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Her gaze gradually lost its brightness. She struggled for a long time until she was completely exhausted. Only then did she let the man let go and give her another injection …

Lying on the bed, her eyes stared blankly at the ceiling. There was no expression on her face. Her pale lips opened as she breathed in deeply.

"Alright, after taking the calming medicine, let her rest a bit more. Mr. Gu, it's not suitable for you to stay in the icu now. There's a camera inside, you don't have to worry about safety.

"Doctor Qian came looking for you. He said that he has something to take care of." Do you think we should go over? "

Doctor Qian, Director of Pediatrics.

Gu Zhongshen pressed the center of his brows, and finally released her hand. He explained in a deep voice, "Someone is looking for me. It's just outside with you. "

After speaking for a long time, there was no response.

He finally got up and walked out with a blank expression on his face.

When all the light in the room disappeared, the little girl on the bed finally had a reaction. Her empty eyes blinked as tears fell like a dam breaking …

The room was dark, lit only by the glimmer of light from the small window. The man waited outside for a long time, and he could clearly see the tears sliding down her pale face.

Crying.

Silent crying.

He just laid on the bed indifferently with tears streaming down his face. His body was stiff and trembling, yet he never made the slightest sound from the beginning to the end.

The tiny body was hidden in the darkness, surrounded by demons that were slowly devouring her.

He watched from outside, his hands clenched.

In that moment, Gu Zhongshen felt that he was about to die too, the surrounding air was pressing on his heart, his heart ached so much that he couldn't even breathe. Everything in front of his eyes seemed to become more and more blurry, the thing that had been supporting him for the past three days, instantly collapsed.

"Zi Nan, it's me."

Deep into the night, Gu Zhongshen stood at the resting area of the pediatric ward.

"What's wrong?"

Zhu Zinan didn't come today, and was currently busy working at the company.

"An An and the child … "How about it?"

The man furrowed his brows. He had never felt so powerless before. No matter how strong his body was, it wouldn't be able to withstand this …

"She woke up. Children... "It's cremated."

"Alright, it will only make her feel worse if she sees it again. This matter will definitely deal a huge blow to An An. Be with her more, don't worry about me, the company will have me. "

Gu Zhongshen responded with a "En" and didn't say anything for a long time. After a moment of silence, he opened his mouth and spoke.

"She's been crying, crying really hard …" Despair. Zi Nan, I don't know how to comfort her. I don't know how to explain it, much less … There's nothing else I can do for her. "

"I think … I'm going to lose her. "

At the end of the year.

In a place like the hospital, even though it was near the end of the year, it still had to follow customs. There were a few words of blessings outside the doctor's dormitory, and there were also a few lanterns hanging in the yard, saying that they would be taken down after the new year was over.

During this year, the people of the Gu family experienced a sorrowful story that they would never forget. However, many people chose to bury it deep in their hearts and never remember it again.

On the day of the new year, the sounds of firecrackers came from a place not far away from the hospital. The man was wearing a black overcoat and carrying a lunchbox.

His pace was steady, and his eyes stared straight ahead. For some reason, his body was filled with sorrow.

When his thin figure gradually disappeared from the alley, someone let out a long sigh.

"I can see him every day. Today … should be the seventh day."

"New Year's Eve... "I don't know who in the family is in trouble, but it's really pitiful."

Gu Zhongshen did not hear the discussions behind him, he only walked straight to the hospital, got on the elevator, turned a corner, and then opened the door.

A wave of warmth came over him. He walked in and took off his jacket, then placed the lunchbox on the table. The chilling feeling on his body disappeared, and the faint smile that hung at the corner of his lips instead.

"I bought your favorite pork dumplings with very light salt. That day, I heard the family member of the ward opposite me mention it and said it tastes good.

No one answered.

There was no response from the small body on the bed. The man paused, picked up the bowl and chopsticks, and placed the dumplings on the bed. "Have some, huh?"

Lu Qinan opened her eyes, her clear eyes did not reveal any emotion, and her red lips were torn apart, "Doctor Lin said that I can get off the bed now."

"Push the wheelchair over, I'm going out."

The man stiffened for a second. "Go where."

The two remained in a deadlock for a few seconds. The bowl of dumplings was still giving off a soft and sweet smell, but no one moved it for a long time.

Gu Zhongshen squinted his eyes and stood firmly on the side of the bed. He picked up the blue and white porcelain bowl that had been placed down, his cold lips moved slightly and he opened his mouth.

"You haven't recovered yet. If you need anything, tell me."

"Eat."

The little girl turned her face away and looked outside the window indifferently.

This kind of scene had already played out many times. From the day she was transferred to the ordinary ward, she refused to communicate with him. She would not even touch the food he bought, she was too childish to even open her mouth.

Today, was the seventh day after delivery. The normal cesarean section had also been discharged, and she had just been allowed to get out of bed.

The atmosphere between the two was extremely tense. It was unknown when the nurse came over, but the door was closed and opened again. A cry was leaking in from outside.

Lu Qinan suddenly raised his face as he felt a choking feeling in his heart.

"I'm going out."

The man turned his back to her, his thin body still busy and unresponsive.

"Gu Zhongshen, I want to get out!"

She shouted loudly and lost her cool. When the man turned around, one of his feet had already stepped on the cold floor. His steps were shaky as he fell forward …

The man caught her quickly. He could no longer conceal the cold look in his eyes and sternly berated her, "What are you trying to do!? His body wasn't clear? "So what if I can get off the bed? Pushing the wheelchair out, where else can I go other than to the hospital?!"

"The mortuary."

The little girl's voice was blank and clean as she cut through the air. Her clear and untainted eyes were raised as she calmly gazed at him. "I want to see them."

She knew the baby was gone, she knew her brother had lost his breath on the spot, she knew her sister had given up after struggling all night.

Gu Zhongshen's hands that were supporting her stiffened, and after a long while, he directly carried her back to her bed. Her slim body pressed forward, and her aura intertwined with her own.

The humidifier on the bed emitted a faint white mist, covering the man's face. One could only vaguely see the loneliness on his face.

"I can't see him anymore."

After a long while, he opened his mouth and said in a calm voice, "It had already been cremated two days ago, and even the newborn baby hospital is unwilling to stay … If you want to, after you leave the hospital, go to the western suburbs. "

There are cemeteries in the western suburbs.

The little girl froze, as if she couldn't react. After a full minute, she gasped and stared at him with an expression of disbelief.

"You cremated them?!"

"Why? That's my child! You didn't want them, so what right do you have to do that?!"

The emotions that she had suppressed for seven days burst out at this moment. She shook her hand away, her eyes red.

"That day, I had no other choice …"

He was powerless to explain. He could only look at the little girl beside him and see her indifference and alienation towards him. His heart suddenly ached as if a piece of it had suddenly been missing.

She was crying. Her tears fell down in large droplets, but there was a smile on her face.

It seemed to be a ridicule.

"You told me there was no choice, what about the babies? You must also tell them that it is because they have no choice but to give up on them and let Dr Mallin save Qin Xuanman! "

Even though he was in so much pain that he was about to faint, Lu Qinan still remembered what he said.

He said, "Save Qin Xuanman!"

He said, "Save the child in Qin Xuanman's stomach!"

The little girl covered her chest with both hands, the pain making her unable to breathe. Her vision blurred and she saw nothing but ashes …

After a moment, the sound was stifled.

"Gu Zhongshen, I hate you so much …"

She hated him for giving up the baby, hated him for not choosing them in the end!

He hated himself for being pushed onto the ground by Qin Xuanman, hated himself for being so weak and incapable that he could not protect his child!

The man's eyes widened as he clenched his fists. He stood there without rebutting in the end.

She said she hated him.

That little girl who liked to hug him, who liked to stick in his arms and say she liked him, now hated him.

"An An..."

"Get out, I don't want to see you again."

Her lips moved, but Gu Zhongshen did not move.

She shrunk back onto the bed, refusing to open her eyes to take another look at him. She had turned on the heating in the room, but it suddenly became cold to the bone.

The man lowered his eyes. His usually strong defensive line began to collapse at this moment. Her hatred was sufficient to make him utterly defeated.

In the afternoon, Lin Qinghuan still came to the hospital. Without saying anything, he brought Lu Qinan and pushed her to the clinic.

"The baby's number is this. I used to live in that thermostat and look at the second one from here. I stayed all night, and when I looked again the next day, the thermos was empty. "

The nurse in charge explained in a soft voice.

She looked at the woman in the wheelchair. She had already known about her situation and desperately wanted to save her child, but she didn't expect that at the last moment, not a single one of them would be able to survive.

Lu Qinan stared at the empty thermos box, his chest was filled with pain and he was unable to breathe.

"She really …" has already been cremated? "

"I'm not sure about that. I'm on the morning shift the next day, and the child was still early when I left at night. He disappeared when I came in the morning. Even if they didn't get to the morgue, they would usually send their parents over to take a last look. "

She paused for a moment, and then explained with difficulty, "Maybe Mr. Gu was too sad and was too reluctant to meet, so she sent it over."

They didn't dare to think too deeply about it. Recently, they heard rumors that someone was stealing their child … No, no, no, the little girl was already dead.

"An An, stop looking, let's go back."

In truth, Lin Qinghuan could not bear to see all this. The girl in front of him had a pale and stiff face, and no longer had any of her usual liveliness. The despair that seeped out from her bones made people's hearts ache …

The little girl nodded, her face devoid of life.

"I can leave the hospital in a few more days, just in time for the new year. I heard that Bao Bao has pretty much recovered, when he gets better, maybe I can come home with you. "

Lu Qinan replied with an "En". She was quiet and did not make a sound.

"An An."

Lin Qinghuan stopped and knelt in front of her, "We … Just try your best to smile, okay? "