Chapter 260 - 258. I Am Sorry III

Third-person POV

"I-I am sorry…" Meiyun sobbed after she watched Di Shang's figure left the room.

She felt like she was the worst person ever to be alive in this world. She kept questioning herself again and again.

"Why do I have to lie to him?"

"Why did I choose to hide everything from him?"

"He trusted me so much but I did everything to make him upset."

"What is the purpose of being happy if it is fake?"

Her palm swung across her own cheek causing her cheek and palm to turn red, "I am an idiot…useless…worthless..."

She cursed at herself with every degrading word that she knew. At this moment, the only thing that she wanted to do was to run to Di Shang's side with everything she had and apologize to him. Addressing every misunderstanding they were having, tell him all of her stories whether it is happy, sad, upsetting or even depressing.

Whatever Di Shang thought about her after listening to her story was a whole different story. If things truly didn't work out between them, then she would oblige to any kind of Di Shang's demand. Nevertheless, she hoped that everything would go finely and smoothly.

Meiyun glanced at the door that Di Shang walked out from and saw two silhouettes standing at the other side of the entrance. The whole courtyard was closely guarded by guards and servants therefore if Meiyun needs anything, they could take immediate action without wasting any time.

She knew that if she uses that door to go out to find Di Shang, they definitely would not allow her to go out. However, the urge to see her beloved husband could not be held anymore. She would do anything to get out of the room and find Di Shang herself, not even her wound could hinder her from looking for him.

Because of her habit, she folded the blanket to the bottom of the bed and tidy up the wrinkles on the sheet. Although her wound in her chest ached, she could care-less about the pain as long as she could see him as soon as possible. Then she slowly opened the window that located beside their bed and looked around outside of the window before soundlessly climbed out of the window.

Meiyun hissed the moment her bare foot touched the cold hard ground. She turned around to close the window back and proceeded with her escape plan. She could easily avoid the eyes of the guards with her skill but slowed down her speed because of her wounds, therefore she had to be more careful.

She cautiously mended her way to the exit of the courtyard. She sprinted to the corner of the wall that had a man-made pond and it had bushes and a tree around the pond which made it a great place to hide.

She hid behind the bushes and peeked through the spaces between the leaves. She clicked her tongue when she saw two guards were patrolling around the entrance, leaving her no chance but had to use her Qi to leap over the wall.

She pondered for a while whether she could jump over the wall without re-opening the wounds in her heart. She patted her chest a few times and said to herself that she would be fine. She focused her Qi on her feet and gritted her teeth as her heart pounded faster than usual which caused her heart to ache.

However, just as she was about to bound over the wall, she heard two familiar voices conversing at the other side of the wall. Her whole body froze when she recognized the owner of the voice.

'Shang Tang? Ah Ren?' She halted and decided to stay and listen to what they were talking about.

"...Please don't tell Senior Meiyun that Master came here or anything about us taking her punishment in her place. Or else she would blame herself to the point she would travel all the way to Xi An to take her punishment….

With just the news of Her Majesty Empress's disappearance, she would fall into depression and definitely would blame herself for not making it in time to save Her Majesty Empress…" Ah Ren's voice resounded in Meiyun's ears.

Her ears instantly rang and her surroundings went blurry as if she couldn't feel or hear anything around her. Her lips were as pale as snow and her whole body was trembling uncontrollably. To make it worse, she was sitting on the cold hard ground beside the pond that also exuded a cold air from the surface of the water.

She sat soundlessly for a few minutes to figure out what was really happening. Even after she sacrificed so much, she still couldn't save Hong er from getting abducted, Meiyun thought so. Her brain was full of negative thoughts which were not a very good thing for her current state.

Then all of a sudden, she felt a warm liquid flowed down her nose and dripped onto her silky white robe. She looked down at her robe and saw her robe was stained with red drops. While the red liquids continued to drip down from her nose to her white robe, her numb brain couldn't process what the red spots were.

The time she realized what it was, she quickly used her hands to cover her nose to stop the blood from flowing down. Although her head was still light-headed, she wasn't as dazed as before and she could listen to the conversation that was happening at the other side of the wall.

"She never say anything to me or rely on me even once, it made me feel useless as a husband. Even when she knew that she was pregnant, she didn't even say a word to me. I know I am in the wrong for doubting her faith in me but I was so frustrated that I can't think of the words that I can say and what I am not supposed to say." Meiyun could easily distinguish that this was Di Shang's voice and she could tell how Di Shang felt when he said these words.

She bit her palm in hope that it could ease up the pain in her heart, 'I hurt him….The thing that I swore to myself not to do is to hurt him, but I still went on to hurt him. I betrayed his faith, how stupid I am to think that by doing this, it won't hurt him. Rather…it hurt him much more that it supposed to be.'

Then a tall shadow passed by Meiyun, she peeked over and saw Di Shang walked back to their chamber with incredulous speed. Meiyun instantly stood up to catch up to Di Shang but because of her abrupt move, her vision went dark and her body fell backward directly into the pond behind her.

Because the pond was at the corner of the courtyard, there was rarely anyone walk pass there and the guards that were guarding the entrance of the courtyard were standing quite far away from her current position. So there was no one who heard the splashing sound of Meiyun fell into the water except the two people that were also hiding behind the bushes.

"Sister-in-law!" They shot up from their hiding spot and sprinted towards Meiyun.

Usually Meiyun could effortlessly swim up but her vision was extremely blurry and her body went numb from the cold water that hit her body so suddenly. She struggled to catch a breath yet only water entered her mouth. The more water entered her throat the more panic she got.

Without thinking much, Di Tian immediately dived into the pond and grabbed Meiyun's flailing hand. He quickly swam up to the surface whilst pulling Meiyun along with him. He carried Meiyun out of the water and did chest compressions on her when he saw Meiyun was not breathing.

Qatar had called for help and the guards were running to get a physician. She used her own robe to cover Meiyun as she was only wearing her inner robe. Then they could hear heavy steps coming towards them at a rapid pace.

"Meiyun!" Di Shang kneeled down beside Meiyun while Di Tian was still giving her chest compressions.

Di Shang slightly lifted her chin up and positioned his ear near her lips to listen to her breathing but even after many pushes from Di Tian onto Meiyun's chest, she still hasn't breathed yet. Then he gave her two rescue breaths and lightly tapped Meiyun's pale face to wake her up.

"Meiyun! Wake up!"

After a few presses on her chest, Meiyun coughed out a mouthful of water. Di Tian's halted and swiftly turned her body to the side into a recovery position. Di Shang gave her a massage on her back and supported her head with his hand.

Meiyun slowly opened her eyes and whispered, "Sh…Shang Tang?"

"Are you fine? Do you feel pain anywhere? The physician is coming, I will bring you to a warmer place." Di Shang put one of his hand on the back of her knees and the other on her back.

He ran back to their chamber while carrying her in bridal style. Meiyun leaned her head on his chest and gripped his collar.

"Shang Tang… I will tell you…I will tell you everything… Please forgive me…" Meiyun sobbed in his embrace.

Di Shang kissed the top of her head without stopping his legs from running, "I will always love you no matter what. I will wait for you no matter how long it takes. As long as you are beside me."

Meiyun tightened her grip on his collar and mumbled tremblingly, "Thank you…"