Chapter 1420

"His early experience made him not dare to invest too much in anyone and things. Although I was disappointed that he escaped this time, I could not help but worry that if I left him, what would he do? It's not easy for him to open his heart to accept a person, but in exchange for such a result, I can't imagine whether he will believe others in the future. "

Xu Shi has experienced a life and death experience. Xiaohui tells her thoughts. Wu Ma sighs when she hears it. She thinks that she is so kind to her niece that she is not as good as an outsider in the end.

"Well, well, I never knew you were so considerate. Since you think so much about him, don't you think about me? Do you think about one tenth of that for your mom and dad? "

"Sorry..." Xiao Hui let Dou Da's tears fall down. She couldn't refute Wu Ma's accusation. She could only apologize powerlessly.

Wu's mother felt distressed and angry. What she said became more and more serious. Xiaohui felt that she could not understand and wept in silence.

Susan sighs. Xiaohui's psychology seems stupid and humble to the onlookers, but she doesn't understand such feelings. Through Xiaohui, it's like seeing who she used to be.

"Wu Ma." Susan patted her on the shoulder. "If you believe me, let me talk to Xiao Hui."

Of course, Wu's mother has always trusted Susan, and now she's in a bad mood. It's not good for their relationship. She nods dejectedly.

The objects in the ward were placed neatly, the color was monotonous, and Xiao Hui, who was pale, was not angry. Susan's goose yellow coat became the only bright thing here.

"I envy you." Xiaohui pulled out a weak smile, "clear goal, ability and action, in the eyes of independent women like you, I must be weak and useless."

Susan sat down in front of the sickbed and smoothed her messy hair. "Why do you think so? You are living with your own hands. Why can't you be independent?"

"I know that you all look down on me, I really..." Xiao Hui's lips were trembling when she spoke. Finally, before she finished speaking, she buried her face in the cup and began to cry.

"You can see a glimmer of hope and not accept the worst, can you?"

Xiaohui raises her tearful eyes and looks at Susan. She is a little surprised that Susan's image in front of her has always been rational and powerful. At this time, she can say such empathic words to her, and her eyes are full of sadness, as if she were talking about her own experience

Xiaohui's conjecture was soon confirmed. Seeing the surprised expression on the opposite side, Susan chuckled and talked about the experience she once thought she would never mention again.

"There's nothing to be surprised about. I can understand your mood because I used to be like you. I devoted myself to a person and refused to give up."

"That man is worse than Xiao Fang. From your description, I at least know that Xiao Fang is very kind to you, but he really is, no matter when he is a boss or a lover, no one is qualified. "

Susan couldn't help laughing bitterly when she thought of Alexander's "brilliant deeds".

"At that time, it was like being possessed. Now let me think about when and why I fell in love with him. I can't tell myself. I can recall some moving scenes, but it seems that I have moved my heart long before that."

Xiaohui listens in a daze, like meeting Susan again. What she says makes Xiaohui feel like she's known each other before, and some corner of her heart begins to ache.

"In fact, at the beginning, I only aimed at the goal of hard work, but later I got in touch with him more and more deeply, which made me fall into the trap inadvertently."

"But at that time, I also knew that it was impossible. He was almost the opposite of my ideal of choosing a mate. He had no sense of responsibility, didn't care about his family, and played the game of life. I even felt that he didn't believe in love and family, just like a gust of wind blowing through the world. He didn't need to leave any proof of existence, as long as he was happy."

"But then I had another delusion. I knew that he would not belong to anyone, so I was the closest to him."

"There are so many girlfriends in his life that he can change one before he arrives a week soon. I even handed him a note to remind him of his current girlfriend's name."

"But none of them is long-term, some of them are particularly difficult, and I have come forward to deal with them. Many of them glared at me fiercely and swore that even if she was taken down, I would never have a chance. "

"I know. I know all these things, but those women are like Epiphyllum. They don't last long. I'm always by his side. That's enough. Does that sound ridiculous, too? It's wishful thinking. "

Xiao Hui shook her head, but she didn't know what to say.

Susan touched her head, as she did to the intimate younger generation. "Then one day, I finally got tired of this life and myself, and ran away angrily. That's why I'm here."

"We are very similar, so I can understand your obsession. But the difference between you and me is that I have never lost myself. I am still working hard to improve myself in the most difficult time. People can't place all their trust on one person. When I dream back in the middle of the night, I think of the past experience. I'm so sad that I'm still glad I haven't been depressed. Now I can stand up on my own. ""Losing a person is helpless and painful, but the consequences of losing oneself are immeasurable. Love is instinct. I always feel that it's not wrong to be obsessed with a person. On the contrary, it's a valuable experience, but I must not allow myself to be banished by emotion. "

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Xiaohui listens to Susan carefully, but her tears are not clear.

Her lips moved. There were thousands of words in her chest, but she didn't know where to start. Finally, she only asked, "do you regret

Susan shook her head calmly. "I don't have any regrets. Fortunately, I didn't really lose myself. Being sad about the past can only add to my worries. At least my working ability has improved a lot in those years."

Although the tone is deliberately light, Xiaohui still feels very uncomfortable. Susan can still leave something useful after she walks out of her previous emotional obsession. She can face it calmly. If it's her She didn't dare to think any more.

The other person outside the door also heard all Susan's words, and he felt remorse.

The man hit himself on the head like self punishment, and then whispered something in his mouth.

"Well, Mr. Alexander, why are you here?"