Introduction 5

Introduction 5

The last time Ah Tou saw Tu Dian was an hour before he went to the execution ground. Tu Dian had been sentenced to death. After being caned six times under Malaysian law, he was to be executed via long drop in the British way.

When she saw him, he was calculating how strong of a rope was needed for his weight so that he could break his neck and die instantaneously. That way, he wouldnt have to suffer fifteen minutes of pain. The first edition of Official Table of Drops (1), which was published in 1888, sat in front of him. This book was the source of the table that Tu Dian wanted Ah Tou to tattoo on his arm when they first met. At that time, when he flipped to that page with the table on it, Ah Tou knew he was her Mr. Right.

Compared to when they were in a relationship, Tu Dian was a lot older now. For a long time, whenever Ah Tou looked at this man, there was always a layer of mist in front of her that made her feel like she had been blinded. She exhausted herself trying to see him clearly through the mist and she no longer had the energy to re-examine all that he had done to her. Now that the mist had disappeared, Ah Tou could finally look at the man directly. Read latest chapters at nov(e)lbin.com Only

Just an ordinary man. Ah Tou really wanted to come to this conclusion, but if she did so, it almost seemed blasphemous to the past ten years. After being entangled with this man for ten years, she wanted her enemy to have divinity. Now that he was headed for execution, his death would give her the pleasure of killing a god.

But just like what was written in novels and literature, she didnt feel anything.

"Im here to check on your face," Ah Tou said to Tu Dian. The man had already come up with the number and raised his head. Expressionless, hes always expressionless. Accompanied by the bailiffs, Ah Tou examined Tu Dians face to confirm that he never had plastic surgery and wasn't a substitute with a mask on.

It really was him. For a moment, Ah Tou wished it wasn't and that she had been deceived again. But this time, he had nowhere to escape.

"I wanted to ask you something." Ah Tou sat down in front of him. They hadnt seen each other for a long time, so the conversation was a little awkward.

Tu Dian nodded.

"What do guys think of when they betray someone?"

Tu Dian looked at Ah Tou and remained silent for a while before saying, "Do you mean betraying you or betraying someone else?"

"There's a difference?"

"Of course, because I love you." Tu Dian looked at the execution chamber behind him. Some religious personnel had already begun their preparations.

Ah Tou laughed, this time she really laughed. "A dying man speaking the truth. Are you expecting your imminent death to make what you just said more convincing?"

"Youre still far from death, so you don't know what it means to be dying."

Ah Tou was a little stunned and couldnt help thinking that he was right. Tu Dian smiled, See, youre doubting yourself again. I told you before, your problem is that you don't believe in yourself. Otherwise, it wouldn't have taken you ten years to catch me. Youre right, I was just trying to see how youd react to this sentence.

Ah Tou was a little disgusted by him and had to take a deep breath. "Answer my question. I have the right to call off the caning so you dont have to suffer as much before dying.

These words finally got Tu Dian to react. He scratched his head and leaned back in his seat as he thought it over and said, "There are too many cases of people betraying others, but there is one thing. When it comes to betrayal, both parties had to been invested in it. The two made an agreement to accomplish something, but one quits without the other knowing. Tu Dian looked into Ah Tous eyes, When one quits without the other knowing, thats what you call a betrayal. The longer the other party doesnt know, the greater the hatred.

"It was an accident. I told you, I didn't expect it to be that bad. I thought you'd be out in three months at most. I left enough evidence there and thought the police would find it all."

Somebody took the evidence away. But you had plenty of opportunities to make up for your mistake over the past ten years.

"By turning myself in? If I did that, you wouldnt belong to me in the end. Wed become strangers. Its not like Im a good person, so why should I be so kind? Yes, its very unfair to you, but shes your enemy, isnt she? Though I did something wrong, my intentions were good. Tu Dian took the last puff of his cigarette, It doesnt matter. Are you planning to keep looking for her? I dont think you can. She loves me more than you do.

Ah Tou was silent, so Tu Dian continued, I betrayed her for you, too.

He laughed, as if he had just made the funniest joke in the world.

When Ah Tou left, she didnt know if she got the answer she wanted. She could understand everything he had said, even though it all sounded like shit.

Maybe he was right and she really did have the potential to betray someone.

Tu Dian was a terrifying person. He didnt talk too much about his own betrayal of her, but made her think of those she had betrayed instead.

He had forced her to empathize with the offender. Ah Tou didnt want to admit it, but Yanyans face kept showing up in her mind.

She definitely wasnt someone Ah Tou didnt care about. Ah Tou wanted to forget about her, but found that she couldnt.

Before she left, the bailiff handed her the form to revoke the caning. Tu Dian looked at her, "You said youd call it off if I told you the truth.

Ah Tou looked at the form. In fact, the death penalty was enough for him, but after thinking it over, Ah Tou shook her head. For the first time, she saw disappointment in Tu Dians eyes.

Its not that I want to target you or that I hate you, Ah Tou said. I just dont know if you said all of that to toy with my emotions. I dont know if Im affected by it, so I want to act like I never came here.

Tu Dian quickly recovered his poker-face and Ah Tou turned to leave. She only took a few steps before she turned around and said to him, Happy Death Day. For the first time, she knew that she had finally won.

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TN Notes:

(1) The Official Table of Drops, formerly issued by the British Home Office, is a manual which is used to calculate the appropriate length of rope for long drop hangings. More info here.

(2) A person who believes that life is meaningless and rejects all religious and moral principles.