C285 They brought the blame upon themselves

Since he wouldn't be able to sleep on the bed, he might as well just lean on it.

Zywane was lying in front of the computer in a half asleep state. He was looking at it with a hazy expression while his eyes became moist.

San Ren definitely did not intend to bother with him anymore, and must have decided to part ways with him from now on. She must have read all of her messages and not forgive herself …

Sigh... Zywane let out a long sigh. He had brought this upon himself. Serves him right!

Zywanton in front of the computer, Zywane suddenly heard a chirping sound. He raised his head and widened his eyes.

"Sigh …" San Ren had sent the message!

It was San Ren's conversation, it was true!

Zywane's eyes widened, his heart started pounding, he placed his face in front of the computer screen and looked carefully, yes, it was sister's words, it was true, yes!

San Ren appeared, San Ren returned, San Ren talked to him!

Zhang Wei's heart jumped violently as he looked at the window blankly. He did not dare to move at all as he was afraid that if he moved, San Ren's words would disappear.

At the same time, San Ren's avatar became colorful, and San Ren no longer hid herself, and went online!

Zywane stared blankly, his heart pounding like a wooden chicken.

Zywane did not know what to do, and his heart was filled with fear and cowardice.

Why? Why was it that when happiness came again, there would be fear and withdrawal in her heart? Was it because he still had a conscience? Was it because he knew that he had hurt someone else deeply?

All kinds of feelings suddenly welled up in Zywane's heart as tears welled up in his eyes.

Even though it was just a single word, it was better than a thousand words, better than anything else.

Zywane lowered his head, fiercely grabbing at his hair, closed his eyes, gritted his teeth, then raised his head once more, exhaled deeply, opened his eyes, looked at the computer screen, and looked at the conversation window.

Finally, Zywane stretched out his trembling fingers and began tapping on the keyboard. "Sis …"

"Hmm …" San Ren replied.

Zywane became excited again, "I... Is that me? "

San Ren, "Mn … You. "Of course it's you."

Zywane tried his best to calm himself down and continued tapping on the keyboard, "You … Is that you? "

San Ren: "I … Of course it's me. "

"Sis …" Zywane screamed again, tears of joy finally flowed down his cheeks and fell onto the keyboard.

This was not the second time Zywane had cried for San Ren, but it was the second time Zywane's tears had dripped onto the keyboard. The first time was on the eve of Valentine's Day, bidding farewell to San Ren.

San Ren did not agree, nor did she speak.

Zywane calmed down and called out, "Sis..."

This time, San Ren agreed, "Actually … Why are you doing this? "

Zywane did not understand the meaning behind San Ren's words and did not reply.

After a while, San Ren sighed again, "Sigh … I have read all your works, all your experiences, your memoirs, and I have learned your glorious deeds... I want to know, why did you do this? "

Zywane said, "I... The reason why I did this is not in the comments … "

"I'm not asking you this, I've experienced your great motives and noble attitude in the comments, as well as your selfless character and kind-heartedness, I know all about it. I'm asking you, why did you send these things to me through QQ, why did you come and disturb my peaceful life …" San Ren said.

Zywane said, "I... "I thought you wouldn't come to this QQ anymore. I just imagined that you were still alive. I just wanted to pretend that you were still alive and talk to you. I just wanted to find the feeling of the past. I just wanted to get drunk in my dreams …"

"This is my QQ, I can come and go as I please, I can go as I please, I can go as I please, I can go as I please, what does it have to do with you?" San Ren's tone was a little tough: "It's your decision to break up, it's your choice to end it if you want it to end, have I already said a word? Did I complain? I just want to live a peaceful life. Why are you bothering me? My QQ, on what basis are you going to send a lot of heartbreaking, helpless moans for me to see, a lot of pale and weak reasons for me to hear, on what basis? Why are you doing what you want? If you want to break up, then break up. If you want to make up, then make up. Why should I listen to you? Why? I've never seen such an unreasonable person. "

San Ren's emotions were extremely intense, as if she was pouring out all the grievances and hidden hatred in her heart, and her words were a little incoherent.

Zywane understood San Ren's feelings at the moment, and silently listened to him vent.

"Yes, you have a conscience and responsibility. For the sake of your own conscience and so-called responsibilities, for the sake of your own heart's consolation, you can use your conscience and responsibility to fulfill a plan that uses all of your effort to please a thirsty and waiting soul, to abandon the purity of your desire and hurt an innocent and simple soul. Zywane... I would never have thought that you would be so ruthless... "You're so vicious..." San Ren vented her anger.

He knew that at this moment, all the explanations were in vain, and the result would be the best explanation. Since things had gotten to this point, speaking too much was already pointless, and San Ren must have accumulated a lot of anger and grievance in his heart. He decided to let her speak more, and perhaps her heart would feel a little better if she spoke more.

"Yes, your reason is very good, very good, I have carefully read your heart and story, and also your noble feelings, very touching, very moving, very great, self-sacrifice, I can see that throughout the whole process, you have always been forced, brainless, yet it was necessary, well-reasoned, for no good reason, as if you were forced to do something, you are such a great young man, such a loyal, dedicated man …"

"But, Zhang Wei, let me ask you, have you thought about me? Did you think for me, when you decided to leave me and throw yourself into the arms of another woman, did you think of me? Think I'm going to wait for you in that café room? With hopes of happiness and the future, with a heart full of pure love and a dignified desire, with Valentine's Day gifts, ready to leave the house, to wait for you in that room 214.

"Have you ever thought how deeply, how painfully, how heartlessly you hurt another innocent woman while you were satisfying another woman for your virtue and comfort? As for this woman, she had experienced a long and harsh winter and passed through the beginning of spring. The scars on her heart had yet to heal and had just healed … As for you, you ruthlessly tore this scar apart, sprinkled a handful of salt on it, and then emotionlessly left … "Zywane, you're a real man!"

Saying that, San Ren suddenly stopped.

Zywane knew that San Ren must be crying right now, or else the huge pain in his heart must be starting to gush out again.

Zywane's heart twitched, and speechless pain surged in his heart. This pain, was the deep love and care for San Ren.

Zywane knew that love was always selfish. It was not wrong for San Ren to say those words from her position, she had hurt her too much.

Zywane was silent for a while and then said softly, "Sis … I'm sorry. Just scold me fiercely, I was wrong! "

"Haha …" Sorry? So relaxed, so simple. I apologize for being so relaxed, and I was wrong for saying such a simple sentence? Zywane, you are not in the wrong. I am not in the wrong. You are in the wrong for your conscience and for your responsibilities. Love is a mutual wishful thinking, and I was the one who asked for it. What's there to be sorry about? "Don't say I'm sorry, I can't take it. I brought this upon myself. I volunteered. I can only say that I brought this upon myself. I brought this upon myself, I deserve it …" San Ren said.

"Don't say that, Sis! "You're not wrong, it's all my fault …" Zywane's heart was filled with pain, "Sis, all of my mistakes are mine. Don't talk about yourself like that. Don't look down on yourself. "So painful …"

San Ren: "What does it have to do with you that I'm talking about myself? Why do you feel pain? I don't need you to hurt me? "It's not rare …"

Zywane bit his lips. "You don't need it, you can, you don't need it, you can, but I'm willing, I'm willing to hurt for you for no other reason than …" Just because … I love you, I still love you, even. "In fact, I love you even more than I did before …"

San Ren didn't speak for a long time.

Zywane also did not say anything, he just quietly looked at the window of the conversation, quietly looking at San Ren's portrait.

After a long while, San Ren said, "But, do you think I still love you? Do you think I still have you in my heart? Do you think my heart is still warm? "

"Sister, you hate me, you're scolding me, but I understand. I love you, I love you very much, whether you love me or not, even if you don't love me anymore, even if your heart no longer has me, I will still love you forever. I still hope that your heart will always be warm, or else, it will quickly revive."

San Ren: "My heart … My newly revived heart is cold, dead, the melted ice frozen again. "My love, my hatred, my pain, my dream, my dream, my hope, my future, my dreams, they all disappeared with the wind …"

Tears gushed out of Zywane's eyes, "Sis, tell me, what do you need me to do? As long as it can warm up your heart, heal your pain, as long as it can melt the ice in your heart again, I will do anything. For you, I can give up everything for you, all the way to my life …"

San Ren seemed to be moved by Zywane's words. After a long period of silence, she said: "Sigh …. I don't need you to pay so much for me. When the melted ice condenses again, it will become harder and colder … I did hate you. I hated you to death. Love cannot be forced, character determines fate, everything is fated. Very soon, I don't hate you anymore, since fate doesn't allow you to be a husband and wife, why waste your time?

I have to live, I have to do things, I have to survive, I have to let my life be full of energy and sunshine... I figured it out pretty quickly, even if. Even if we can't be husband and wife, I will still treat you as a friend, a good friend … "Since I'm already a friend, I can finally relax and let go of the burden in my heart..."

Zywane's heart was full of sadness, "Sis, she is still the only woman I love in my heart, the most beautiful."

San Ren: "Stop talking, it's all over … … "General Manager Zhang Wei, congratulations on your successful career and bright future..."

Zywane: "I don't want you to be friends with me, I..."