C283 The feeling of tearing the heart out of the lungs

Zywane's heart was once again filled with a heart-wrenching pain. He looked at Chen Yao with great difficulty and said weakly: "Chen Yao, don't ask me, don't ask me why, I can't explain it to myself either. I can only say that I am a bastard … Because He Ying... Because of my asshole. I hurt her. It hurt her so much. I lost her. I've lost her forever … "

After saying that, Zywane's facial muscles twitched in pain.

Chen Yao's chest rose and fell intensely for a while, before gradually calming down. She took two gulps of water and said, "Sorry, I made things difficult for you, I shouldn't have asked you this question, because it involves your privacy again …."

Zywane said, "This is... This is the first time I've ever wanted you to talk about my personal affairs, because. "Because I think of you as my good friend, my good friend who has nothing to say. However, you must never ask me about this ever again, and this time, stop talking about it. I can only tell you this, and never ask about it ever again …"

Chen Yao said, "Could it be, could it be … You don't want to go back to her? You can forget about her? "

Zhang Wei growled, "Chen Yao, I can't find her, I can't forget her, I don't have the face to see her again … … Otherwise, I wouldn't be in such pain … Please, don't bring this up again. "Please..."

Zywane looked pained.

Chen Yao looked at Zywane, "Zywane, do you think dodging is enough? Do you think you can make your heart forget the pain just by not mentioning it? "

Zhang Wei shook his head: "Chen Yao, I beg you, please don't talk about this again. Today, I have brought this up with you, but, please give me some face and don't bring it up again, at least don't bring it up again now, okay?"

Chen Yao looked at Zywane, "Alright, let's not talk about this anymore. But, really, I like your sister a lot, maybe, we will be good friends, maybe, we will be the same kind of good people, maybe, we will be the same kind of beautiful woman."

Zywane nodded, "Yes, it must be, of course it is. I've told her before that if you meet her, you will be very good friends. You are all very outstanding, just that —"

"But what?" Chen Yao asked.

"It's just that you're not as beautiful as her." Zywane looked at Chen Yao and said, "Don't be angry, I am not trying to hit you hard. You are not as pretty as her."

After saying that, Zywane regretted, he was worried that Chen Yao would be angry.

Unexpectedly, Chen Yao looked at Zywane and suddenly laughed: "Really? Director Zhang. "

"It's true," Zywane said. "It's true."

"Hehe …" Suddenly, Chen Yao started laughing happily: "I thought of myself as a beauty, I didn't think that Director Zhang's ex-girlfriend would surpass me, I really want to meet his … "Tell me where she is. I want to go visit his and make friends with his."

Zywane shook his head. "I don't know."

Chen Yao looked at Zywane, "Why didn't you know?"

"Because she's missing," Zywane said.

Chen Yao: "Can't you find him once she's gone?"

Zywane muttered, "It will never come back, never …"

Chen Yao: "Are you sure? Perhaps your heart is not sincere enough. If you are truly sincere, I think she will definitely appear again. "

Zywane laughed bitterly and shook his head: "Chen Yao, you don't understand. You don't understand her, I understand her, she will never appear again."

Chen Yao: "You really know her well?"

Zywane said, "Yes, I know her very well. I know her very well..."

Chen Yao: "Are you in despair? Have you forgotten her? "

Zywane shook his head, "I haven't forgotten her. I will never forget her in this life. She will always be the best woman in my heart. However, I am in despair. I can only dream, in my dreams …" I seem to have vaguely seen her … "

Chen Yao looked at Zywane's dejected face, "Brother, don't be so dejected, the truth is such that it can be a pity. If you really put your heart into it, there might be a chance for you to save it."

Zhang Wei suddenly laughed bitterly: "Chen Yao, you don't understand, think about it, I have hurt her, do you think I have the face to change her mind? Besides, even if they changed their minds, would I still have the face to accept it? "We are all shameless people …"

Chen Yao went silent, lowering her head to drink the water.

Zywane also fell silent, lowering his head to drink his water.

After a while, Zywane raised his head and said, "Today is the first time I have told you my most private secret. I hope you can keep it a secret for me and don't tell anyone else about it."

Chen Yao looked at Zywane emotionally, "Don't worry, I will never let another person know about this from me. Thank you for telling me about this, letting me know that you have such a beautiful sister."

Zywane laughed, "Because I trust you, I see you as a good friend that I can trust..."

Chen Yao earnestly nodded his head, "Mmm … I know, maybe I will slowly understand your heart and your thoughts, and maybe, we really can be the best friends … "

Zywane looked at Chen Yao and felt that Chen Yao's expression was as though she was drunk and confused when she said those words.

However, Zywane did not think much of it and quickly left.

In the evening, Zywane was strolling in front of his computer as usual. However, he did not want to write anything in the document today. Since he had already sent out so many things yesterday, he might as well write them down here from now on.

Zywane logged into QQ, opened San Ren's chat window, and just as he was about to speak, the picture in the lower right corner flickered, opened to check, and saw that it was Chen Yao.

"Hey, what for? Today is the weekend, why are you still working overtime? " Chen Yao asked.

"No, I just turned on my computer. I nearly got some info on it." Zhang Wei said.

"Oh, thank you for your hard work. Then I won't bother you any longer. Go back to your work." Chen Yao said.

"Alright, goodbye." Zywane was eager for Chen Yao to quickly say goodbye.

Then, Zywane started to leave a message on San Ren's chat window.

Zhang Wei suddenly remembered that when Chen Yao said that she was carefree last night, she suddenly wanted to say that she was depressed in her heart. Thus, she was filled with guilt and regret towards San Ren, and told her in detail about everything that happened between him and He Ying during Valentine's Day, as well as the process of her own thoughts and struggles.

After saying that, Zywane felt much better and let out a long sigh of relief. "Sis, I know you can't see it, but I must tell you, it's like you and my priest. I am repenting and don't expect your forgiveness, I only hope that you know about this matter. I know, it's all my fault …" I have to bear the sins that I've done myself, I've brought them on myself, the retribution that I deserve … Your God is Tathagata, and I have no God, so I can only replace him with Jesus, and I can only repent you as a priest, a priest of nothingness. Halluria, thank God.

After saying all of this in one breath, Zywane straightened his back and stretched his back. He looked at the time, and before he knew it, it was 12 o'clock. He had been writing for a whole three hours.

Zhang Wei shook his neck as he looked at San Ren's chat window. Sis, I've told you already, I feel that the burden on my heart has lightened.

Suddenly, Zywane stopped in his tracks, staring at the name on the upper left side of the chat window.

After looking for a while, he did not see any movement. Zywane shook his head, what was going on? He clearly saw San Ren's name being typed just now: "Inputting …."

Zywane suddenly shivered, could it be that San Ren had come online to become invisible?

Zywane stared at the upper part of the window but nothing else happened.

Could it be that he was seeing things? Zywane rubbed his eyes vigorously. Impossible.

Zywane continued to wait stubbornly.

Zywane thought stubbornly in his heart, San Ren must have gone online, he must have seen all of my messages, he must have found out about my experiences and all of my thoughts.

Thinking about it, Zywane suddenly became excited. The missing San Ren had returned!

Zywane's hands were trembling as an intense desire and yearning surged in his heart.

After the excitement, Zywane suddenly felt scared again. So what if he came back? He had already reached this step, would he still have the face to see San Ren again? Would San Ren still be willing to see him again?

Thinking of this, his heart instantly became cold again.

However, Zywane was unwilling to leave. He could only sit there staring at the chat window.

He knew, at this moment, San Ren was also sitting in front of the window, he must also be reading his own message, or maybe he had already finished reading it, and was just like him, staring at the window in a daze.

Zywane just sat there in a daze, waiting...

However, nothing happened. The grey head quietly hung on the computer screen, staring at Zywane, not saying a word.

The night breeze was gentle and the night was bright. As the night gradually deepened, the noisy street gradually quieted down. The surroundings were completely silent. Occasionally, the sound of passing cars could be heard.

Zywane sat upright on the chair, staring at the computer screen, not moving at all.

Zywane finally gave up on waiting after 4 am. Maybe he was just seeing things.

Zywane fell into a deep sleep.

At noon on the second day, Yu Qin came over to eat lunch with Zywane.

As the two chatted, Yu Qin began to chat with Zhao Shu. "Zhao Shu's husband, the Director Xu from Tourist Board's office, seems like she is very close to Vice Mayor Pan."

Zywane chuckled, "Of course, Vice Mayor Pan is in charge of tourism, of course they are close."

Yu Qin said: "What exactly is the relationship between Zhao Shu and Xiao Ruan? Don't make things difficult for us Company. "

Zhang Wei said: "It's not a big deal, Zhao Shu and Director Xu are getting divorced very quickly. Zhao Shu and Xiao Ruan really love each other, they did not do it randomly."

Yu Qin replied with an "Oh". "Xiao Ruan's thin and tender skin, his looks are also handsome, and such a good little white face was trapped by Zhao Shu. "What a pity..."

Zywane was amused, "What? Sister Yu, you have fallen for Xiao Ruan too? I, Xiao Ruan, am not someone who will go easy on others, haha … "The love between brother and sister of the Trembling Heaven Sect …"

Yu Qin laughed out loud: "I was just saying, just sighing with emotion. You don't have to say, this Haizhou's female boss has raised many pretty boys, I have never raised a pretty boy before … …"

Zhang Wei said, "Sister Yu, don't you think you've experienced too little. Learn less. You already know a lot, yet you still have to experience everything?"

Yu Qin shook her head: "This man has no money in his life, there are many things he can only think of, a dream, with money, I would like to try everything, and it would not be in vain for me to walk this world."