Chapter 60

Yang Lei made that phone call. After he called, he knew that Fang Yu had already arrived at Lu City and was negotiating.

Speaking about these things takes time. At that time, very soon and before Yang Lei had asked about where Fang Yu was, he had already met Fang Yu.

Under the circumstances of that day, Huang Gou-zi was hung over the fire. Since he had invited a middleman and held a negotiation banquet, he had to follow the Jianghu rules. Before that many Jianghu people, Huang Gou-zi was caught in a difficult position. He didn’t want to let go of the person, but he couldn’t not let him go.

Although Huang Gou-zi and Yan Ziyi’s matter wasn’t finished, including Boss Wu and Yan Ziyi’s conflict, how it was later resolved didn’t have much to do with Yang Lei and Fang Yu. It won’t be mentioned here.

That night at the hospital, Fang Yu’s wounds were properly dressed, and he stayed in the hospital overnight for observation. The doctors told Fang Yu and Yang Lei he nearly hit a big nerve which would have left his entire arm useless. If he didn’t properly heal for several months and he kept fighting fiercely, then he didn’t need to keep this arm.

When they returned to Jianghai, Yan Ziyi wanted to set out wine to thank Fang Yu. Fang Yu said, “Yan Ge, maybe another day. Today, Yang Lei and I are both tired.”

When they got home to the eighth-floor house, Yang Lei brought Fang Yu to lay on the bed. According to the doctor’s requirements, he fixed his arm, took medicine, and changed his medications. Yang Lei was silent the entire time, focused on doing every task. His movements were agile and very quick.

When everything was finished, Yang Lei was about to leave the room and throw away the gauze.

“Can you say something to me?”

Fang Yu looked at Yang Lei, helpless.

Yang Lei stood for a while and turned around.

“You really want to hear me speak?”

“Yes.”

“Then okay.”

Yang Lei threw away the gauze, dragged a chair, and sat before the bed, but he was still silent. He looked at Fang Yu for a while.

He looked for a very long time. He didn’t say a word.

Fang Yu met his gaze. Yang Lei stared right at him, like he had never seen him like this.

“Fang Yu, do you know what I thought of you before?” Yang Lei spoke.

“What did you think?”

“You can fight, you’re righteous, and you use your brain.”

“…”

Fang Yu was silent.

“Do you use your brain?”

Yang Lei asked him, like he was looking for confirmation. Fang Yu glanced at him.

“Do you?!”

Yang Lei suddenly raised his voice!

“I know the limits!”

Fang Yu furrowed his brows. In that situation, he couldn’t think about that much.

“You don’t know your limits!!”

Yang Lei suddenly stood up. The chair that was pushed away by his movements made a grating sound against the floor.

“You know your limits?! If you know your limits, would you stab straight through yourself?! …You almost lost your arm, you know?! …”

The sound of Yang Lei’s roaring made even his own ears buzz. After roaring these words, a heat suddenly rushed up from under his eyes, rushing straight to the bottom of his eyes.

He held it in until now. He endured it, but he had nearly gone crazy from holding back! When he knew how this negotiation was “discussed,” when he saw Fang Yu like that in that room, until now, Yang Lei couldn’t find a single word to describe his feelings at that moment.

Many years afterwards, when Yang Lei was middle-aged, no matter what kind of situation he faced, he never felt the same as he had on that day and at that time.

When Fang Yu saw him, he even asked him, “Are you okay?” Fang Yu, who had blood over half of his body and whose face was white, asked him, who hadn’t even lost a single hair, if he was fine!!

“I really know my limits. I stabbed towards the flesh underneath and lost some blood. It can’t hurt my nerves,” Fang Yu explained stubbornly.

“…Did it reach that point? Did things reach that point?! …You’re just a fool! An idiot! …How many arms do you have available to stab? If you stab for this little matter and become crippled, how will you still be able to use it for the rest of your life?! …Can’t you treat yourself like a human being?! …”

Yang Lei didn’t know what he said… He was incoherent and had a splitting headache…

“I thank you for doing it for me, okay?! …”

Yang Lei finally shouted out. His eyes were bright red and his throat was tightly blocked by something…

“…Have you thought about what I feel?? …”

He forcefully suppressed his voice to prevent it from changing pitch, choking out these words…

Only when Yang Lei calmed down did Fang Yu speak.

“Today, if it weren’t you, if it were Jiu Ge, Lao Liang, or Er Hei, I would do the same. Today, if I were the one who was ambushed, you would also do the same. Am I right?” Fang Yu said.

Yang Lei didn’t speak.

That was right. Things like this, in normal people’s eyes, were bloody and unimaginable. But in the gangdom, it was normal, too normal. For righteousness, fierce fights, for one or two words, stabbing someone to death and taking someone’s life was too common. What did bleeding matter? What did being crippled matter? To these Jianghu fighters who had truly come over from the edge of the knife, what did it all matter? Death was no big deal! Even killing someone wasn’t a big deal. What else mattered??

Had Yang Lei seen little? Had he participated in little?

Before, Yang Lei didn’t think this way. He thought that this was the gangdom. If you were here, then you had to bear it. These were the rules. Those who couldn’t even fucking bear this, why would they be in the gangdom??

But now, when it was placed on Fang Yu, when it was placed on the person he truly cared about, Yang Lei realized that these were all different. Completely different.

When he followed Yan Ziyi, there was a word that Yan Ziyi once said to him.

If you’re out here, don’t have any cares.

Yang Lei hadn’t thought about it before, but now, he started to think about it.

He started to think about things that he had not considered before. He started to think about the future, think about what he really wanted, and what he needed…

In a sense, it was now that Yang Lei started to really think about his life.

Only once a boy started to really think about his life did he become a man. This change was at a certain moment of his life.

To Yang Lei, this moment in his life was because of another person.

Later, Yang Lei didn’t say anything else.

Fang Yu understood what he wanted to say. He also understood what Fang Yu wanted to say.

In that situation that day, no matter which one of them it was, they would do this.

Between them, no matter what else they were, they were brothers first. They could die for the other, and they could give up their lives for the other.

This could even have nothing to do with love. This didn’t need to be defined by love.

At night, Yang Lei lay by Fang Yu’s side. Fang Yu hadn’t fallen asleep. He turned his head and watched Yang Lei lie down.

“Still ignoring me?”

When Yang Lei had lain down, Fang Yu asked him.

“…”

Yang Lei didn’t answer, turning his head to look at Fang Yu. He looked at Fang Yu for a while and turned over. His hand put his hand under Fang Yu’s body, avoiding Fang Yu’s left arm. He used force and pulled Fang Yu over.

“The doctor said that you have to lay on your side. Didn’t you listen?”

Yang Lei said in a rough tone. He held Fang Yu in his arms, making Fang Yu face him. He pressed Fang Yu’s head into his shoulder.

“Sleep!”

Yang Lei hugged him tightly.

“…Fuck… Can you let me breathe…?” Fang Yu wasn’t used to this position. His face was tightly blocked by Yang Lei’s solid shoulder. Fang Yu didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.

“Then don’t breathe!”

Yang Lei still didn’t let go. He subtly loosened his arm a little.

“…You’re too overbearing. You won’t even let me breathe?”

Fang Yu joked. Yet his right hand moved, moving to Yang Lei’s back, like he was pacifying him. He patted him lightly.

Yang Lei’s heart seemed to also have been lightly patted by that hand. Yang Lei lowered his head and mercilessly bit Fang Yu’s neck…

“…You’re a freaking fool…!!”

Yang Lei’s voice was pressed into Fang Yu’s shoulder. He cursed fiercely…

“…Fuck! When I turned over the entire Jianghai for you, how did I fucking feel?! …”

Fang Yu was suddenly angry. Fang Yu said…