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"Alicia, what happened to those eyes?

That's what Master Duke said as he looked at me in a suddenly serious atmosphere.

Oh, you care there as soon as you see him?

"Nothing."

I made a deliberate smile and said so.

"There's no point in falling for it."

Sharp blue eyes can be pointed at me.

I almost shivered for a moment. I feel more powerful than before.

I'm sure if you lie about something, you'll be able to crack it right away.

"I gave it to someone with eyes."

I said that in a bright tone without breaking my smile.

Master Duke's eyes opened wide.

Mel is also staring hardly even though she was nicotine just now.

"What the hell!?

It was Mel who opened his mouth first.

Mel's high voice sounded like an explosion in my ear.

"So my"

The moment I tried to explain it again, Master Duke's hand touched my cheek.

I feel kind of powerful......

I slowly looked up at Master Duke's face.

... I wonder if I use ghost shapes at times like this.

Master Duke is staring at me with a rugged eye.

It's unusual for Master Duke to see me like this.

"Why?"

Master Duke's voice was very low and I had goosebumps all over my body.

... I'm angry.

I was speechless in the atmosphere of Master Duke.

I've never been under so much pressure.

Both Jill and Mel seem surprised at how Duke is doing.

I might have thought I was scared of people for the first time.

"You have no idea how I've been watching Ali. I also knew Ali had played the villain since she was a young girl and enjoyed it. If Alicia's good, I'm good."

Halfway through, Master Duke stopped talking.

Until just now, the anger had disappeared from Master Duke's eyes. He had more of my heartbreaking sad eyes.

Did you play the villain...?

Master Duke would have definitely spotted that.

"... I don't remember asking Master Duke to watch over me."

I would have uttered such a shitty word if I had noticed.

Even though I knew I'd regret it for the rest of my life, I did.

If she was a bad girl... I'm sure she would have said that.

'Cause it's a bad girl's job to say thorny words.

But why is it so heartbreaking?

If this is the way to a bad girl, it's a real pain in the ass.

"Well, I'm sorry"

Master Duke laughed painfully.

... I've never seen Master Duke's crying expression since he was born.

I regretted dying for the words I uttered.

But I can't erase what I put out in my mouth again.

Master Duke gently took his hand off my cheek. He went home the way he came.

I was staring at that back blindly.

I can't get that look off my mind from Master Duke.

I didn't expect a day to come when I would regret so much one unconsciously uttered word.

I felt like a very serious sin for what I did.

The bad girl I wanted to be... it's not like this.

"Is Ali Ali an idiot? It sucks."

Mel stared at me. That was the lowest voice I've heard today.

Mel's words sting my heart.

I know, how shitty I am right now.

I didn't have a voice when I tried to say it.

I haven't had a conversation with anyone in two years, so I don't know what to do. I know I shouldn't use that as an excuse.

When my head is confused, I can't say anything extra.

I can't believe I'm such a shitty woman.

For the first time today I have learned of the fear of forgetting to make contact with people.