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Do you forgive me?

I'm sorry, he came over to see me. Coincidentally, he heard that I had called you, and he insisted on going over. I'm really sorry, Jiang Rou. Li Zhen said anxiously, "Jiang Rou, you are really my very important friend, I don't want to lose you."

"Yes." "One more thing. How do you know I'm in a bad mood?"

"Alright, I've been waiting for you."

I hung up the phone, but I was acutely aware that Li Zhen was hiding something from me. I needed to figure out what was going on.

After I hung up, I needed to find Xia Ze now, I needed to understand what he was thinking. I touched the powder covered wound on my face and thought that maybe I could use this wound to move him.

I secretly went to Xia Ze's school. I was wearing a hat and was worried that I would be found out.

I came to the music room again, but it was empty. I should have known that this famous school in the country had built many new buildings, and that the building was abandoned.

I sat on the zither stool and called Xia Ze barefooted. Since the call didn't connect the first time, I put down my phone and used the one-time call card I bought before to call him. This time however, I immediately picked up the call.

"Xia Ze, I miss you." I heard the noise coming from Xia Ze's side. He should be with his classmates.

Xia Ze didn't speak with me, but instead, I could hear him talking to his people. He said, "I have something to do, so I'll be leaving first." Then I heard Xia Ze's side quieten down.

"Xia Ze?" I called his name, my voice was timid and filled with unease. This time, it wasn't an act, I was really worried that Xia Ze would leave me.

Xia Ze remained silent. I could hear his breathing on the other end of the phone, and that voice made me think of his kiss.

"Let's end it here." Xia Ze said, and the way he said this was very light and coincidental, as if he was just saying that the weather was very good today, but my heart had suddenly dropped to the bottom.

"Why?"

For a split-second, my tears fell on the back of my hand, and they slid softly down my skin.

"You don't need me anymore." Xia Ze said, "Your relationship with Cheng Ruojun is currently very close, right? If he discovers our relationship, he will abuse you again, so for your sake, let's break up." He spoke as lightly as ever, as if he'd told me the first time we'd met that if you didn't like it, you were out of line.

How could he so easily break away from my relationship with him, and how I even felt painful leaving Cheng Ruojun, who was always abusing me, and would even waver from time to time.

"You clearly don't want me anymore, right? Do you dislike me because I'm old? Did you get to know a younger and more pleasing woman?" I wanted to make him sad. I wanted him to feel the pain I was experiencing, not to be as casual as he was now.

Xia Ze became silent, and then he laughed. He took a deep breath and said, "Let's end it." He spoke as if he were sighing, as if he had made up his mind.

I tightly grabbed onto my phone, my palms were already sweating from the nervousness, I said, "Cheng Ruojun and I will not get back together, you don't have to worry about this, I will leave him."

Xia Ze remained silent on the other end of the phone. After a long time, just when I thought that he might hang up, he suddenly spoke up, "It's the easiest way for you to make up with Cheng Ruojun now. You can pretend that nothing happened."

My nose started to ache, and tears started to roll down my cheeks more and more, and I said, "How can I pretend that what has happened has never happened? If the feelings between us are painful to me, then I am willing to pretend that it has not happened, but the memories between us are blissful to me, it is you who allowed me to see myself, it was you who allowed me to see myself, it was also you who allowed me to understand the happiness of being born a person. If the reason why I was so unlucky in the first twenty-five years of my life was all because I wanted to meet you, then I am willing to do so."

By the end of my sentence, I was crying. My hands kept wiping away the tears that had fallen, but the tears kept coming.

"Where are you?" Xia Ze finally asked me.

"I'm in the music room." "No," I said.

"You wait for me." Then the phone hung up, and I sat on the piano stool with my feet in the air.

But I don't want to lose him.

I sat on the zither stool with my legs crossed. I couldn't imagine life without Xia Ze, in the end, Cheng Ruojun and I would be separated. I didn't know when he would go crazy.

I won't let Xia Ze leave me.

After about fifteen minutes, I heard running sounds coming from the corridor, they were getting closer and closer to me, I knew that it must be Xia Ze, I wiped my face a few more times and took out the mirror from my bag, the mirror made me look haggard, but it was still very pretty, I originally wanted to fix my makeup, but I felt that the me in the mirror was too pitiful, maybe Xia Ze would feel a little pity towards me, and wouldn't break up again or something like that.

I put the mirror away and looked toward the door, expecting him.

It was late afternoon, the sun was good, the wind was gentle, and even the fine dust of the breeze was beautiful to me.

But the footsteps stopped at the door, and I was anxious for him to come in, but he never did.

One of us is inside the door while the other one is outside. We are always like this, whether or not we are waiting for the other to open the door.

I jumped off the piano stool to open the door. I didn't have my shoes on, and my bare feet were on the ground. I felt light.

But just as my hand was on the doorknob, the door swung open.

Xia Ze and I looked at each other.

His eyes were bright and gentle, but there was something in them I couldn't see clearly. He looked thinner, and I hadn't noticed it before.

Xia Ze also looked at me.

After a while, Xia Ze smiled, he extended his hand and placed it on my eyes, he asked, "Why is it red here?"

He was very gentle, just like the wind that was blowing on my body now. He was getting gentler and gentler. It was obvious that he wasn't like this when I first met him. Was it because he met me? This is what makes me proud.

I grabbed his hand from my face and looked up at him. "You forgive me?" I asked.

Xia Ze smiled, then wrapped one of his arms around me and closed the door with the other.