4-37: A Careless Family (3/6)

4-37: A Careless Family (3/6)

Youko panicked and covered her mouth, but it was too late, and when Tomoe saw her petrified, she knew that she hadnt misheard. She also knew that Youko was trying to hide the matter about her third sibling.

Well, that sure showed itself quick, didnt it? Your carelessness, Tomoe said.

Auuu Its because I saw a dream like that, Youko said.

Tomoe teased her out of consideration, so despite letting the cat out of the bag, things didnt become awkward, and Youko just blushed.

What a cute face, Tomoe thought as she looked at her troubled best friend.

When she thought how this could become habit, she fervently denied it internally.

Im being corrupted So, can I ask about that other sibling of yours? Tomoe asked quietly.

Everyone had secrets, and there were some that a person wouldnt reveal even to her best friend.

As someone who held such secrets herself, Tomoe wanted to respect Youkos decision.

Youko made a difficult face and worried over it for a while, but it didnt take her long to relax.

It should be fine if its you. Yeah, we have another older brother. But thats all A lot of things happened, and were not together anymore.

Without mentioning what those circumstances were, Youko acknowledged her third siblings existence with an unhappy expression.

But her eyes seemed to be wavering, and there seemed to be both hate and gratitude in those eyes.

What kind of person was he? Was he the careless type too? Tomoe said.

But Tomoe felt that she shouldnt ask about the emotions behind those eyes, so she asked something else.

Youko would probably hate it if she forcefully changed the topic or pursued the matter too deeply.

The former would give the impression that she was being overly considerate, while the latter would be poking at something she clearly didnt want to talk about.

If so, then it would be best to just ask about that older brother.

As soon as she asked about him, however, Tomoe realized that that choice too was a poor one, as Youkos expression immediately grew grim.

Careless, huh? Yeah, I suppose, he was the most careless one. It was enough to make you wonder if hed left something in moms womb before being born.

Youko?

Her words were sharp, but the tone in her voice was tinged with sorrow.

In fact, the actual thing was much more terrifying than she could imagine.

Of course, the big dog was really strong, and our older brother was easily swung around. He bled a lot, and we were so scared we kept crying, but he didnt say anything and just hit the dog in the head. By the end, I didnt know anymore if we were scared of the dog or of our older brother who was beating up the dog.

The first one to let up was the dog.

Youko was young and afraid, so she didnt understand exactly what happened, but the dog ran away, and was secured by the police after they were informed.

Later, the adults said that our older brother had hit the weak point of the dog, so it calmed down.

What do you think he said when someone asked why he did something like that? He said that as long as the dog bit something else first, we wouldnt get bitten, but he didnt have anything on hand, so he figured his non-dominant hand would do. He puffed his chest up and with a laugh, said, Clever, right?'

Youko made an unhappy face as though to say, See? Clumsy and careless.

Although Youko didnt go as far as to go into the details of her older brothers carelessness, a chill crawled up Tomoes back at the fearsomeness of that incident.

The Senba older brother had a terrifyingly twisted way of thinking.

Perhaps, he was merely putting on a brave front at the time, but Youko did not think so.

Regardless, this was not something that could simply be described as careless.

Youko, give it to me straight, will you? The reason that mask reminded you of your older brother wasnt because hes thrust his arm into that monster, but because of that ridiculous reply, right?

Thats why Tomoe felt that that was the case.

True enough, Youko nodded. When Youko had voiced out her concern for the mask, the mask took that concern to mean in a completely different direction.

That was the kind of reply a person who gave little priority to himself would give.

When I was still young, I believed he shouldnt be left alone. That it would be dangerous to leave him by himself. So, as his younger sister, I had to be the one to help him. But before I could become strong enough to He vanished. And then mom and dad lost their minds.

Youko seemed to be remembering or enduring something as she looked out the window and held her hands tight.

And yet, I Why did I do something like No. It couldnt be helped, right? Otherwise, no one would!

Youko?

And then she started incoherently muttering stuff that could be taken for self-reflection or excuses.

When Tomoe called out to her, Youko remembered where she was, and she feebly shook her head.

Ah, sorry That took a weird direction, didnt it? I havent pieced it together all that well myself yet. Its really troubling, but No, I dont know even know how Im supposed to piece it together Sorry.

Youko looked gloomier than ever now, and Tomoe, confused, couldnt find it in her to act as though everything was fine.

Seeing the way she was now, she felt she shouldve forcefully stirred the conversation away from this topic even if doing so put her in a bad mood.