need from each other. It is the result of my own efforts that I can have today. However, I can tell you responsibly that if you did not give me this opportunity and platform, maybe I am just an ordinary employee of a certain company, and I am a middle and lower level manager at most, which is far from my present position and salary.

I thought that I could make money by myself, and my life would gradually get better. But my mother fell ill at this time. My adoptive father, that vampire, is a bottomless pit. No matter how much I earn, I can't fill the hole. Do you know how desperate I am? Every time I paid off his gambling debts and took three-quarters of my salary away, I was almost desperate. Even I wanted to let Cui Jianguo die. But if I die, what about my mother's medical expenses? What about the tuition and living expenses of stone? I can only do my best, even if I was shot on the gold coast, I have no complaints, as long as I can earn more money.

My life has been dark enough, Qin Hao appeared in my life, brought me a glimmer of light, lit a bright lamp. It was he who saved me from the gunner. He solved Cui Jianguo's vampire for me. He has been protecting me and helping me. He made me understand that, ah, my life can be glorious. "

Speaking of this, song Yao pauses for a moment. Her eyes are red, but her face is covered with a smile from the heart. Mu Qianxue can see the beautiful love from the smile, although the love comes very special, which makes her feel bitter.

Even, mu Qianxue suspects that she feels as if she is the third person in this relationship.

Taking a deep breath, the slightly excited mood gradually calmed down. Song Yao's expression was firm, and her voice could not be doubted. She said again: "Mu Qianxue, I really feel inferior to you in the face of you. I even feel that everything is inferior to you. Why can you get something? I can't get it no matter how hard I try. Love is the same, clearly you are not good at these, clearly you do not understand him, clearly you pay too little, his preference for you is greater than everyone! We can't be jealous.

I can give up everything for him, you can't, you can't. I'm not as good as you, I recognize, but in my feelings, I don't want to lose, I have never asked for anything in my life, even if I can't get the result, I also recognize it. But only this thing, I can't do, I am not willing, I absolutely, absolutely not admit defeat! Therefore, I will submit my resignation tomorrow. In the future, I hope we can still be friends. "

Almost in one breath, song Yao exhaled heavily. Although she would be a little uneasy, speaking her heart really made her whole person relaxed and comfortable. She apologized for the apology, and she did not give up. Maybe after today, she and mu Qianxue could not be friends again, but she did not regret. At least, she did not suffer from the inner debt and guilt because she carried mu Qianxue and Qin Hao together every day and night, and had to face Mu Qianxue during the day.

As for the estrangement, it must exist. I don't know when they were together. When they were together, they seldom mentioned Qin Hao or even about men. They may have known each other for a long time. They just didn't want to let the friendship of sharing weal and woe disappear, so they were careful not to break it.

However, some things can't be covered up forever. Even if two people have the intention to pretend that they don't know anything, they still have to face it when they are against the wall.

This time, it's mu Qianxue's turn to be silent. Even though she knew what happened around Song Yao's family, she never thought that there would be so many negative emotions in Song Yao's heart. She was a little sad, and some self blame, after all, she ignored the psychological feelings of her best friend.

It's not surprising to think about this. Since she graduated from university and joined the Mu group, she almost devoted herself to her work, not to mention song Yao. Even her sister Mu Qianjun and her father muridong, when did she really pay attention to them and stay on them for more than a minute? If so, she would not regret it after muridong died.However, what shocked her most was song Yao's jealousy. However, this is a relief.

Comparison is human nature and can not be controlled. At the same time, it is not derogatory and vicious. It is absolutely not the same nature to engage with some friends and friends, or to tear up or force them under the hind reproach.

Women are women in the end. Different from men, women's hearts are too delicate and sensitive. Even the best friends can't avoid this.

Not deliberately to compare, but sometimes see what will subconsciously think of themselves. I hope that my best friend can live a good life and be a little better than myself. But if it is too good, it will not work. It is not to say that she has to do something, but will naturally produce a sense of distance and inferiority complex. People's circle life level gap is too big, naturally unable to integrate.

As for what is often heard on the Internet or in other people, "XX and I are good girlfriends, we are good friends and sisters. Of course, I hope she has a good life. Otherwise, can we call her good friends?"

Say these words, or the best friend is not as good as her, so she can say it without pressure, or it is too hypocritical and anti human.

Jealousy, comparison, inferiority and other things are human nature, which can't be erased. Even the best friends and friends can't never have them. Otherwise, where do the words "break up" and "contradiction" come from?

However, these emotions are not the same thing as those of insincerity.

Seeing that mu Qianxue didn't speak for a long time, song Yao only felt that the atmosphere inside the car was more and more dignified and oppressive, which made people feel a little breathless. Perhaps, after her real side was revealed, mu Qianxue was scared.

Song Yao chuckled bitterly, reached out to open the car door and got out of the car: "I have already said what I can say. I don't know what to say the rest of the time. Today's words are all from my heart. If you have something that you don't like and hate, please don't be angry. Maybe this is the first time you know the real me. I went back to see my mother first. I hope I can see you again. Snow, take care... "

The last two words, like a thousand pounds, song Yao felt that she was about to cry out, but she tried to bear it. She didn't want to show too cowardly. She said that she would face it with a smile. She would not regret her decision!

Mu Qianxue seems to be still in a daze, and did not open his mouth to retain song Yao. Although she had expected the ending, she still felt very uncomfortable to accept this moment, which made her heart ache.

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