CH 59

The cold voice held no emotion behind it, Duan Yu’s tall body froze, and the hand that was originally placed on the doorknob of the ward froze instantly.

Lu Yuanbai opened his eyes very weakly and glanced at the embarrassed man standing in front of the ward door.

He had never seen a man like this, or Lu Yuanbai had never seen Duan Yu in such a state of embarrassment in the past five years.

His meticulously groomed hair was slightly messy, and he was wearing ordinary clothes that he would not normally wear. There was no change in his appearance, but at the moment it was slightly bluish-black.

He looked very tired.

The man had watched him all night.

Lu Yuanbai looked at the man in front of him, his eyes were flat, and the clear and cold face showed the indifference as always when he was twenty-five years old, but his heart was extremely uncomfortable.

He is distressed for Duan Yu.

It was completely uncontrollable distress, and even Lu Yuanbai stopped talking after calling Mr. Duan.

I’m afraid that those who are cold and warm can’t stop running out of their mouths.

The memories of this time whizzed in Lu Yuanbai’s mind, and the sudden images were telling him how many absurd things he had done in just a few short months.

He and Duan Yu were together, and the two were inseparable every day. They hugged and behaved intimately every day, and even kissed when parting.

Thinking of these, Lu Yuanbai couldn’t help laughing.

However, this laugh was meant for himself.

In his eyes, these things happened to him, unreasonable and absurd.

He and Duan Yu agreed to divorce for five years without breaking the law, but in this short period of nearly four months, the two have done all the intimacy before their lover.

Lu Yuanbai looked at the man standing in the distance and thought he was ridiculous.

He, Lu Yuanbai is such a despicable and ridiculous person that he fell in love with a man at first sight after he lost his memory.

Those absurd pictures made his feelings more contemptible and easy.

Duan Yu looked sideways at the person on the hospital bed. Lu Yuanbai’s peach blossom eyes were much dimmer than usual, as if all the light had been taken away, his eyes no longer flickering.

He is quite familiar with Lu Yuanbai these days. The two have been together for five years. These five years are not long or short, but there are several five years in life.

However, in the past five years, Duan Yu and Lu Yuanbai are still strangers.

Duan Yu watched Lu Yuanbai’s uneasy thoughts emerge in his heart at this time, but he didn’t want to face it directly as before, but chose to escape.

“I’m going to call the doctor.”

As soon as he finished speaking, the man opened the door of the ward and walked out.

Lu Yuanbai looked at the back of the man leaving and said nothing, only to feel that his eyelids were getting heavier and he fell into a coma again.

Duan Yu is a very sensitive person. When Lu Yuanbai woke up and called him, he had already discovered the difference in the other party. 

Duan Yu would never put himself in a passive position, but when facing Lu Yuanbai, he was  quite different from what was expected.

He couldn’t think in front of Lu Yuanbai. The cold voice of him saying Mr. Duan was all too familiar to him.

After he glanced at Lu Yuanbai, he didn’t dare to look again, the answer had already been given in his mind.

Lu Yuanbai’s memory recovered, and the five-year memory of the two previously agreed to get married has returned to Lu Yuanbai’s mind.

But Duan Yu was reluctant to admit it, because he knew that the twenty-five-year-old Lu Yuanbai didn’t love him, and if the two of them put aside their interests, they would not even be strangers.

Duan Yu walked out of the ward to find a doctor, then took out his mobile phone and made a call.

He let the attending doctor who was diagnosed with amnesia after Lu Yuanbai was hospitalized in the car accident come over, and then let him go to the Duan family’s personal doctor.

Duan Yu did not return to the ward until he was done with these tasks.

The doctor in the ward was standing in front of the bed, and the person lying on the bed had fallen into a coma again.

Duan Yu looked at Lu Yuanbai’s haggard face, “Why did he still faint?!”

The doctor looked at Duan Yu: “Before the patient was not injured, the mental pressure was too high and he was in a tense state. Now that the coma has passed, it may also be due to the injury and weakness and physical exhaustion. During this time, it is better to pay more attention to rest.”

Looking at the person lying on the hospital bed, Duan Yu’s expression was indifferent, but his heart seemed to be full of thorns in pain.

“You mean that he had a bad life before.” 

The doctor nodded in embarrassment, “The patient was under too much mental pressure before, and the mental pressure is far greater than the physical pressure. During this time, we should also carefully observe the patient’s psychology. If there is anything wrong, you must seek medical attention in time.” 

The man’s knuckles had blue veins bursting on his hand.

After being silent for a while, he said, “He had a car accident before… he left some sequelae, do you see anything right?”

The medical facilities of the hospital in the small county are not developed, and the doctor was a little embarrassed after hearing this, “I’m sorry sir, we are here. The place is not very developed, so we can’t handle such a situation.”

Duan Yu didn’t say anything after hearing this, the doctor didn’t ask any more questions, turned around and left the ward.

After the doctor left, the ward returned to silence, Duan Yu couldn’t hear the outside noise, only Lu Yuanbai’s faint breathing sounded in his ears for a while.

Duan Yu reached out and stroked Luyuan’s pale cheeks, much thinner than when he left a month ago.

At this time, Lu Yuanbai was lying quietly on the bed with gauze wrapped around his head, very well-behaved, just like sleeping at home.

When Duan Yu was working in the study, Lu Yuanbai would always find some reason to walk into the study to accompany him. It was very quiet, calm. He liked it very much.

Then he would sit on the sofa and pretend to read the script, but in fact he was secretly watching him.

Sometimes he would bring the fruit plate made by Aunt Li, but after entering the study, he would not leave.

Duan Yu knew all the little tricks that Lu Yuanbai thought they had done well, but the man didn’t expose them.

Looking at the person lying on the hospital bed at this time, Duan Yu couldn’t think straight.

Hearing that the doctor said that Lu Yuanbai’s recent life was not good, Duan Yu felt that his heart was broken. His lover, his Lu Yuanbai, would call him every day, talking sweet words that he likes to hear, and coquettishly saying sweet things to him, but in so many conversations, not a single word was a complaint.

“I miss you.”

“I love you.”

“I dreamed of you.”

“You also want to love me.”

Every word and every sentence is the feeling that Lu Yuanbai wants him to know: “Liar! Liar!”

Those good things were said to lie to him.

Duan Yu stroked Lu Yuanbai’s cheek, and then his fingers gently touched Lu Yuanbai’s bloodless lips.

“I love you.”

Duan Yu looked at the person lying on the hospital bed with a pair of cold eyes.

“Lu Yuanbai, I love you.”

The number of times Lu Yuanbai has said this to him can’t be counted, but this is the first time Duan Yu has said it.

Looking at the person lying on the hospital bed, Duan Yu suddenly felt that his feelings for Lu Yuanbai seemed insignificant compared to the other party.

He gave Lu Yuanbai too little.

Just yesterday, when he saw someone with blood on his body, Duan Yu felt an unprecedented panic in his heart. 

He was afraid that something would happen to Lu Yuanbai, he was afraid that Lu Yuanbai would leave, and he couldn’t be without the other person by his side.

But he owes him too much.

Looking at the person lying on the bed at this time, it was like an illusory cloud in the sky, Duan Yu couldn’t grasp or touch it, he was afraid that he would never have a chance if he didn’t say it again.

Just like yesterday’s accident, it gave Duan Yu great fear.

Duan Yu gently caressed Lu Yuanbai’s cheek with his hand, and in his eyes was the love and affection that a man has never had before.

Duan Yu had never expressed his innermost feelings before, he felt that it was the performance of the weak.

But in front of Lu Yuanbai, he was the most cowardly person.

He is also an incompetent ordinary man in front of his lover.

Duan Yu’s mind flashed through every day he spent with Lu Yuanbai before parting, and that enthusiastic smiling face was as bright as a little sun forever.

But when he went to see Lu Yuanbai’s investigation report after he completely determined the relationship between the two, his heart felt as if it had been dug out.

In the first 18 years of Lu Yuanbai’s life, he was the proudest young master, but what he experienced after the age of 18 was very depressing and sad.

He felt distressed, and after knowing all the experiences of Lu Yuanbai, the pain continued to spread in his heart.

He even wondered more than once how great it would be if the two were in love from the start.

Will Lu Yuanbai suffer less and suffer less?

Whether it was eighteen-year-old Lu Yuanbai or twenty-five-year-old Lu Yuanbai, he felt distressed.

Duan Yu knew very well that he loved Lu Yuanbai.

Even if Lu Yuanbai recovers his memory, this matter will not change.

What he loves is Lu Yuanbai.

When Lu Yuanbai woke up just now, Duan Yu noticed the difference in Lu Yuanbai, and Duan Yu also knew that such a day would come.

The person who recovered was not the eighteen-years-old Lu Yuanbai, but the twenty-five-years-old Lu Yuanbai who didn’t love him at all.

The look in Lu Yuanbai’s eyes when he woke up made Duan Yu feel unfamiliar, making him feel distressed.

He felt distressed for Lu Yuanbai, who had endured hardship since the age of eighteen, but he also deeply knew that Lu Yuanbai, who had recovered his memory, did not love him.

So he chose to escape the moment he saw Lu Yuanbai wake up.

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It seems that in front of Lu Yuanbai, he will always be embarrassed.

Duan Yu was also carrying the ruby ​​ring that Lu Yuanbai had bought for him at this time. Duan Yu would wear it on his hand every day except for some necessary cleaning time.

However, probably because of the filming, Lu Yuanbai did not wear the wedding ring of the two at this time.

Looking at Lu Yuanbai’s empty fingers, Duan Yu took off the ring on his left hand and brought it to Lu Yuanbai’s ring finger.

Duan Yu’s ring was slightly larger than Lu Yuanbai’s.

Immediately afterwards, Duan Yu bowed his head slightly, and the distance between the two kept increasing. Just when Duan Yu’s lips were about to touch Lu Yuanbai, there was a sudden knock on the door of the ward.

Duan Yu looked down at Lu Yuanbai’s lips with a pair of indifferent eyebrows, and finally got up slowly and walked to the door of the ward to open the door.

It was none other than the director of the crew and some staff outside the door.

When they saw that the gatekeeper was Duan Yu, the people behind the gate couldn’t help but be very surprised.

Duan Yu looked at these people coldly. The actor who played opposite Lu Yuanbai was very uneasy at this time, and asked boldly, “Brother Yuan is awake?”

Duan Yu looked at the person, his eyes chilling down his spine.

The director looked at Duan Yu and felt ashamed, they really couldn’t help Lu Yuanbai.

Just when the nurse came out of the ward after changing the medicine for the patient, she saw a man with an injured face standing at the nurse’s station.

That person was none other than the actor who played opposite Lu Yuanbai, and the director was next to him, and the director’s face was not very good.

Duan Yu only let the director come in and take a look at Lu Yuanbai, then closed the door of the ward, and then guarded Lu Yuanbai, who was still sleeping.

It was not until the evening that Lu Yuanbai woke up again.

Lu Yuanbai opened his eyes in a daze, looking at the snow-white ceiling above his head and felt a splitting headache for a while.

“Yes…”

Hearing Lu Yuanbai’s whimper, the man who closed his eyes and rested hurriedly stepped forward to check.

“Does it hurt?” 

The man’s words were full of pity and distress.

Lu Yuanbai’s consciousness was still slightly awake for a while, thinking it was a dream, squinting his eyes and nodding aggrievedly.

Duan Yu’s heart tightened when he saw it.

Then he took out the painkiller left by the doctor, Lu Yuanbai stitched the back of his head with acupuncture and the anesthetic was just over, the pain was unavoidable, and the doctor prescribed some painkillers at random.

Duan Yu stepped forward and picked up Lu Yuanbai, letting him sit in his arms, and the faint fragrance of the other party’s body lingered on the tip of his nose again.

“It won’t hurt after taking the medicine.”

Duan Yu’s sturdy arms embraced Lu Yuanbai’s from behind, holding painkillers and water in his hands.

Then he carefully fed the pills into Lu Yuanbai’s mouth, followed by water.

Duan Yu has served only a handful of times, but he always served Lu Yuanbai every time.

But it may also be that it was very difficult to swallow the pills, and Lu Yuanbai choked just after taking a few sips of water.

Duan Yu didn’t mind that Lu Yuanbai was choking on the water on his wrists and clothes, but reached out and took a few pieces of paper for Lu Yuanbai to wipe his mouth and pat his back.

“Have you swallowed the medicine?”

Lu Yuanbai, who was bitter in his mouth, shook his head dazedly.

When Duan Yu saw it, he cautiously fed Lu Yuanbai a few sips of water. If not counting the short wake up in the middle, Lu Yuanbai had already fallen asleep for two days.

Duan Yu let Lu Yuanbai sit in his arms, and just sitting with someone in his arms, Lu Yuanbai could no longer sleep, and his body would be overwhelmed.

But Lu Yuanbai was obviously not in a good mood, and his whole state was between half-dreaming and half-awake.

“I want to lie down.”

Lu Yuanbai felt sore and didn’t want to sit, and said in a light voice.

It may be because of the memory recovery, even when Lu Yuanbai spoke when he was not awake, he lost the coquettish feeling he had before.

However Duan Yu didn’t care, “I can’t sleep anymore.”

Then he put the weak person on his shoulder, “Let’s sit down for a while.”

Lu Yuanbai couldn’t tell who was holding him behind him. No one has the strength to look at him. He is too tired. The injuries on his body and the tense mental state he has been in make Lu Yuanbai very tired.

Lu Yuanbai only felt that the person behind him was very gentle, as if he loved him very much, and then nodded.

Immediately afterwards, Lu Yuanbai felt a heat in his ears, and the hot breath of the man rushed to his neck.

“Good boy.”

Lu Yuanbai hadn’t heard these words for many years.

The two sat in the ward embracing each other like this, and it was not until half an hour later that Lu Yuanbai’s consciousness gradually woke up.

After seeing what he was doing again, his heart sank suddenly.

The next moment, Duan Yu who was in his aems suddenly moved, and then struggled slightly to get up from Duan Yu.

Duan Yu was stunned by the sudden departure of the person in his arms, and then went to check the injury on the back of Lu Yuanbai’s head to see if there was any bleeding.

Lu Yuan’s fair neck was also scratched by shards of glass because of the broken wine bottle.

Duan Yu frowned and reached out to touch it, the next moment only the person in front of him shook, and he hurriedly widened the distance between the two.

“Hiding?”

Lu Yuanbai didn’t turn his head to look at him, but said indifferently, “Mr. Duan, please pay attention to your behavior.”

“What’s the problem?”

“[It’s] Inappropriate.”

“Was it appropriate to lean against my arms just now?”

Lu Yuanbai was stunned and speechless, but his cold face still didn’t look at Duan Yu.

Lu Yuanbai did not forget the memories that happened during this period, but these memories continued to destroy him all the time after he woke up.

Duan Yu has always disliked others to speak to him in a tone of command, but it would be understandable if that person was Lu Yuanbai.

For the past two days, Lu Yuanbai was in a coma, and Duan Yu thought about it for a long time in front of the hospital bed. The reason why he chose to escape before was just because he was afraid of losing Lu Yuanbai.

Lu Yuanbai did not recover his memory, and he was still Lu Yuanbai.

I don’t know if it was because Duan Yu often changed his perspective after being together with Lu Yuanbai, and gradually forgot what kind of person he was.

Even if the things of his Duan Yu are broken, they can only be his.

Looking at Lu Yuanbai, who had his back to him and was full of defenses, Duan Yu didn’t have any indifference to him, but only love and love.

Seeing that he doesn’t want to take care of himself now, Duan Yu doesn’t force it. Lu Yuanbai has been taking drips for the past two days to maintain his nutrition. Duan Yu got up and planned to go to Lu Yuan to ask for some food.

However, not long after Lu Yuanbai’s bottle of IV drip was finished, his stomach would not be suitable for eating. In the end, the medical staff only gave Duan Yu a glass of hot milk.

Duan Yu looked at it and said nothing, then turned around and went back to the ward.

Whether it was because Lu Yuanbai listened to what he said just now, this time, he did not lie down on the bed again because of his physical exhaustion, but sat on the head of the bed.

A pair of peach blossom eyes looked out the window silently at this time, the night was dark, and only the street lamps shone slightly in the dark night.

Duan Yu handed the milk cup to Lu Yuanbai.

Lu Yuanbai glanced at it lightly, but did not pick it up, the expression of rejection in his eyes was very obvious.

The small lips lifted lightly, “I don’t like it.” 

He didn’t know if it was the cup of hot milk or the person holding the milk cup.

After listening, Duan Yu put the hot milk on the bedside. He knew that Lu Yuanbai liked milk, and he said that he didn’t like it.

But no matter how indifferent the people in front of him are towards him, Duan Yu’s face has not changed in the slightest, his expression is calm, but he is always paying attention to Lu Yuanbai’s injury.

He and Lu Yuanbai agreed to marry for five years, and he knew how ruthless and undecided Lu Yuanbai was.

The doctor that Duan Yu asked for before arrived at the small county town early this morning, but because Lu Yuanbai was still in a drowsiness, he never came to help with the examination.

Now that people are awake, several doctors have come in to help check Lu Yuanbai.

“Did Mr. Lu have symptoms of dizziness when he woke up?”

Lu Yuanbai nodded and said truthfully, “Yes.”

“Can Mr. Lu’s headache now be distinguished from a wound or a nerve?”

Lu Yuanbai Looking down at the hospital gown on his body, “Yes, there is obvious pain in both places.” 

The doctor stepped forward to check, “Does Mr. Lu know about his amnesia?”

“Yes.”

“Then what happened during this period of amnesia ? Do you still remember it?”

Lu Yuanbai’s slender and thick eyelashes trembled slightly, and then a cold voice said lightly, “I don’t remember.”

Duan Yu, who was standing in one part of the ward, stared at Lu Yuanbai without blinking.

The man on the hospital bed spoke without a trace of emotion.

He said that he didn’t remember, and that they didn’t even remember their relationship during this time.

But Duan Yu didn’t believe it.

“You remember.”

As soon as the man’s voice came out, Lu Yuanbai and the doctor looked in Duan Yu’s direction.

Lu Yuanbai’s pair of peach blossom eyes and Duan Yu’s eyes meet, and the admiration of the past has long since disappeared.

His voice was indifferent, as if speaking to a stranger.

“I don’t remember.” 

The doctor was a little embarrassed for a while, “Mr. Lu, this is related to your condition, please answer truthfully.”

Lu Yuanbai took his eyes back and stopped looking at Duan Yu, “I don’t remember. About whatever happened, I can’t remember.” 

The man stood in the corner, his eyebrows looked dangerous as if he was looking at his prey.

Just when the doctor was about to continue his questioning, Lu Yuanbai said again, “My condition is also part of my personal privacy. I hope that there will be no outside interference when you help me diagnose.”

This sentence is obvious, which forces Duan Yu to go out with the Duan family’s personal doctor.

Doctor: “Mr. Lu, you are not in a good condition now. You may not be able to remember all the doctor’s orders that you need to remember. It is better to have someone accompany you.”    

“No need.”

“It is better to be accompanied by family members.”

Lu Yuanbai didn’t look at Duan Yu when he spoke, “This is my private matter.”

Duan Yu looked at it coldly, but turned around without saying anything and went out of the ward.

Now is not the time to talk about things with Lu Yuanbai. At this time, the other party’s mental state is not good. Everything depends on Lu Yuanbai’s physical health.

Although Lu Yuanbai said that Duan Yu made him feel uncomfortable, it didn’t sound like the truth.

As for whether Lu Yuanbai has that memory, he will ask the doctor later.

After Duan Yu left, the doctor could clearly see that Lu Yuan was relieved.

The doctor looked at the person on the hospital bed and asked again, “Mr. Lu has no one else in the ward now. I need to confirm with you again. Do you remember the memory that happened during this period of amnesia?”

Lu Yuanbai’s peach blossom eyes dropped slightly. Then a low and deep voice echoed in the ward, “Remember.” 

The doctor was a little surprised. He remembered that when Lu Yuanbai woke up from a car accident, he saw Duan Yu’s vibrant appearance.

However, now Lu Yuanbai’s state seems to have completely changed into another person, and he doesn’t want to admit the memory of this time at all.

The tone was also full of boredom.

Annoyed with the ridiculous self before,

“Mr. Lu…” The doctor obviously wanted to ask something, and figured out Lu Yuanbai’s mental state.

However, before he could ask, he was interrupted by Lu Yuanbai.

“Doctor, you should also know that there are many times when people can’t help themselves.”