Chapter 221 - His previous scheme

Diana was surprised by the question. She wasn't expecting such a question from him at all.

She didn't know what to say because she really love this work. Even though it's dangerous and all, it makes her who she is today.

There are some things she got to do, which wouldn't have been possible if she didn't go this lane.

Even if someone helps her take out Shane now, there's this satisfaction feeling she derived from the few damages she manage to deal to the man. The thoughts alone makes her happy and contented.

If she didn't go for this profession. Let's assume Ethan did fall for her and they improved in their relationship till this point.

She will only have to hide under his protection, go out with tons of private guards protecting their boss's woman.

When an attack came, she will only have to hide in a corner, while those people fight for her, laid down their lives to save her, while she remained useless.

It's fine if she was born into peace, but since her life was destined this way, she didn't regret her choice of being an assassin and really love her time in the camp.

Even the outside world doesn't possess the morality the camp has. Everything has it's time over there and they were safe from harm, unless they went on a mission, which is their main purpose for being there.

Whatever happened during the mission isn't a concern of the organization, but still, they leave an option to call for help if the need arises.

She really didn't have any problem with the lives over there, except for the fact that she couldn't handle the thought of one of them going out and might not return, which comes with her personality. Being too sentimental and all, which of course led to what Jenny did to her.

If she has blocked away emotions from work as trained, she wouldn't have gotten so drown in her story and ended up drinking water before realising it.

Ethan's request is like asking her to give up her passion for love. She really wanted to take out people like Jenny from the surface if she's privilege to.

Every experience makes her appreciate her work more, but she knew her parents would also want her to stop if they reunite.

She didn't know what to say to him right now. She was glad she had her back facing him. She didn't want to cry anymore. It's time to face everything with a strong heart.

Even though they were worried that they nearly lost her, she's the owner of her life and she nearly lost it. She didn't feel so good about it as well, just that their worries didn't even leave the chance to care but feel the love from their worries instead.

"Can I not answer now?" she asked.

"Please do." Ethan pleaded. He's bringing Shane at her mercy in a few days from now. Her mission will be completed, because he's sure that she found out who she came for and could tell that she can handle it without him butting in.

She will be gone again, which will make him end up just doing video calls. They had sex without marriage promises, which isn't much an issue since both are adult and he wouldn't do it if he wasn't keen on marrying her if she could accept right now.

He wanted to touch her so badly, feel her warmth all through the night and get to always wake up with her sleeping face in front of him.

If she leaves now, he's back to the starting point again. He had unprotected sex with her the first time, with the hope that it might lead to pregnancy, but it's not fair to use that to tie her down.

He wanted her to choose him because she wants to, and not because a baby excuse comes up. He had expected her to talk about it, but she didn't, which made him feel more guilty, because she trusted him enough.

It's one of the main reasons why he avoided another sex with her since the first one, because of the guilt of sleeping with her in hope of her getting pregnant and be able to have her to himself.

The fear lingered in his heart since then and he's worried she might really get pregnant from it, but he did consider it today as well. Each time she got hurt from this lane she had chosen, the crazy idea kept popping up.

He knew he gave his word, which was why he planned to make it seem like a mistake if it happened, but no matter what, it's very wrong and he shouldn't have such thoughts.

She has the right to make her own decision, because her life belongs to her. Nathan isn't a problem anymore, since Shane will be taken care of, which only leaves Diana with the one that has to make the final decision.

Diana who had no idea all that has been bothering the man shut her eyes tightly and bit down on her lower lip, "Ethan I need to think about it." she said.

She tried to pull away from him and face him, but Ethan held her still. He's scared if she faced him, he might spill the beans.

He's not confident to lie if she asked what's wrong with his expression, because he's sure he doesn't look so good right now. He felt bad for his attempts.

Diana relaxed back, not fighting it, "are you pissed?" she asked.

Ethan let out a deep sigh and kissed her hair, "I'm not darling. Take your time, but please consider it." he said.

Diana smiled softly, "I have to say goodbye to my mates at the camp. I'm not saying I don't want to, but just need to think. Maybe after Shane is gone, you can ask again." she said, which makes Ethan happy.

If it's because of Shane, she will have to give him the answer in a few days then. Seeing her trying to make another attempt of turning around, he didn't stop her and allow her turn, their faces inches apart.

Diana was stunned by his gloomy expression, but assumed it's because she didn't give him an answer yet, "spare my heart master! how can you still look so beautiful with this expression?" she tried to lighten the mood, which worked as Ethan chuckled.

She wrapped her hands around his neck and took a deep breath, "is that why you're scared? I also want to be with you so badly Ethan, just permit me to think hun? hun?" she tried to act as cute as she can to make his smile genuine.

"You will always be the only woman I want, no matter the decision you make." He replied, because that's the right thing than his previous schemes.