1 01. Chief

It was a ruined life.

The only success of more than forty years of life is that after the shooter's death, he passed the provincial medical examination?

I was so stunned that I couldn't even think of it.

But what do you do?

Before and after that, I just kept failing.

Bullying in high school.

At the end of the shooter, he should never pass an unchanged medical school, but he is the lowest grade grader who barely escapes stigma.

After graduation, they don't accept any specialties, forcing others to choose half of the evasive surgeries.

Still, I tried my best when I was in surgery.

Because I realized that ignorance and incompetence can kill a patient.

Is it because of that desperate effort to sleep and think about the patient?

I had the opportunity to work at one of the best hospitals in the country.

‘I used to love it. ’

However, the gullet of failure did not let him go.

Regardless of my skills, I was pushed out of competition in the hospital, and the hospital I owed was wrecked.

She was divorced by a married wife who saw the good, and had to suffer a heavy debt every day.

I wanted to give my blessing to the rest of Nomo alone, but he was about to sit in the street.

Even more.....

“Ha.... ”

I was sentenced to end cancer a few days ago.

It's a damn thing.

* * *

Jinhyun sat helplessly and looked at an empty hospital.

Private hospitals that began to be pushed out of competition within the large hospitals repeatedly failed and turned into ghosts, with countless pressure sticks everywhere.

In Jinhyun's eyes came a corner of the clinic, a broken wedding picture.

"Cancer"? Three months to go? ’

“Damn it.”

The swearing came out.

“Damn it!! Damn it!!! ”

I'm gonna die?

I've only failed so many times! I've never lived the life I wanted! I've never had a hard mother!

However, he had no time to grieve. Men in black suits came to him.

“Kim Jin-hyun? What are we gonna do about the debt? ”

It was a service provider employee, that is, a thunderbolt. They said to Jinhyun in a threatening attitude.

“What are you going to do with the money you owe me?! ”

Jinhyun laughed. I can't believe you got a debt of gratitude to the courtyard where you were sentenced to death.

“Please wait a bit. We'll figure it out somehow. ”

But they didn't even change their nostrils.

“Troubleshooting? That's funny! Do you think everything will work out? The one who bought the mouth. This is why I get divorced by my wife. ”

Jinhyun grabbed his fist.

I divorced my wife after the hospital was ruined. The sick fubi wanted to scratch his nose, but he was forced to bear it because he was the one who owed it.

“Cover your horses. I'll do whatever it takes. ”

“Huh! How? You're gonna die soon? ”

“ ……!! ”

Jinhyun's eyes shook. They knew that he had been sentenced to end cancer.

“You want me to die? Huh? You're robbing me of all my debts. Oh, that's so cool! But you don't know that? Your mother's guaranteed $200 million in debt. ”

“Well, that...! ”

Jinhyun's face became pale.

I was endorsed in my mother's name when I opened the hospital.

Even then, I didn't think I'd be able to repay the money. Rather, I worked hard with the money to succeed.

But the results were devastating.

“Do you think if you die like this, we'll stand still? ”

“Please, don't touch my mother alone. Please.”

In the end, Jinhyun hung.

My father died in high school and I was the mother who raised him alone.

I don't care if I get kicked out on the street, but I can't even let an old nomad sit on the street.

“There's only one way. ”

“What, what? ”

One of them pointed to the upper abdomen of Jinhyun with his finger.

“You know the doctor, don't you? What's in there? ”

“Liver……. ”

“What about this side, that side? ”

“Heart, kidneys……. ”

The face of Jin Hyun, who replied, hardened. I realized their intentions.

They laughed.

It was the devil's smile.

“40 million won for liver, 20 million won for kidney, 40 million won for heart, 30 million won for cornea. What do you think? I want you to die for something good. ”

It meant selling Jinhyun's organs.

They said as if they were wishful.

“Twenty million won is not enough. We'll give you special enquiries. We'll do the surgery in China. There's a lot of demand in China these days. ”

But Jinhyun didn't answer.

Of course. How can you sell your organs? No matter how many months later the body dies.

“Can't you decide? All right, I'll wait. But you better make a quick decision. Before the cancer spreads and you can't use the organs. ”

“ ……. ”

And they're gone.

The rest of Jinhyun murmured in silence.

“You want me to sell my organs and die? ”

Unhappiness was not the end.

A few days later, the building owner came to see him.

“Take it off now. ”

“... Now? ”

“Yeah, do you know how many days you haven't paid rent? The debtors keep coming and going! Now that you've got someone new, pull it out! ”

That's how he got kicked out into the street. I was seized of all my debts, and I had no burden.

I sat in the street in a coat like that, and a cold breeze blew my tears.

How could my life be like this?

Tyreering!

Then my phone rang.

It was my mother.

Hello, Jin-hyun?

“Oh, yes. Mother.”

I just got off the phone. Not in a bad place?

Familiar concern.

My mother lived through her whole life and was always worried about him.

Jinhyun's voice was eaten. I hurriedly lowered my voice to avoid teasing.

“... Yes. It's okay.”

Yeah, well done. It's good work, but don't be too hard on yourself.

My mother still doesn't know he's dead.

“Yes, and be careful of your mother. I... I think I need to hang up because I have an urgent patient. ”

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'll talk to you later.

I'm not confident in controlling my emotions any more. I hung up in a hurry. He wanders around his wallet for a while.

Jinhyun went into any store and picked up Soju with a halted card and a 10,000 won.

“It's 9,000 won. ”

I robbed him of his last money and bought tons of soju. I thought my chest would explode if I wasn't drunk.

That way, he sat in the park in the winter breeze and drank a thug like a homeless man.

“Damn it.”

I wanted to succeed.

I wanted to be a good doctor, a good son, a good husband.

However, he was only a failure of reality.

I choked on Soju.

But I drank about two bottles like that. I heard a clear voice in a blurry spirit.

“Mr. Kim? ”

It was the woman of the cemetery. It was beautiful enough to enter her eyes with liquor.

“You're Mr. Kim, right? ”

“ ……? ”

“Long time no see, remember me? ”

Jinhyun nodded.

“Excuse me... who are you? ”

It was a great beauty, but I couldn't remember.

The woman had a cold face.

“No, don't you remember me? You treated me and my brother last time. Kim, if it weren't for you, we'd all be dead. ”

I couldn't remember saying that.

“... Is that so? ”

“Yeah. Two years ago, you remember the one-on-one hospital? ”

“Ah...! ”

Only then did Jinhyun remember.

Two years ago, I treated a man and woman who were being stabbed to death.

I remember a young man and a young lady with a celebrity look who was quite surprised by the big sword they saw in the movie.

Especially since she had multiple viscera.

“But what's going on here? ”

A poorly maintained park in a lush setting.

It's a place to hang out with a vagabond or a loser like yourself, not with a gorgeous beauty like her.

The woman made a strange laugh.

“I'm here to see Mr. Kim. ”

“... Me? Why?”

“I'm going to give you some seeds. ”

It was incomprehensible.

“What does that mean? Seed?”

“As you say. ”

Jinhyun frowned at the wrinkles of his eyes.

“It's nice to meet you, but I'm not in the mood for jokes right now. If you have any other business, let's see what you can do. ”

But she sat beside him rather furiously. The smell of fragrant perfume aroused my nose.

“Don't drink alone, give me a drink too. ”

She then took the paper cup out of the Soju bag that Jinhyun bought.

Jin-hyun looked at her face in a ridiculous way. She was still making an unknown laugh.

“What are you doing? Give me a drink. ”

She was unusual in the E.R. two years ago.

I didn't scream once, despite the gut spilling from the boat.

I was so tired of the healthcare staff being calm as if they were looking at others' wounds.

"I don't know."

Jinhyun followed Soju. How about a drink with someone who's ruined his life anyway?

That's how the two of them got drunk. A transparent Soju went in and out without any relief.

She said when the liquor went up to the end of her head and her mind blurred.

“It's hard, isn't it? ”

“ ……. ”

I filled my heart with that question.

Is it hard?

Can we simply express this feeling as difficult?

“Do you know who I am? ”

“You know, you're a doctor with great skills who saved my life and my brother's. ”

Jinhyun laughed bitterly.

“I haven't changed since I was a kid. When I was in school, my grades were subordinate, and I was bullied. Even when my father died of gastric cancer, I was bullied. ”

Drunk or frustrated?

His last life flowed out of his mouth.

I thought I'd go crazy if I didn't tell anyone.

Kim Jin-hyun, another medical school? It's amazing you don't get paid.

Now get the hell out of my fucking hospital. I don't need you anymore.

Divorce, us. I can't live like this anymore.

What are you going to do, money!!! You're a fucking doctor, too? Give me the money!!!

You're going to die of cancer anyway. You're going to sell your organs, and you're going to die of something good?

The past life passed by.

"Damn it."

Tears came out for nothing.

It was a tear of failure.

When Jin-hyun quickly wiped her tears with her sleeve, she said.

“Remember when you saved us two years ago? We'd have died if we hadn't been teachers after the fight with the Lower Command. ”

Lower? Upper?

Jinhyun laughed at the unknown word.

“ ……. ”

“After that, we went back to the top and we kept looking at you. I wanted to repay you. ”

Jinhyun frowned. I didn't understand what she was saying.

Are you drunk? ’

But she looked straight at him. The black eyes sank in a dream.

“My name is Rain of the Upper (). Right now, I'm going to pay you back. I'll give you the seeds.”

“What are the seeds? ”

“It's a blessing from the top. Do you have anything you want? It's against the rules, but I'll do whatever it takes. ”

Jinhyun laughed.

Looks like she's drunk. Or your head is weird.

So I said comfortably.

“Are any wishes okay? ”

“Yes, anything. ”

“I want to turn the clock around. So I want to go back to my childhood and live again. ”

It's a dream story, but the woman () didn't laugh.

Her voice became heavy.

“I'll check again. Is that what you really want? ”

“Yes, I do. ”

She takes a little bottle out of her bag and hears it.

The bottle contained a clear yellow magenta. At first glance, it looked like a drink of product ( ).

She advised Jinhyun.

“This time, let me get you a drink. ”

“What is this? ”

“It's a seed.”

It was a silly name.

Already drunk to the end of the head, he stumbled upon it without hesitation. Soft throat flutters.

And all of a sudden, my vision shook.

“Ah...! ”

She asked him again, stumbling around. It was a disgusting voice.

“If you live your life again... what life do you want to live? ”

Jinhyun blinks to avoid falling.

“If you live again... I want to live a successful life this time. ”

“A successful life? ”

“Yes... not ashamed... I have a wonderful son. I want to be a wonderful husband. This time... I want to live a good life. ”

She smiled softly.

“All right, I'll pray you can fulfill that wish. You can stop sleeping now. ”

With it came a drowsiness that could not be caught.

He was so unconscious.

The ratio () looked to a distant horizon.

Her eyes crossed the horizon through time and space.

Can Jinhyun really live the life he wants?

It rests solely on his hands.

She whispered.

God bless you. ”

And she suddenly disappeared, as she did when she showed up.

One of the white feathers bought it and sat down on the bench.

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