Chapter 219

Although Qin Chi En's words are very moving, they do not ripple in my mind. In despair, the world under my eyes is gray, without any color.

I thought I had accepted the fact that I had been hemiplegia for a lifetime, but it was not. I always have this hope in my heart, I hope God can pity me, let me stand up again, even if it is not so agile.

No!

For half a month, I've been longing every day for my unconscious legs to respond, whether it's pain, itching or other feelings, but none of them. In addition to this, every time I prick the needle is like killing me. I'm afraid no one can understand the pain.

In fact, pain is not the main reason for my collapse. I can't see hope.

Liang Qingshan's face has never been relaxed since he began to receive treatment. At the beginning, he was full of hope. At the end of the day, I saw a trace of regret in his eyes. This shows that he has no way out. He can't even prick. I don't know what medicine can make me stand up in the world.

What else can I do? I don't want this paraplegia.

When a normal person loses the ability to move, it is like losing self-esteem. As an old Chinese saying goes, "there is no filial son before a long illness". This sentence can be applied to any serious patient who has not been cured for a long time.

Of course, there are very few good examples in the world, but they are only rare. Everyone who is sick knows in his heart that to be a burden is to add a heavy burden on his closest relatives, always worrying about being rejected.

I don't know if Qin Chien will eventually dislike me, but I have already begun to dislike myself. If it wasn't for the baby in my stomach, I'm afraid I can't hold on.

I didn't go to the clinic today and I don't want to go again. The more I hope, the more disappointed I will be. My previous free and easy has no longer existed. That kind of words can only be said under the circumstances of full of hope, but when everything becomes reality, it can not be accepted.

Outside the window, there was autumn rain, and the whole sky was as gloomy as my mood. I hate rainy days, but also hate this kind of hopeless autumn, because it is always so timely.

Qin Chi En was sitting beside me. His face was haggard and pale. His eyes were deep in his eyes. Original Junlang's face also seems to be a sudden old many years old, finally like a man running four.

I didn't call him intentionally for half a month. I wanted him to feel my indifference and retreat voluntarily. What I didn't expect was that when he heard my bad news, he still came to me, which made me very sad.

I was silent for a long time, turned to look at him and said, "third brother, are you well these days? How can you look so bad. "

"Almost all right, I've moved here, and I'm ready to accompany you to treat your body here."

"What about Miss Cheng?"

"When I left, she also went back to the United States. Recently, she was in charge of the company's affairs, and there were many things."

Is Cheng Wanqing gone? Must have been driven away by him again? He was very strict with her, and he had always been a superior and subordinate. I don't understand. How can he be indifferent to a good woman around him?

I sighed and said, "third brother, you leave me. I am doomed to give you nothing in my life. Don't waste time on me. Miss Cheng is a very good woman. I can see that she also loves you very much. You should try to accept her. "

He shook his head, swept me in the brow and kissed, "happy face, do you believe in doom?"

"Well?"

"Murphy is your doom, but you are mine. I can't tell when I like you so much. I have a strong feeling for Shang Ying. I'm afraid I'll leave early if I'm a man with mud. "

“…… What are you trying to do? As a paraplegic woman like me, I look strange. Many people look at me with sympathy. "

"Silly girl, what can I do for you? I just want to see you more and accompany you. I'm so many years older than you. I'm destined to walk in front of you in the future. I hope you can still be with me on that day when my oil is exhausted and the lamp is dry. "

I heard a sudden sour nose, eyes slightly sour, hurriedly lowered his head, falsely patted the dust that did not exist on the body, hidden the tears under the eyes.

No matter how crooked his mind is, I believe he should be true to me. I can't help but think of the warmth Qin Mofei gave me when he tortured me. He accompanied me to take care of the neon beside the city river on a rainy night, and gave me shoulder support when I was helpless. On second thought, he doesn't seem so disgusting either.

He hugged me to his chest and held my head. His mood seemed to be very melancholy, "happy face, if there is no desert flying, will you fall in love with me? Fall in love with an old man about ten years older than you. "

"You are not old. You are much younger than many of your peers. I thought you were in your twenties at the first sight. Really."

I deliberately ignored the first half of his sentence, because I don't know if I will fall in love with him. If there is no Qin Mofei, my life trajectory will not change. I may still be in the dust land drunk life, can not meet him is not sure."Tell me, will you fall in love with me?" He didn't let me go. He was asking.

I thought for a moment, "if you meet me and you treat me so well, you may fall in love with me."

The so-called "sincerity, gold and stone open", unless the heart has a home, otherwise, it is difficult for such an excellent man to be indifferent.

After hearing this, he smiles and rubs my hair. "Happy face, shall we go to the clinic? Now that we've been sticking to it for half a month, can we do it again? Don't give up until the last moment. You are so young, don't you want to stand up? "

"But if it doesn't work out in the end?"

"Evil fire time with you, prosperity with you old!"

This sentence Why do you seem familiar?

……

"Ah, ah..."

In the clinic, when Liang Qingshan's first needle was pricked down, I screamed uncontrollably. He had the nurse bind my limbs with gauze to prevent me from moving when I couldn't stand it, which would cause the needle to be dislocated.

Every time he gave me a shot, I screamed. It was an indescribable torture to me. The thought of tears came out of my eyes.

"Happy face, endure a tolerance to pass, think of Xiao Fan, think of the child in the stomach."

Qin Chi En was with me, encouraging me and comforting me. I bit a towel and cried like rain. This feeling is really worse than death.

After Liang Qingshan put all the needles down, the nurse clamped the needles with a clip and began to give me electrotherapy. I didn't quite understand the principle of electrotherapy, but I was really uncomfortable. I felt numb all over my body.

I spent an hour in torment. After the treatment, I was sweating. The whole person was completely prosthetic. I didn't even have the strength to speak.

After the nurse changed my clothes for me, Qin Chien came in and took me out. He hugged me with heartache.

Liang Qingshan is recording for me. He has recorded my physical reactions since the first time I did acupuncture. However, there seems to be no change in the past half a month. His heavy appearance fully illustrates the results.

So I said, "Dr. Liang, do I still have to do it?"

"Miss Shen, don't give up until the last day, otherwise the pain of this half month will be in vain, understand?"

“……”

I was speechless. Qin Chien asked Liang Qingshan a lot, and I was not in the mood to listen. Rolling wheelchair out of the hospital, looking at the traffic at the door.

This place is also a busy city, so it is very busy.

I was particularly envious of watching the people walking up and down the road, envious that they could walk so fast and so easily. In front of them came a couple with blonde hair and blue eyes. The woman had a big belly. They were holding her waist in one hand and her husband in the other. They both had a happy smile on their faces.

"I'm tired of walking. I don't want to go, James. Do you hold me?"

"Don't you want natural production? Walking is good for production. Look at that oriental lady. She can't even walk if she wants to. "

The couple spoke English, but I understood it. When the man mentioned me, the pregnant woman gave me a subconscious glance and a shy smile at me. They soon walked away.

I was not stimulated because I really couldn't go either. It's just that I was envious of what the man said about natural production. It's just that my hemiplegic body can't give birth to the baby by myself.

I looked down at my stomach. It's been more than three months, and I don't show my mind at all. What's more strange is that my pregnancy reaction is not as strong as when I was pregnant. I even doubt whether the baby is unhealthy.

It's time to check again. I'm afraid. When people are seriously ill, they are particularly afraid to go for examination because they will hear bad news. To this day, my heart is still very greedy for life and death.

When Qin Chien came out, I told him about going to the hospital for examination. He agreed without saying a word and pushed me to the parking lot.

After I got on the bus, I asked him what Liang Qingshan had just said to him. He hesitated and said that nothing was wrong. He told me to insist on treatment and that he would see hope. What he said was insincere. I guess it's not a good thing for them to chat for so long. I don't want to know.

When we went to the local Red Cross Hospital in Exxon City, I got a lot of attention when I had a pregnancy test. People in the corridor were looking at me. I might have never imagined that I was still pregnant even though I was half paralyzed. It was some crazy guy who made me pregnant.

In fact, I didn't expect that all the people who were half body in hell could have such an unexpected little angel to accompany me.

We stayed in the hospital for more than three hours. After we got all the reports, we showed them to the doctor. He told me that the vital signs of the child were stable, but a little weak. He suggested that I take more tonic.

But as we left, I saw the doctor staring at my back, shaking his head and sighing again. I feel a little nervous, do not know whether he is sympathizing with me or feeling.

Qin Chien heard that the doctor said that I wanted to tonify my body. He also consulted some recipes from the nutritionist on the same floor, and was ready to follow me.I watched him running around dragging his weak body, and my heart was also very uncomfortable. He should have been sitting in the office, plotting strategies and dominating the situation.

On the way back to the hotel, Yang Shuo suddenly made a phone call to me. I was afraid that Qin Chien would hear me. I faltered twice and hung up. He glanced at me and asked who was calling, and he was still so hesitant.

I spread a fluster, say is a netizen, he a bit does not believe, but also did not ask me again, just his deep eyes seem to have more doubts.