Chapter 258 - 256. I Am Sorry I

Third-person POV

Meiyun was sitting on her bed while leaning on the headboard of the bed. She carefully munched the food that Di Shang patiently fed her spoon by spoon. He watched her closely and with a cup of water beside him in case Meiyun choked on her food.

Previously, Naran was so excited and going to visit Meiyun after hearing the news that she woke up but as soon as Naran stood up, she collapsed from overstress. Apparently, Naran pushed herself too much in taking care of Meiyun plus Di Shang who insisted on staying beside Meiyun and always forget to eat his own meal because he was too focused on looking over Meiyun.

At first, Meiyun wanted to see Naran's condition in fear that Naran hit her head or any of her vital spots when she fell, but Di Shang prevented her to do so because of her own fragile body.

So they called for another physician to examine Naran and it turns out as what they expected, she collapsed from overworking herself. She only needed to rest and eat more nutritional food to gain back her usual strength.

"Delicious?" Di Shang asked while scooping another spoon of rice congee.

Di Shang's voice brought Meiyun back from her daze. She turned her head towards him and smiled softly.

"En, do you want to have a taste?" Meiyun offered by pointing her chin at the congee bowl in Di Shang's hand.

"No need. You have to eat this whole portion or else you won't get better." Di Shang positioned the spoon full of congee in it in front of Meiyun's lips.

"Aiya~ One spoon doesn't make any difference la~ If you want to eat then just eat it." Meiyun insisted but Di Shang lightly pressed the spoon on her lips.

"Eat, I have my own meal." Di Shang ignored Meiyun's glare.

After the bowl was empty, Di Shang called the servants to take away the dirty dishes and ordered them to call the physician to do an annual check-up on Meiyun. Although Meiyun was happy and touched that Di Shang cared for her so much, she couldn't help but sigh at his over-protectiveness.

Before Meiyun could even ask to take a breather outdoor, Di Shang quickly cut her off and told her to sleep. She wanted to scream out that her spine was so sore that it felt like it disappeared because she was laying down for too long. However, after seeing the worried expression on Di Shang's face, Meiyun shut her lips and became obedient as a puppy.

Physician Tu came into the room while carrying his usual medical box in his hand. Meiyun smiled at the doctor and nodded her head as a greeting and gratitude for him coming here 3 times every single day just to do an examination on her. Physician Tu politely greeted Meiyun and Di Shang back with a bow.

He sat on a stool beside the bed and did a quick check on Meiyun's pulse. He glanced at Meiyun and saw her looking at him with an unfathomable smile on her lips. Physician Tu's heart skipped a beat as he knew exactly what Meiyun was telling him by the gaze alone.

Di Shang who was watching from the side furrowed his brows in puzzlement by the sight in front of him. It wasn't a jealousy towards Physician Tu because he was being stared by Meiyun, but it was because their gaze that they gave each other, it seemed like Physician Tu understood Meiyun much more than him, Meiyun's husband.

It was true and wasn't a secret anymore that Meiyun was very secretive about herself and always blamed herself for what happened to the people close to her. And that was one of the reasons why Di Shang hadn't told Meiyun about the death of their infant and Hong er's disappearance.

"Is there something wrong, Physician Tu?" Di Shang asked with an audible anxiety in his voice.

Physician Tu glanced at Di Shang and back to Meiyun. Meiyun's expression didn't change at all meant that she didn't care if Physician Tu wanted to say it or not. Seeing that both of them communicating with their eyes again, Di Shang became anxious because he felt like a stranger in that room and from the looks of it, he guessed that it probably some secrets that they hid from him.

"Physician Tu?" Di Shang called his name once again but with a more demanding voice.

Physician Tu nodded his head at Meiyun and turned his eyes to look at Di Shang, "Young Madam is aware of it."

Di Shang's brows furrowed even more by Physician Tu's vague explanation, "About what?"

Then he looked at Meiyun who was placing her right palm on her abdomen. Her face was still as gentle as before but there was a tint of regret and remorse in her eyes. Without needing any word, Di Shang understood the little gestures that both Meiyun and Physician Tu displayed.

From Di Shang's expression, Physician Tu reckoned that Di Shang already got what he meant. Physician Tu decided to give the couple space to discuss with each other, he bowed to both of them and retreated from the room without forgetting to take his medical box.

Even after a few minutes, Di Shang and Meiyun hadn't spoken a single word. They stayed still in their place and Di Shang stared at Meiyun with imploring eyes, but Meiyun didn't see it because Meiyun didn't look his way.

He knew it was hard to get an answer out from the tight-lipped Meiyun, but he would still give it a try. He wanted to hear the answer from her own lips, not from someone else that he didn't know well.

Di Shang sat at the side of the bed with his front facing her. he took her other hand and put a little force in it but not enough to hurt her. Meiyun lifted up her face to look at his anxious face.

"Meiyun, why you didn't tell me?" Di Shang asked without beating around the bush.

Meiyun stayed silent. She was deeply aware that it wasn't good to lie or keep secrets from someone close to you especially the partner of her life because it meant that she didn't trust him. At that time, when she knew that she was pregnant, she wanted to tell him so badly but the condition at that time didn't let her.

Hearing no response from Meiyun, Di Shang clenched his jaw so that he wouldn't break into tears of despair.

"Meiyun…I am your husband right?" Di Shang's voice grew disheartened as his grip tightened as well.

Her heart hurts at the question of Di Shang doubting their relationship, yet, she still maintained her gentle smile. However, her lips were visibly trembling. She wanted to tell him what she had been gone through, she wanted to say that she desperately to be hugged and comforted, she sincerely wanted it but she didn't dare to ask.

In her whole entire life, she had implanted a mindset that she had to solve everything herself without asking for help from anyone. Although she disregarded the foolish mindset of her for a few times by asking for a power from Weisheng, she didn't want to burden the person she loves with her whole heart with her uselessness.

She afraid that Di Shang would see her as a useless and weak woman and abandon her because Di Shang once said that he fell in love with her for her braveness and strength. Seeing him always smiled and laughed at her goofiness and the fake mask that she always put on, she slowly feared her true self being exposed. The weak and fragile side of her.

Everyone around her loved the happiness and positive aura that she spread around, and she was proud of it but also dismayed by her own fakeness. Lost in her thought, Meiyun forgot to reply to Di Shang's desperate question.

After a few minutes of waiting for her reaction, Di Shang gave in. He loosened his grip on Meiyun's hand and walked away with a disappointed heart. Meiyun woke up from her daze when the door to their room was slammed close. She held her hand that was enveloped with the warmth from Di Shang's hand and brought it close to her chest.

She bit her lips to fight back the tears that pooled up in her eyes. Her lower lips started to bleed from her biting it too hard.

"I-I am sorry…"