Chapter 68： give birth

Ye Xuan dragged Ling Jiaze out blindly, and didn't let go of his hand until he entered the military area and there were fewer people beside him.

After letting go, seeing that Ling Jiaze was still silent and only lowered his head to think about things, Ye Xuan sighed helplessly and said, "I can't visit the base today, let's go home first?"

Ling Jiaze nodded, and followed him back home in silence.

Back at home, Ye Xuan saw that Ling Jiaze was still a little bit lacking in interest. After a long time of writing, he couldn't come up with any words of comfort and relief, but he couldn't understand his state of mind after substituting it.

Although both of them have experienced family broken things, one is a natural disaster such as the accidental death of their parents, and the other is a man-made disaster such as the father's betrayal of the family. Speaking of which, they have nothing in common. He felt that his words were inappropriate, and in the end he could only pull up a chair and sit beside him and accompany him quietly.

After a moment, Ling Jiaze said coldly, "I didn't expect to see him."

Ye Xuan didn't understand what he meant, so he could only answer tentatively: "Today the base sells drugs publicly, they should be going to the trading area for this, the two of us just happened to be there."

Ling Jiaze didn't let him guess, but said to himself: "Ever since I found out that that person cheated on me and lied to me, I feel disgusted when I think of him, and I wish I would never see him in my life. So I am here. After the end of the world, I thought about it and didn't care about his affairs at all. But at that time, I thought that he would live a lot harder than before after the end of the world, but I didn't expect his life to be like this."

Timid, shrinking and greedy, when did Ling Jiaze see his father show such a side since he was a child?

The apocalypse broke his glamorous shell and tortured him into a completely different look. The gap between the front and back was so big that Ling Jiaze didn't want to think about what happened to him all these time, and it became like this.

Ling Jiaze continued to recite, "The base in city b is so big and there are so many people. In the seven days here, it's normal that I haven't seen a person I knew before, but if I see anyone, it's okay. It can only be said that the fate is unfinished. I don’t know if I should go to see him, so I made a bet with myself before coming to city b—I don’t go to find him or avoid him deliberately these days, If we can meet, it means that the fate of the two of us is not over yet. If we don’t meet, it means that our fate is over. I will never miss him again in the future. As a result, I met him the first time I went out. Coincidentally."

"This…"

Ye Xuan has the urge to take back the coincidence before, and it's good to say more and not say more wrong, this is really not a lie.

"I still feel disgusted and hate him when I see him and that woman today, but I really want to leave him alone..." Ling Jiaze paused for a long time, looked at Ye Xuan with red eyes, and said in a hoarse voice, "I am now I feel that I am very indecisive, and I have clearly thought about it before and don't care about his business, but when it comes, I can't be ruthless."

Ye Xuan took him into his arms so that he could bury his head on his shoulders, deliberately not looking at his red eyes, patted him on the back and said, "If you give them some supplies, it will make you feel better. , I'm going to send him some of the past tomorrow, and we're not bad at all, right? It's just a good deed every day."

Ling Jiaze shook his head, choked and said, "I had this thought before, but as soon as I closed my eyes, I would see my mother asking me why I should care about the man who betrayed her... Ye Xuan, he lied to my mother and me. After so many years, I'm still rushing to consider his life and death, do you think I'm too cheap?"

"What nonsense?"

Ye Xuan can now understand the knot in Ling Jiaze's heart.

He had resentment towards Ling Yun's betrayal and deceit, and this resentment was enough to make him make the decision to never see him again, so for the past six or seven years, he was able to stay in city c all the time. The city's biological father ignored him, completely pretending that the other party did not exist.

But now the apocalypse has come, and the father, who was originally high above the sky, fell into the clouds and became the bottom of the new society. Every day, he struggled with food and clothing and lived a precarious life. This gap broke his original cognition of his father to a certain extent. The hatred in the past was not enough to support him to make the decision to live a leisurely life, but watch his father die tragically.

Before the end of the world, maybe one day he will grow up and see many things openly. When the other party is seriously ill and dying, he will temporarily put aside his previous grievances and come back to visit his elderly father to give him his last ride.

But the end of the world came suddenly, when Ling Yun was down, he hadn't made the mental preparation, so he forced himself into a dilemma.

"You're just soft-hearted and reminiscing about the old feelings. This is human nature, and no one can avoid it." Ye Xuan put one arm around him and patted his back with the other, "Would you like to listen to me, an outsider? ?"

Ling Jiaze stressed dully: "You are not an outsider."

"Yes, I said the wrong thing." Ye Xuan kissed the top of his hair and hugged him tightly before saying, "No matter how much he has done before, he is your father after all. The one who gave you your life, right?"

"Um."

Ling Jiaze hesitated for a long time, but nodded. No matter how much he hated Ling Yun, the fact that the other party was his father would never change. This was an iron-clad fact. Unless he can, like Nezha, eviscerate his bones and return his father's life to his life, otherwise, the kindness of life will always be there, and it cannot be changed by a piece of paper.

"Then we'll return the life we ​​owe to him, and from now on, the real bridge will return to the bridge, isn't it?"

"Why?"

"He doesn't have any superpowers, and he doesn't have any special skills. In the base, he can only eat and wait to die every day. If no one pulls him, it won't take long for him to die. In that case, we will Give him a batch of supplies, and find him someone who can take care of him and help him get through this difficult time and save his life, so wouldn't that be equivalent to paying a life for a life?"

Having said that, the more Ye Xuan thought about it, the more he felt that this approach was suitable, and he said quickly: "He didn't pay a lot when he gave you this life, and it's not a big deal for us to give him some supplies now. We are all for each other, and you don’t have to worry about anything anymore.”

The person who conceived in October was Ling Jiaze's mother, and Ling Yun only made a small contribution, so when they repaid this kindness, they could naturally repay it with a trivial matter. Anyway, it is still one life to one life, and everyone is not at a loss.

After understanding what he meant, Ling Jiaze's ears turned red and his face became a little more bloody. He raised his head and glared at Ye Xuan, and said in a low voice, "How can you be someone who settles accounts like this?"

Since ancient times, people have paid attention to the relationship between father and son. How could he change his life so lightly?

Ye Xuan also knew that what he said was a bit outrageous, but being a father was not merciful first, so would he still ask for filial piety as a son? Since everyone has no feelings but only grievances, then the kindness and the grievances should be clarified a little bit, right?

Seeing that Ling Jiaze was in a better mood, Ye Xuan continued: "You don't want to see him and you want to see him die. There are two things. No one is forcing you to choose one or the other. Don't force yourself into a blind spot. I can understand your love for your mother and resentment towards him, and your unwillingness to have contact with him, but your mother never asked you to give up your grace, right?"

"Although this sentence is inappropriate for me, I still want to tell you..." Ye Xuan looked into Ling Jiaze's eyes and said word by word, "Your mother must not hope that one day you will be wronged because of your love for her. Love, and hard for your own."

Ye Xuan believes that the mother who can make Ling Jiaze miss him so much must love him very much. Since she loves him, she will not be willing to let her precious son be wronged because of him, nor will he want to see him suffer because of this love.

This is both his guess and his conclusion.

"I...you make me think about it."

Ling Jiaze only felt that his heart was in a terrible mess, and a lot of thoughts came up all at once, all mixed up in pieces, and he couldn't grasp the faint thread at all.

"It's okay, you think slowly, I won't disturb you." Ye Xuan rubbed his hair and patiently comforted him: "I woke up early this morning, how about you wash your face and sleep for a while? I fell asleep. Don't think about these things anymore."

Realizing that he didn't mean to accompany him, Ling Jiaze asked in a muffled voice, "What about you?"

"The coal in this house has run out. I'll find someone to change it and come back to cook. I'll wake you up when the meal is ready. How about it?"

Ling Jiaze hesitated for a few seconds, then nodded obediently, "Well, I'll listen to you."

Ye Xuan accompanied him to wash his face, closed the curtains, raised the temperature a little, and took out the seeds of jasmine from the space, spawning a few jasmines with hypnotic properties. He sat on the edge of the bed and patiently waited for Ling Jiaze to fall asleep before locking the door and leaving.

After coming out, he found the soldier who brought him here yesterday. He didn't ask him where to change the coal, but said, "Where is Colonel Shen, I have something to ask him."

He said embarrassedly, "Mr. Ye, this is not in line with the rules."

"It's alright, you go and give me a report, just say that the two of us met Ling Yun and Du Xiaoling at the base today. I want to ask him about Ling Yun and see if he can find time to meet me. If If he is busy, he can find someone who knows more about Ling Yun's current situation."

If he remembered correctly, Shen Ping said before that Ling Yun's whole family fled from city B to the base, which means that he and Du Xiaoling's son also came to the base. But today he and Ling Jiaze didn't see him, which made Ye Xuan a little curious.

After all, Ling Jiaze has an obligation to repay his kindness to Ling Yun, his father, but he has no obligation to adopt a stepmother and half-brother, right?

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When a person dies, not going to see him is different from watching him die, at least that's how I understand it