Chapter 21

"Mom

In a hurry, I rushed to embrace my mother, but she was too heavy for me to hold, so that we both fell to the ground.

My mother fainted. I got up in a hurry and tried to help her up. Nurse Li rushed to stop me. "Miss Shen, don't move. I'll see the symptoms of my aunt first."

I was flustered by her dignified appearance. I quickly got up and went to the doctor. I know what she means. Maybe it's because my mother is worried about cerebral hemorrhage. My mother is also in her fifties and can't stand the stimulation.

When I found the doctor, many doctors and nurses gathered in front of NICU ward. They carried my mother to the hospital bed. Several people were massaging her limbs, and their eyebrows were frowning.

All of a sudden, I feel like I'm back to that stormy night three years ago

At that time, I graduated and went home with all kinds of certificates that symbolized my glory. I thought my parents would make a lot of delicious food to help me get rid of the dust, but what I was facing was my father's incurable disease. It turns out that they have been hiding from me in order not to affect my reading, and my father is almost dead after graduation.

I can't describe the feeling at that time, like the sky is falling! I can't forget the indifference that I encountered when I borrowed money everywhere, and the humiliation I felt when I got under the body of Chen Jiu. I have been deeply impressed.

And now, I finally understand that feeling, is despair, helplessness and fear! Xiaofan is sick, my mother is also sick, if they have a long time, I don't know if I will have the courage to live.

Mom and Xiao Fan were sent to the rescue room by several doctors at the same time. I stood at the door and looked at the lamp on the rescue room, and I was in tears.

I always feel that I am not a villain, because I have never done anything to hurt anyone since I was a child. I don't understand why God is so cruel to my relatives and why he doesn't let me bear these damned pains.

The long waiting is a kind of suffering, I look at the lamp as if it is a ghost lamp, eager for it to go out quickly, but also afraid it will go out.

Maybe when it was just before dawn, the door of the rescue room opened. The first person who came out was Dr. Zhang, the attending physician of my son. I stepped forward and looked at him with tears in my eyes. My whole body was shaking and I couldn't say anything.

He took off his mask, breathed, pinched his eyebrows and then said, "Miss Shen, come to the office to talk with me."

“…… Good

I wiped my tears, nodded, looked anxiously at the eye rescue room, followed Dr. Zhang to his office. He poured me a glass of water and sat there, frowning and silent. I looked at him in horror, afraid that he would say bad news.

"Dr. Zhang, they..."

"Miss Shen, I got the news from vice president Li that the old lady suffered from cerebellar hemorrhage, which may be caused by too much emotional fluctuation. The amount of bleeding is not large. There is no need for craniotomy. It will recover after a period of good nursing. As for the children... "

He stopped for a moment, glanced at my eyes and said, "it has been confirmed that it is childhood acute lymphoblastic leukemia, not septicemia."

My head suddenly "buzzing" a sound, all of a sudden can't hear clearly, only see a doctor's mouth closed in a speech.

My brain only reverberates in "leukaemia" 3 words, feel impossible, unlikely, small fan is so small, how can produce this kind of disease?

"Miss Shen, we may find that 95% of the cases are cured according to the current level of medicine."

"Is there still five percent impossible? Can he escape so young? "

I'm in a bad mood and my voice is very sharp. I'm an ominous person, so I can't guarantee that the 5% failure will not happen to Xiao Fan.

Dr. Zhang frowned and pushed the water glass to me. "Drinking water makes Miss Shen sick. It's useless for you to be sad again. As a doctor, I will try my best to treat it

"I'm sorry."

Aware of my own situation, I dare not say anything more. Dr. Zhang then analyzed several treatment options for me, and finally selected the two most suitable for children: induced remission therapy and hematopoietic stem cell transplantation. If induction fails, transplant.

He asked me and the father of the child to do a blood test and match with the child. At the same time, the hospital also collected matching blood types for future use.

When I left the office, I couldn't breathe as if someone was holding my throat. How could my child, my five month old, get this disease.

When I came back to the rescue room, I heard that my mother had been sent to the ward, and Xiao Fan was sent to NICU again, with nurse Li taking care of her.

So I came to NICU again. Nurse Li saw that I was worried and allowed me to change into dust-free clothes and enter the isolation room. Xiao Fan's forehead is still hanging a little bit, lying there quietly like a doll.

He's very delicate, his facial features are clear-cut, not very much like me. Small arms and legs are still flesh, in fact, my mother took good care of him, this illness is an accident.

I would like to kiss his flesh face, but I dare not, any action that may cause infection to him. I stood by the edge of the hospital bed, staring at him, and tears were streaming down my face.I hate the man who made me pregnant, but I never hate this angel like son, or because of the existence of Xiao Fan, I don't hate the man I haven't met.

"Miss Shen, don't worry. Fanfan's illness will definitely be cured. Our hospital technology is very few in the whole country, especially the blood disease, which can be regarded as the industry authority. You should be relieved. "

"That How much does it cost, nurse Li? "

"I'm not sure, but hundreds of thousands of you have to prepare."

Hundreds of thousands?

I subconsciously thought of the house in the suburbs that is being mortgaged. If it is sold, there may be hundreds of thousands of them. But if I sell them, where will my mother and Xiao Fan live? The consumption of Mordor is not low. It is not easy to settle down.

Forget it, I don't want these, as long as they are good, I'm not afraid of being broken.

"Miss Shen, the baby is so beautiful. Must your husband be very handsome?"

A word from nurse Li provoked my mind, and I felt uncomfortable all over. If I knew what the man looked like, I would find him and beat him.

I awkwardly do not return to her at the beginning, quietly looking at Xiao Fan. He puckered up and woke up. His big eyes were looking at me. Suddenly, he grinned and held out his hand for me to hold. I put a finger into his palm. He grabbed his hand and danced. It was very cute.

Looking at the time, nurse Li took the warm milk and fed it to Xiao Fan. I walked away from him when he was drinking milk, especially afraid that he might be infected with something. He looked at me like that while drinking, not crying, clever enough to break my heart.

I waited until he went to sleep after drinking milk and went downstairs to my mother's ward. She was still in a coma. Her face was sallow and colorless. I felt that she might leave me at any time. She must have been so self reproached and exhausted that she fell down.

Looking back on the years when dad left, she was not happy. Xiao Fan's arrival made her find the center of her life, but who knows he became so ill again.

It's my fault. I ruined myself and brought them into a dark world. If I didn't work in that place, nothing would have happened. If I had known that Xiao Fan would have suffered so much from birth, I would have preferred not to have given birth to him.

At this time, the sun has risen, clearly is so gorgeous sunrise, but I can not feel its warmth. I went up to close the curtains and wanted my mother to have a good sleep. She is too tired these days.

I also applied for a special nurse for my mother, and I paid 50000 yuan downstairs. This is my last savings, but it's just a drop in the bucket.

I wanted to call Zhen Xiaodong to borrow money, but the thought of getting under Chen Jiujiu in the past gave up the idea. After thinking about it, I still don't want to talk to those people in the field. I don't want them to know more about me.

When I returned to the ward, my mother had already woken up, her brain was not affected much, and she choked at the sight of me. I went up and set up the bed for her and raised the pillow a little.

When I leaned over to cushion her with a pillow, she suddenly pulled up my hair. "What's wrong with your face, baby?"

"I fell down and was scratched by the table when I went to work. It's OK. By the way, mom, Xiaofan's condition is very stable. Don't worry. "

I quickly covered Bondi's face, diverting my mother's attention. I told her about Xiao Fanzhuo's condition, but concealed that he had acute blood disease.

Mother believed it and took a long breath, "it's hard for you, baby. It's useless for me to take care of both of us by ourselves."

"I'm not tired. You can take care of yourself. I've applied for a special nurse for you. When I work overtime at night, you can call on her if you have something to do, OK

"Don't spend so much money. Mother is OK. You can rest assured that you can cure all the patients."

"Mom, look at what you say. Both of you are important to me!"

Looking at my mother's eyes quietly passing through the desolation, I feel extremely hard. She must have wanted me to be with her, but I can't do anything about it now.

I talked with my mother for a long time. When I left the hospital, it was already dusk and the lights were out everywhere. In fact, the night scene of Mordor is very beautiful, but I have no energy and no mood to enjoy it.

I went home and took a shower. I didn't sleep a day and a night, but I didn't sleep at all.

Mary didn't seem to be at work. Yesterday we had a big fight, and I don't know if she would make trouble of me again.

In fact, I'm afraid of hysterical women because they're crazy and ignore everything. I thought about how to face her, whether to turn war into friendship, or to let her bow down completely. I just thought about it, I watched her toe high and high spirited and Zhao Xiaodan appeared at the door together, and also gave me a grim sneer.