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In the car, she kept crying and crying, and then she put her little face on my arm to wipe it away.

I didn't say anything, just silently looked at her and smiled.

She moved me. Let me feel that today I did something that made her moved, really touched her, and this feeling belongs to both of us.

At the time, I really had the feeling that we should have done this a long time ago. Love for a long time, sweet time, mutual familiarity, mutual dependence, this is our then portrayal.

This was the most correct thing I had done in a long, long time.

Yes, that must be it!

I thought with such certainty in my heart.

And then …

After returning to her residence, Ah Qin sat on her bed with her head lowered, yet rarely did she smile without tears.

She stared blankly at the ring on her hand just like that, her body swaying up and down. Then as if she had finally made up her mind, she started to forcefully take it off.

I sat down next to her and whispered, What for? It was a bit tight, but it could be dealt with later. Make the trap a bit bigger, the people in the shop said. This one could be changed for free.

Ah Qin suddenly raised her head, and pulled out her slender hand from my grasp. Her eyes flickered, as if she had a lot to say.

I laughed. Say, darling, I know you're touched.

Immediately after, Ah Qin pouted her lips in grievance: Zhang Hao. What do you mean by this? You didn't even say hello to me, so which ring could be considered as my marriage proposal?

This?!

It was only now that I realized the seriousness of the problem. I did indeed intend to propose marriage by buying a ring, but I didn't kneel on one knee then, nor did I personally say the words "Ah Qin, marry me"?

F * ck, I still miscalculated! I thought too much that if I took the ring out, it would be enough to move Ah Qin to the point of agreeing to the marriage!

In other words, I didn't manage to reach that level! It was not in place, it was obviously Ah Qin making a fuss!

"I don't agree. I haven't agreed to marry you yet!" Ah Qin blinked his eyes at this time, and said especially seriously: "Don't think that this little bit of gratitude will make me surrender. As for the ring, you should take it back first … Although I have lost control today, I have not become stupid, so I do not want the ring today! "

At that time, I panicked and thought to myself, "It's over, this is called stealing chickens without eating rice!" Why don't you just talk it out last night before you go to bed! Now, Ah Qin is not satisfied with my proposal!

Just as my heart was pounding, Ah Qin suddenly laughed.

I was not saying that I won't marry you, but since you spoke so suddenly today, I wasn't prepared to give it up … Now that you're talking about marriage, we'll have to discuss it properly.

Then, Ah Qin laid in my arms like she always did, and started 'rubbing' her fingers as she recited those words.

"I know you treat me well, and I also feel that I want to marry you, but you know what, I really like home …" Ah Qin lightly propped up my face and said, "Sorry, Sa, I'm going to mention Eric. At that time, he also proposed to me, and I didn't agree to it because he said he wanted me to live with him in England … "Because I really want to live together with mom and dad in the future …"

Before my brain could react, Ah Qin continued, "But, getting married and having a home is not easy, the price of housing in Beijing is too expensive, it is impossible for us to afford it, if we return to Chongqing to buy a house and get married, it is possible … But if that's the case, we'll have to quit our Beijing jobs and go to Chongqing together. Ah, I really don't want to leave this place. I've been working here for several years. At that time, when I came back, I only wanted to stay in Beijing … Oh right, Zhang Hao, you are willing to go to Chongqing with me... "

At that time, Ah Qin muttered nonstop in my arms. She spoke a lot of things, but in the end, I became a mess.

All I remember is what she said.

"The price of housing in Beijing is too expensive. We can't afford it …"

F * ck, he really did it because of the house! Ben: No house, no marriage!

Evil real estate, wqnmlgB!

In those past few days, not only did I feel some worry for Eggy, this sadness had also quickly transformed into a sense of crisis and fear …

Firstly, because of Ah Qin's words, I couldn't sleep all night. The only thing I could think about was: how exactly was this house going to be solved?

Fear and trepidation, and then fear and trepidation! I thought not only of the despairing price of housing in Beijing, but also of Wen Yiliang giving his all for a room. I thought of Ah Qin's helpless expression that was hidden in the depths of her eyes when she was defeated by reality.

What can I do? So what? In the end, I placed a portion of my hope on the other suggestion that Ah Qin mentioned.

That's right, it was Chongqing!

The price of housing in Chongqing is only half of what it was in Beijing. With Ah Qin and I's income and the support from both sides, should we pay the down payment?

Of course, the beginning of this thought was so weak. Because I immediately remembered that I was born and raised in Beijing, my parents were living and relatives were living in Beijing, all my friends and friends who could eat, drink, smoke and play mahjong were living in Beijing, could I really go with Ah Qin to Chongqing?

The heck, wasn't this the legendary "rebutting in"?

In particular, I thought of my mother. As a mother, I am the greatest. Even though I am always complaining about this, I am not satisfied with this. It seems that the child who is the most satisfied will always be someone else's home …

Even though it was tiresome to make all sorts of demands on me for finding a partner, I knew that her heart was always acting this way because she cared for me and cared for me.

This is the mother's expression, not so avant-garde fashion, but very honest, straight.

If I really leave Beijing and settle down with Ah Qin in Chongqing, what would happen to her and her father?

Would they agree? How can I take good care of them in the future when they are older and in a worse condition? These, and more than these many aspects of the knot, is not something I can break.

So I didn't mention it to them in the end because I couldn't speak.

I was afraid that the moment I opened my mouth, they would shed tears of heartache and self-blame, saying that they had no ability and would never be able to prepare a house for their son to marry …

I was afraid.

The older a person was, the more likely he would feel fear and unease. I hadn't felt this way before, even not that long ago.

The thought that I was really going to make a huge difference in my life for marriage and marriage suddenly made me feel that I owed my parents too much. I've been spending their money since I was born, going to school, working... The money spent and their work cannot be simply measured and calculated. At this moment, when I want to get married, I can only squeeze out their lifetime savings … How pathetic, how helpless!

He really wanted to win the lottery and buy a three-bedroom house, letting his parents and Ah Qin's parents stay with him, a family that loved each other.

However, the odds of winning the lottery were much lower than the odds of the end of the world coming in 2012, so I was still at a loss for what to do with this house.

At this moment, how special I felt that I needed money. Right, I needed more money! Use the money to satisfy your desire to live a happy life. This was very realistic, very ironic, and also very sad.

Some people would say that even without money, life can be very beautiful, but also very happy, they have hands, a beautiful island, a bucket of instant noodles, and a red pagoda mountain of white sand!

But men can't do it all their lives, can they? You have to be really brave to face the bitch of a world, don't you?

By the way, I finally accepted that a man without a house, no matter how handsome he was, would find it hard to get a wife to marry him.

Also, my worship of Wen Yiliang was like an unending torrential river. He's really too wise and martial, he actually already bought a house! A man as a role model, a fighter jet in literature and art!

There were still more! I was finally even more sure why most of the local boys and girls in Beijing were looking for local people. Because at least, no matter if they end up getting married or breaking up in silence, they don't have to worry about leaving home.

I want to do something practical for me to begin to yearn for a happiness that is beyond my reach.

The first step was to switch from looking at cars and entertainment messages online to looking at rooms. I became a loyal user of Searching X, and I began to go over and over the tiresome information about the buildings in every district and county in Beijing.

That price was truly shocking. I used to say that Wen Yiliang bought a room at Fang Shan at over fifteen thousand square meters, he was really full. But when I really finished reading the price information, I realized that I was the real scoundrel, and didn't realize that the price in Beijing was outrageously high.

It was 2011, and house prices had reached a peak, but not yet the period of adjustment that followed. (The fuck later claimed that house prices in Beijing fell a little, but not much or not much was actually cut.

At a time like this, the most worrying thing was.

I took Mom and Dad to see a few buildings. Forgive me for not bringing Ah Qin along with me, but I'm afraid that if I were to see her like or favorite house and we were unable to afford it, or if I were to see my parents regretting it, I would feel very, very sad. I don't know how I would be able to face this kind of situation.

Money was the biggest problem, and if money was the problem, so was the building, housing, geographical location, household, floor, everything else.