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"Did I harm you just now that you would be embarrassed?" Xiao Keke sat with me for a while, then asked softly.

I cast her a glance and thought to myself, If she hadn't suddenly appeared and purposely provoked me, I wouldn't have said that and let them make such a decision. Maybe I would have been able to explain myself to them.

"Zhang Feng, don't be angry okay? I'm sorry," Xiao Keke said as sshe shook my arm. Seeing that I didn't say anything, he stood up and apologized seriously.

"It's none of your business. This is something that will happen sooner or later!" I replied indifferently. Actually, this was a backlog of contradictions, something that had been accumulated for a long time.

"Then you have forgiven me," Xiao Keke laughed.

"Yes …" I snorted in reply.

"Oh yes, I have some private questions for you. Can you answer them for me?" Xiao Keke asked again.

"No," I said flatly, because I knew what she wanted to ask, and that was something I didn't want to face, and I didn't want to remember.

"Don't be like this, if you have something on your mind, you should say it. Don't keep it in your heart, it might cause you to choke and cause problems. What if one day you can't take it and commit suicide like me?" Xiao Keke said.

"Don't worry, I didn't commit suicide when I was in a difficult situation. There will never be anything in this world that would force me to commit suicide." I forcefully answered.

Inevitably, I thought back to the time when my family members took away my last remaining fortune, when I was the poorest of the family members, when I didn't even have a hundred dollars, when I was hungry for two whole days without eating, when I even drank tap water, but then I came back, and from then on my heart was as hard as a stone, and nothing could ever make me commit suicide again.

"Since you are so strong, then why didn't you accept the class teacher's suggestion to go to a nightclub to work? You better study hard and find a good job than being a waiter right now," Xiao Keke asked.

"Who doesn't know the grand principles? I also want to study hard and find a good job after graduation, but I've studied hard already, whoever gives me money to eat, how about my school fees, who pays my rent, the money, the most important thing is the money, understand?" I was a little angry, and raised my voice as if scolding Xiao Keke.

Who wouldn't want to pursue a beautiful life? Who wouldn't want to study in university and pick up girls? Who would want to work at a nightclub without sleeping every night? Who would want to be ordered around like a dog?

If you don't have money, you can ask your family members for it. If your family is in a difficult situation, don't you have a student loan right now? If you can't get the loan, then the school will have a student fund that you can apply for. The instructor said that he could apply for a student fund for you, why wouldn't you want it? "Xiao Keke also refuted me.

I stared into Xiao Keke's eyes and coldly said: "Firstly, we, the Zhang Family, have rules, we will not accept food that is given to us, we do not believe that there is a good thing that has fallen into our hands, so I will not accept the Student Assistance Fund. Secondly, everyone's family is not like your family, where they will pay as soon as they want, and no one in my family will be able to give me money, and thirdly, this is my private matter, and it has nothing to do with you."

"Hey, why are you like this? I'm just concerned about whether you understand me or not. Do you know how to be grateful?" Xiao Keke yelled angrily.

"I'm sorry, but I don't need your concern," I replied directly. I'm not familiar with you, so I don't need your concern.

"How can you be like this, sealing yourself off like this, how are you going to make friends, how are you going to work in the future, how are you going to make girlfriends!" Xiao Keke was so angry that her face turned red, and she pointed at me while cursing.

"Thank you! So what if I am like this? I don't need any friends, I'm fine by myself!" I said as I directly went back.

"Serves you right. Serves you right for not having any friends. Serves you right to be single." Xiao Keke pouted and quietly cursed.

I ignored her, this kind of senseless quarreling made me uncomfortable, because I hadn't had a quarrel with anyone for a long time. In a nightclub, quarrelling with a guest was taboo in the workplace, you had to listen to what the customer was right to, you had to listen to what the guest was wrong, you had to listen to what the customer was wrong, you absolutely must not retort, you did not retort, the guest was happy, I might get a consolation fee, if the customer was angry, I would be expelled.

Lying on the grass, I looked at the blue sky and white clouds, but my thoughts involuntarily returned to the past.

At that time, I was still a freshman, and I was still a happy university student. I didn't have to worry about tuition fees or living expenses, and every day, I attended lessons, played games, and discussed with my roommates what kind of beautiful girl I saw today.

But suddenly one day, this kind of beautiful life was broken, that day, I went out to eat dinner with my roommate, to celebrate his success in confessing to the girl he liked, because he was so happy to play, he didn't even know that his phone was out of battery, and when I returned to my dorm and turned it back on, I found that there were countless missed calls on my phone, people I didn't know.

In the end, I picked a relative's number and called back, but the news stunned me like a bolt out of the blue.

"Zhang Feng, come back quickly. Your parents are in an accident and have gotten into a car accident, they are still in the hospital to rescue people." After hearing what he said, I felt that he was joking with me and immediately hung up the phone.

That night was the time when I was the most out of my mind. I spent the entire night buying a ticket and rushed back to the hospital a few hundred kilometers away, but I was still a step too late. My parents left me forever.

The funeral, the compensation, everything was done by my relatives. By the time I had come to my senses, it was already half a month later, and by then, I was already a person who had lost my family and had been abandoned by the heavens.

Later they told me that my parents had run out of time driving in a car accident and crashed into a truck, and the responsibility was on my parents side. Not only was there no compensation, I had to pay for the truck, and the rest of the family had been buried, all my property had been spent and I had even taken a stake in a fruit shop that I worked with a relative of mine and I was penniless again.

I know that's not the case. My parents have always been careful with their cars and never had to worry about driving tirelessly, my family has more than just a little bit of property, but I can't do anything about it. I'll go make a fuss, they say I'm ungrateful for my lack of kindness, and when I go to the police, the police won't accept me.

In the end, my other relatives gave me 10,000 yuan as the last payment for my debt. I returned to school and fell into a deep slumber for a period of time. I didn't know what to do from day to night.

One day when I wanted to make it through, I had almost used up all the money in my hands, and I still hadn't finished my tuition for the next semester. I didn't tell anyone about my family because I couldn't stand their strange looks, and I knew that a lot of the poor students in the school were working hard and frugally, so I started working.

I would go to the school cafeteria, noodle shop, leaflets, and promotions as long as there was a chance of getting a job, saving money and spending money while also having to work during the summer vacation. When I reached my second year of university, I knew that if I continued to work like this, the school fees would not make up for it.

Afterwards, I came into the business of picking up corpses. To be honest, picking up corpses is actually very immoral, because sometimes we don't even know who was doing it on purpose, it doesn't matter who was being open and who was being drunk, it's a special profession that walks around the edges of the law. But I still jumped in without hesitation, for one reason only, I lack money.

At that time, because I worked frequently, I was reluctant to go out for a meal with my roommates. My relationship with them had already become less and less, so I decided to just move out.

Every time I dreamed about these things, I would feel sad, but I would only be able to wet my pillow.

"You're crying, Zhang Feng." It was unknown when, but Xiao Keke had also lied beside me. She spoke softly and raised her hand to wipe my tears.

"Nonsense, the wind is blowing and the sand is in my eyes. Once I rub it, everything will be fine." I evaded and rubbed my eyes a few times with my hands.

"I know you've suffered a lot in the past, if only I knew you before, maybe I wouldn't have committed suicide." Xiao Keke said.

"Do you remember the reason for your suicide?" I asked in surprise.

Xiao Keke shook his head, "No, but I can feel the pain from your body. If it was me, I would have already collapsed."

"Forget it, everything is over now. I will help you find the reason for your suicide and then you can go reincarnate." I nodded and said.

"En, thank you, Zhang Feng," Xiao Keke smiled.

"Zhang Feng, you, are you talking to Xiao Keke?" Suddenly, a strange voice appeared beside our ears. I immediately sat up and saw that Wang Yinyin and a male student were standing in front of me.

I turned around and glanced at Xiao Keke. Xiao Keke's expression was a bit complicated, there was surprise, confusion and even a trace of anger.

"No, I was just talking to myself. I got the lesson," I said faintly.

"No, you're lying to me. I know you're talking to Xiao Keke, can you let me talk to him for a bit?" Wang Yinyin insisted.

Xiao Keke shook her head and said, "I don't have enough Yang Qi on me, it's hard to even stand here. If I appear, it won't even take a minute to finish all the Yang Qi, I'll be leaving first."

With that, Xiao Keke disappeared.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Since Xiao Keke wasn't even willing to see her, there was nothing I could do.

"Zhang Feng, can I talk about Keke with you? Find a quiet place," Wang Yinyin asked after hesitating for a while.

Of course, I couldn't wait. Previously, when I went to look for them, they weren't willing to speak of it. Thus, I nodded my head.