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I don't even know how I got back to the bamboo forest. I just let my feet wander and let the wet clothes stick to my body and let the wind blow on me to make me cold.

What was the point of living? He finally left, and I had nothing else to worry about.

Sitting on the bamboo swing, kicking fallen leaves with my toes, I asked myself over and over again, what is living? So hard, so tired, so never ending the day, the high walls of the palace were a big cage, holding me inside.

I sighed, so tired I felt as if I had spent the rest of my life.

When I dived into the water, I didn't even know I didn't want to be alive anymore.

Death is a very easy thing to do. I only need a rope to understand all of my pain. Mother, I'm really tired. I can't hold on any longer. His father's writing and some words that contained the philosophy of life were not as tiring as the fatigue he felt in his heart.

Forget it, why be so tired?

Leaning against the bamboo, I held the cool bamboo in my fingers. The place where I held the bamboo was a little uneven, as if it had been scratched. When I looked over, there were actually words engraved on it.

His heart skipped a beat as he squatted down and read the words engraved on the bamboo: Zhiqiu, wait for me to come back.

He turned to the side and looked again. It was still written: Zhiqiu, wait for me.

Xia Junchang's calligraphy caused my fingers to flutter. Could it be that you understand me, but you're also afraid that I won't be able to hold on?

These words were like the warmth of the autumn wind, filled with the sprouts of life. 'Wait for you, Xia Junchang, I'll wait for you. If you come back and don't see me, then you'll feel even guiltier.

The little bamboo forest hid feelings that couldn't be expressed. He told me to wait for him, and he even carved a note that he liked me. I sighed as I sat on the bamboo leaves.

The first person I dared to like, he also liked me.

How lucky am I? After all, some people never know what taste they like.

Sitting in the bamboo forest through the night, bamboo also has a sound, that is his voice, he affectionately and gently told me, Zhiqiu, wait for me.

The next day, I went to wash my clothes as usual, but I felt much better. I don't know if it was because of the drowning yesterday, but they didn't make things difficult for me anymore. I ate lunch with the palace maids, rested for a while, and washed again.

I deliberately forgot the time, deliberately did not remember the day, only the thought, I wait for him, I will wait for him.

Maybe it was because I was filled with the pain of longing, so I couldn't eat well, and I couldn't sleep well, so I always felt dizzy. Suddenly, I remembered that signature: Hundred Flowers Kill.

Heavens, I actually forgot if I'm sick or not in such a bad state.

"Zhiqiu, you look so pale!" Just as he was thinking this, one of the palace maids looked at him in surprise and said, "Zhiqiu, don't work so hard to wash it. Relax, we've only been like this for the rest of our lives. If you don't relax, you'll only suffer. Look at your current appearance, you're really haggard."

I thought I was sick. I clutched my chest and gasped, "Ah Mu, I feel so uncomfortable."

"Just look at you, Zhiqiu. Why don't you go and tell the mama to take a leave of absence and give her some silver so that she can call a doctor for you to see? How can this go on?"

"Zhiqiu, take your time, I'll help you wash later." A palace maid by his side also whispered.

"Thank you." They are good.

"Zhiqiu, look." She gestured to me to look upstream, where two palace maids were washing a beautiful piece of clothing. "This is Imperial Concubine Mu's clothes, they're really beautiful, but they're not meant for us to wash them. I heard they're made of snow-white silk, which is both luxurious and light. Last night, the emperor had chosen his imperial concubine out of the young ladies. Esteemed Empress Dowager had personally selected her, Lu Yao, to break the record and rise to the next level. This was something that had never happened before in the imperial harem. "

"How lucky." The palace maids said in envy.

Alas, they were not Lu Yao. How could she know if she wanted to do this? She said that once we were deep as the sea, I finally understood.

I cannot escape this palace, nor can Lu Yao.