Chapter 401： take 1 step

In love, he is an ostrich, he is afraid of hurting others, and even more afraid of being hurt. Every time it came to a critical moment, he would start to flinch. Even after twenty years, the nightmare in his heart still locked him firmly. What is unrestrained and unrestrained, what is romantic and suave, what is free to do as you please, **** it! He is actually a complete coward!

Looking at the girl in front of her, she is full of confidence and courage to express her thoughts, full of vigor,

Youthful chasing after his love. Evan Bell felt like he had failed like never before. He thought that he had completely escaped the influence of his previous life, that he had truly been reborn, that he was already Evan Bell, but in the end, he was still hindered by the injury in his heart.

He does not dare to face love, he has the courage to play in the world, but he does not have the courage to try an emotional relationship: he has the courage to develop an ambiguous relationship with a woman, but he does not have the courage to try a relationship: he has the courage to do what he wants to do, wantonly Running wild, but not having the courage to try a couple relationship.

He's an asshole, a total asshole, even more **** than Leonardo DiCaprio. At least, Leonardo DiCaprio dares to share his personal space with Gisele Bundchen and establish a relationship: At least, Leonardo DiCaprio knows that he loves Ji Purcell-Bundchen will beg Evan-Bell to help him get his girlfriend back: at least, Leonardo-DiCaprio is honest in his relationship and he dares to take this step.

And what about yourself? Stand still. On the one hand, he provoked a woman, but unilaterally felt that he could maintain a friendship. Once he surpassed his friendship, he would run away like a coward and cut off all contact with his friends. No, not "like a coward." He's a coward at all.

In twenty years, he had never tried to take this first step, because he was afraid, because he was afraid, because he was cowardly.

Evan Yibel stood there and looked at the girl in front of her. The tears in the girl's eyes were crystal clear and transparent. Under the moonlight, they radiated joy. Those tears still remained on her chún petals. The fragrance and temperature of the nose, everything is so real.

The wanton gust of wind ruffled Blake and Lively's hair. She bit her chin lightly, her cheeks flushed with brilliant pink, and even at a distance, she could still hear her chaotic heartbeat. , but she still moved forward firmly into Evan Bell's eyes, those emerald green eyes were bold, fearless, resolute and unwavering, clearly conveying her heart: she would not back down!

Once upon a time, this firmness also appeared in Gu Luobei's eyes: Once upon a time, Gu Luobei also looked at the woman beside him so eagerly: Once upon a time, even if the blood obscured his sight, Gu Luobei was still so eager to move forward Looking on the other side of the street, I only hope that what I have witnessed is not the truth... that is a matter of a lifetime.

Once upon a time, Evan-Bell also pursued his dreams so boldly and directly: Once upon a time, Evan-Bell also put all his scruples at his feet, even if only barefooted and ran without fear: Once upon a time, Evan-Bell also rebuked Those people stopped eating because of choking, and stopped moving forward because they were afraid of the difficulties they were about to face. How high-spirited he was when he said this... This is a matter of this lifetime.

Now, Evan Bell saw countless "Once Upon a Time" in the eyes of the woman in front of him.

In an instant, Evan Bell's calling really stopped.

Love, why not love? Why after 20 years, he still can't take the first step in love? Is it because the betrayal in the previous life was too profound, or because the betrayal in this life was too frequent, so that he had lost the ability to love someone. However, when looking at the girl in front of me, my heart is trembling slightly, my brain is blaming myself for being overwhelmed, and my body has no way to turn around and leave, why!

The darkness completely surrounded Evan Bell in an instant. The memories of the previous life and the memories of this life were intertwined and mixed. He was completely suffocated. The coat rattled, but it couldn't shake him one bit.

"I hope to see your smiling face when I wake up, I hope to see your smile when you put on a beautiful dress, I hope to hold your hand for a walk on the riverbank, I hope to wash your hands and make soup for you and watch you eat With a satisfied expression, I hope to read a book with you on the sofa in the sunny afternoon, I hope to use my hands and feet to bring you warmth when my hands and feet are cold in winter, and I hope to pull you up when I don’t get enough sleep To brush your teeth and wash your face, I hope to hear your complaints and complain with you when your work is not going well, I hope to carry you on your back when your feet hurt, I hope to buy an ice cream, you eat chocolate, I eat other parts, I I hope to see you muttering and looking for your mobile phone at home... I hope to grow old with you, and when we are too old to walk, count the wrinkles on each other's faces together, and tell you, You will always have fewer wrinkles than mine. Will you marry me?…,

It was the graduation ceremony of his last life. Under the watchful eyes of the school gate, he knelt down on one knee, held a rose in his hand, dedicated his heart to her, and proposed to her.

She cried with joy, covering her mouth in disbelief, she looked into his eyes, nodded vigorously, and kept saying "I do, I do, I do" and then he hugged her tightly and wěn her affectionately.

It was the most romantic thing he had ever done in his life. At that time, the best friend he had known for many years was standing next to him, holding an old-fashioned cassette recorder, playing her favorite "Titanic" theme song "My Heart Will Go On".

The scene changed, he was standing next to him holding the cassette recorder, hugging her who was crying with joy just now, the two of them hugged happily across the street, rubbing their noses at each other, like glue like paint, like the sweetest lovers. It was the eighth year since he proposed to her, and the tenth year of their relationship.

How did he feel, angry? The first feeling was indeed anger, and he wanted to go up and ask them, what happened? But then, he just felt blank and blank, and he didn't even know where he was. Walking forward in a daze, only the urgent sound of trumpets could be heard, and then the world was stained red with blood.

When the two of them saw that the car accident happened to him, what was the expression on their faces, schadenfreude? Breathe a sigh of relief? Or regret, sadness? Blame yourself? What is it, what is it?

"Evan! Evan..." Evan Bell only felt that a voice came from the far, far horizon, as if spanning a distance of several light-years, and then exploded in his ears. Suddenly, the ring finger of his right hand burned hot, and the intense heat seemed to engulf him.

"Evan!" A warm body embraced Evan Bell in his arms, with a strong worry mixed in love, and wrapped Evan Bell firmly. The darkness that had shrouded him was dispelled little by little, his icy limbs began to warm up slowly, and his heart, which had frozen into ice, resumed beating again.

His vision was clear, and looking at the shivering figure in front of him, Evan Bell's consciousness finally returned to his brain. This pretty little face was panic-stricken at the moment, with infinite worry in his eyes, and the tears on his cheeks radiated a faint light. Evan-Bell raised his hand almost subconsciously and gently wiped the tears from his face. A little warm, leaving a moist trace on the thumb.

What exactly are their expressions, and so what? Even if they regret it, so what? Even if it was just a misunderstanding, so what? Even if they really crossed Chencang secretly for a long time, so what? All the pictures of memories were shattered to the ground, and there were countless fragments on the road of Evan Bell.

Evan Bell took a small half-step forward, and the fragments of nothingness did not cause any damage to his body, just like a pile of dead objects.

The beginning of everything is difficult, and the first step is always the hardest. But at least Evan-Bell took a small tentative step, his first in twenty years. The deepest darkness in his last life still shrouded his heart, but at this moment, there was a flaw, and it was already shattered. Perhaps, at this moment, his rebirth broke the strongest and strongest bond in his heart.

Evan Bell gently hugged Blake Lively, his eyes swept over the worry on Blake Lively's face, and then said in her ear "Blake I'm really not a good man, maybe In the end you'll be bruised and bruised all over." Blake Lively seemed to be about to say something, but Evan Bell went on, not giving her a chance to speak "But you're right, never try unless you try. I'll know what the result is." Hearing this, Blake Lively's little face, frightened by the stiffness of Evan Bell's sudden fall into a magical barrier, finally smiled again.

"However, I need time, I need time" Evan Bell didn't continue, just paused, and finally whispered, "I need time, not now." The fragility and heaviness in Evan Bell's tone made the Blake Lively felt distressed for a while. She guessed that maybe in Evan Bell's heart, there has always been an irreparable big hole, so he was afraid, he flinched, and he needed time. But it doesn't matter, she will try to make up for it all.

Evan-Bell let go of Blake-Lively and stamped a wěn "Good night. Good dream" on her forehead.

This time, Evan Bell turned around again and walked away. Blake Lively looked at Evan Bell's disappearing figure, stood silently, and did not speak again. Looking at the slender figure being swallowed up by the night, a calm but firm smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

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