Chapter 862： so sad

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"As you like. When Neil said this sentence, the disdain and unruly in his eyes were clearly conveyed through the picture, and his cynicism bloomed on that thin body.

Looking at Neil lying on the bed of the dilapidated hotel, the man was doing oral work for him like a lollipop. There was no fruity picture on the camera, only the man's stubby fingers were seen. He stroked his skinny chest.

On the upside-down camera, Neil's blurred and fragile eyes are immature, confused, dazed, restless, helpless, desperate, inquiring, persistent... In an instant, the emptiness in those eyes is like a heavy hammer, beating in the hearts of all viewers. Neil put the uncle's stubby fingers between his lips and bit it lightly. In a trance, Neil seems to have returned to that afternoon many years ago, the happiness brought by candy and games, the focus and "love" brought by baseball coaches. His eyes widened suddenly, panting heavily, trembling all over, flushed skin, suppressed voice, ** came out clearly through the tense muscles and tangled cheeks.

But looking at this picture, no one thought of the village **, looked at Neil's unfilled eyes, and only felt the inestimable influence of childhood on Neil. Neil put the man's finger into his lips, not exactly what the coach did to Neil when he was a child.

The grown-up Wendy came to the park late at night because of Neil's call. Neil takes Wendy to the dilapidated, disgusting and dirty toilet in the park, proudly showing his information about selling his flesh, if there are customers, they will find the information they want in the toilet, contact Neil . Neil is showing Wendy his masculine career without any cover, and she is his only spiritual sustenance.

This was a huge shock to Wendy, she didn't want to believe that her friend had become a male prostitute. But Neil didn't care to show his private parts to Wendy, and said with disdain, "That idiot is licking my **** like a lollipop. I didn't realize that he was hurt until he peeed. got me."

Before Wendy could hide the shock on her face, she immediately persuaded her friend worriedly, "You'd better be careful." But Wendy's hard words could not make Neil realize the seriousness of the problem, and the distress and worry in Wendy's eyes , gleaming faintly under the night.

Standing in front of the big screen in the square, the two stood side by side like childhood sweethearts, listening to the noisy voice coming from the radio, thinking it was the voice of God. Looking up, the sky fluttered with snowflakes. The camera gradually pulled up, and the two children gradually shrunk, and were swallowed bit by bit in the endless black. At this moment, the whole world seemed to be quiet.

The heaviness presented by the beautiful picture weighed heavily on the hearts of the audience, causing everyone to fall into silence.

In the fall of 1991, the story came to Brian's lead.

When he grew up, Brian had blond hair, and the oversized gold-rimmed glasses were still his symbol. Innocent, pure, and innocent, people couldn't help but sigh that he was like an angel who strayed into the mundane world. .

Brian still thinks that the five hours that disappeared that summer was caused by aliens, he may have been kidnapped by aliens, and he has to figure out what happened in those five hours that aliens took him what. Brian, who is addicted to the world, constantly travels back and forth in the alien world in his dreams. So he met Avalian, a lame girl who had the same idea as him.

The film moves forward in a staggered way between two main lines.

Brian began to record every dream, every detail, in his diary as best he could. Bryan found Avalian and told the girl what he thought to heart, because he hoped to find the real secrets of aliens from strangers who "had the same experience". Through the clues in the dream, Brian searched for the memory of Neil. He realized that Neil was his partner in the baseball team when he was a child, and the five hours that disappeared seemed to be inextricably linked with Neil, so He found Neil's home, but unfortunately Neil had gone to New York and he still missed it. Later, Brian and Neil's friend Eric became friends and hoped to keep in touch, maintaining his hope of digging out the truth in Neil.

But Avalian's behavior was a little unusual. She showed Brian the scar on her inner thigh, and she also let Brian put his hand into the dead cow's body, making him feel that the cow's reproductive organs had disappeared These are all obvious sexual innuendos. Later, Avalian revealed her true purpose, she was just a sad woman who longed for sex, she approached Brian desperately, even a little impatient to kiss Brian, thirsty to untie Brian's Pants with zipper.

The fear in Brian's heart immediately overwhelmed him. He seemed to have a natural rejection of "sex", unlike all teenagers who have endless curiosity about this aspect, so he pushed Avalian away in a panic, like a The frightened bunny stood in the corner, bewildered.

Brian's only hope is that Neil will come back soon and tell him the truth, because his life has become a mess and the five lost hours have become his lingering nightmare. His father who had been divorced for many years came back to give Bly, who had just turned nineteen, a birthday present, but Bryant shouted out all the resentment in his heart, "When I woke up in the basement with a nosebleed, where were you that night? It's a nosebleed, I always pass out, and I always wet the bed, but you never ask why!" His father's indifference made Brian lose hope in life, he didn't know what to do, if He would never be able to go on without figuring out what happened in those five hours.

And what about Neil?

Neil stubbornly thinks the baseball coach loves him the most, trying to relive that sweet and fatherly warmth, he becomes the **** man of his home town and has **** with almost every perverted man in town , He is regarded as a **** by the partners around him. No matter what adversity he faces, he will not let his spirit slump. He is as empty and full of temptation as a black hole, which makes people unable to extricate themselves and inevitably degenerate. His confidante Wendy has always hoped that Neil would stop doing such a dangerous and depraved job, but it is a pity that Neil is obviously getting further and further away, he hates this town, and the old men who have **** with him. But he also at the same time Uncontrollably sinks into the quagmire, as if the mysterious skin is full of endless temptations.

Watching Neil's other friend, Eric, fall deeper and deeper into Neil's charm, Wendy watched Neil walk towards "the last old man in town who he hasn't tasted", and persuaded Eric to say To · "Where the average person has a heart, Neil's is a bottomless black hole. If you don't pay attention, you will sink in and lose yourself forever."

This sentence is the most realistic portrayal of Neil, and the regret and distress in Wendy's eyes are also the thoughts of all the audience.

Wendy left the town and went to New York to pursue her dream - to be a waiter in a restaurant carrying dishes, and Neil, who stayed in the town, became a baseball commentator. Eric accidentally discovered that Neil was a child. At this time, he gradually understood what Wendy said before leaving.

Neil, who was disgusted by being pestered by the old man, decided to go to New York. Before leaving, he came to the coach's door and looked at the room covered in blue light. Neil said a meaningful sentence, "You call me you ***...Angel." Neil's mixed feelings about the coach were undoubtedly revealed at this moment. Originally, Neil thought that the relationship between himself and the coach was love, which also led to him still unable to get rid of this pattern when he grew up: all the people he received were men of the same age as the coach. However, Neil's heart is like A bottomless pit that can never be filled. The happiness and satisfaction of childhood can no longer be found, and the emotion of "I am unique" can no longer be found. The distortion of emotional concept makes Neil become dazed and degenerate, and his fragility and unwillingness make him like Like a firework, it blooms its own style recklessly, but it will dissipate in the air at some point.

After coming to New York, Neil is still living his old life. He pretended to be calm to hide his fears, but it was at this moment that he knew for the first time to use condoms. This warning shocked all the audience. . Because, it means that all his previous sexual behaviors in the town have no safety measures. The terrible New York is like a flood, ready to devour Neil's thin body at any time, even if Wendy repeatedly persuaded , nor was able to stop Neil.

Neil begins to come into contact with all kinds of terrifying guests. The man with AIDS was covered in sores, Neil's hands were rubbing on that horrible back, the nausea and the "Girl with a Pearl Earring" on the wall formed a strong impact · creating a chilling sense of fear , devoured everyone in an instant.

Neil finally felt frightened, and he ran through the night in New York, telling Wendy, "What happened that summer was very important to me, and no one gave me that feeling before or after that. ." His eyes were full of water, he said firmly But he really loves me. "That summer left an indelible mark on Neil's life. This shock and setback, like a boundless storm, swept across the cinema, and no one could escape.

With the help of Wendy, Neil found a serious job, but the black hole in his heart could never be filled. On the way to get off work, he still got into a man's car. Unexpectedly, this man was a pervert. He knocked down Neil, who was trying to escape, and beat Neil on the head with heavy objects while **** Neil with all his strength.

The bright red blood flowed down the sewers along the shower head in the bathroom, and Neil, who had no resistance, was like a rootless duckweed, soaked in a bright red, and his fragile body seemed to be possible at any time. Fragmented in general.

When Neil woke up, he was lying on the cold street with blood on his head, and those blank and empty eyes came out through the blood-clotted eyelashes, and he just said hoarsely, "Mom?"

In an instant, everyone felt that all the air in the theater had been evacuated, the feeling of suffocation submerged in the sea surrounded them, the feeling of heavy and hopeless, heartbroken.

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