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Cheng Ruojun seemed to be very excited, he probably likes this kind of active me, his face was red, his eyes shone in the night sky, he did not even feel like groaning, looking at him like this, his heart suddenly felt extremely pleased with himself, I want to control Cheng Ruojun, I want to kneel at my feet and pray for my fortune, just like how I was in the past.

"Do you love me?" He stared at my eyes and asked me. I saw that his forehead was covered in perspiration, and at this moment, he looked a little like a teenager, but I surprisingly discovered that Cheng Ruojun and Xia Ze were very similar.

I could hear his breathing, and the sound of his heart beating. My fingertips were on his chest, his heart, and I was going to dig it out with my own hands.

I slept soundly, and when I made up my mind to be a bad woman, when I became vicious and independent, I found myself able to sleep more and more.

Cheng Ruojun was still asleep, his body curled up into a ball like a pitiful child. I gently caressed his hair, but before long, Cheng Ruojun woke up.

He grabbed my hand and opened his eyes and looked at me. My hand was so strong that when I cried out in pain, he immediately let go, as if he had been scalded.

I smiled and said, "What's the matter with you?"

He stared at me, and I stared back.

He stood up and left without a word.

I looked at his back with a kind of triumph.

The door closed.

I lay on my bed and felt the sun was shining, so I closed my eyes and fell asleep again.

When I opened my eyes again, the sky was already bright. Cheng Ruojun had probably gone to work already, and I needed to go comfort Xia Ze. I remembered the look in his eyes when he looked at me last night.

I got up to pack for myself, chose a red dress, and felt like I was dating a boy for the first time since I was a girl.

I curled my hair with a curling stick and let the wave roll over my back. I smiled at myself in the mirror and realized that even though I was older than I used to be, I looked much better than the timid me I used to be.

I walked towards Xia Ze's room, every step I took was cautious. I carefully considered what kind of expression I would have to face Xia Ze when he opened the door, and what kind of smile was on my face. If the servants in the house were to see us together later, I would use what kind of excuse they would use.

I stood at the door of Xia Ze's room and knocked on the door.

But no one answered.

Maybe he was asleep, maybe he was still sulking at me, so he purposely didn't open the door for me.

I knocked again gently, but there was no answer.

He's not here, is he?

I took hold of the doorknob and thought the door was locked, but I didn't think I'd open it.

The moment I opened the door, the wind almost blew my dress up. I suppressed my skirt and looked up, only to see that Xia Ze did not close the balcony's door, the autumn wind was blowing fiercely towards the room, I saw the curtains being lifted, it was as though someone was hiding inside, but I knew that there was no one there.

The room was empty.

This is the first time I've been to Xia Ze's room. There are very few things here, so little that no one seems to be living here.

This is the first time I wanted to look for Xia Ze, but he isn't here anymore.

I went back to my room and hesitated for a moment before dialing Xia Ze's number. The call was not answered, and instead was hung up.

He was really angry. I thought.

I covered my head. I was so excited because I had grabbed onto Cheng Ruojun's weakness that I couldn't be happy anymore, because Xia Ze no longer cared about me. I couldn't accept this kind of thing.

Once again, I dialed the number. This time, Xia Ze connected to the phone, but there was no sound of Xia Ze's familiar voice. I could only hear his light breath, and I didn't know what to say.

I hesitated for a moment before saying, "Xia Ze, I miss you." I wanted to apologize. I wanted to tell him that I had done it because I had to, but I couldn't. It made it seem like I was looking for an excuse.

"Do you really miss me?" Xia Ze said, "I'm very busy right now."

He wanted me to hang up. He didn't want to talk to me anymore.

"Don't you forgive me?" I asked him, "I can only do this, previously you clearly told me to properly cater to Cheng Ruojun."

As soon as I said that, I immediately regretted it. I felt that I was blaming Xia Ze for saying those words.

As expected, Xia Ze became silent, and at the end he said, "I regret it." His words were filled with repressed pain, and the pain made my heart ache.

I'm going to find him, and I don't want him to feel so bad anymore.

"Where are you?" I asked him.

He hesitated, then said, "I'm in the bakery."

I was stunned for a moment before asking, "Why did you go there?"

"Because I met you here." His words were so sincere that I was moved by them.

"I'll be there right away." "No," I said.

"Alright." "I'll wait for you."

He hung up the phone. His voice was very depressed, as if he was trying very hard to control something. I felt that he was very dangerous now. If I didn't go over, then that little bit of love between us would be gone.

I anxiously changed my clothes and left the room. Maybe I should call Li Zhen and tell her that I won't be going to her place today, but I'm busy anyway. I anxiously went to comfort Xia Ze because I lost my cool.

I was always busy with men.

Soon I was at the door of the roasting room, my hand on the knob, but I hesitated.

What would I say if I met Cheng Ya? But in that business, she probably wouldn't tell me anything.

I gritted my teeth as I decided to push the door open. What made me happy was that there was no one inside, I only heard the sound of the wind blowing the curtains, and the sky outside had darkened, as if it was an ominous sign. However, I, who was wholeheartedly thinking about Xia Ze, did not care about the weather at the moment, and only felt that the heavy air made my skin feel sticky, which made me very uncomfortable.

I stepped onto the stairs, and the closer I got to the pavilion, the more certain I became that Xia Ze was there.

Finally, I stood at the entrance of the pavilion, the door of the pavilion was not closed, and when I looked inside, I saw Xia Ze, he was sitting at the same spot where I used to sit, the one that was a bit wide, with a window overlooking the sea. He was curled up there, his head leaning on the glass, his entire person surrounded by a gloomy aura, my heart aching even more, I couldn't help but call out his name.

"Xia Ze..." I said, "You."