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I was silent.

I can no longer remain silent. If I pretended to be pitiful and said that I was thinking for his sake, he would treat me gently. At least he wouldn't beat me up like he used to.

His eyes were very cold. Although I was already used to him talking to me like this, but he was still very certain that I was just his pet and it still scared me.

Cheng Ruojun said in a trembling and gentle voice, "Sorry, I don't want to treat you like this."

Here it comes again, just like every other time before. After beating me up, you give me some small favors, or you apologize, or you buy me something expensive like you did yesterday. I may have been confused by these appearances at first, but I won't now.

I can't show it, I have to be as stupid and naive as Cheng Ruojun thought.

"I'm sorry." I said to Cheng Ruojun once again, "I thought you would be happy like this."

Cheng Ruojun released me and used both hands to hold my face. "I know, but I made a mistake this time, I have to give you a small punishment."

The moment the word "Cheng Ruojun" came out of my mouth, I couldn't help but want to retreat, but Cheng Ruojun had already grabbed onto my hand and kissed my collarbone. It wasn't a kiss, he was biting me.

His teeth were so strong that I could feel them cutting through my skin, sucking the blood from my body, like a vampire, and maybe one day he would bite my throat.

I slumped back in my chair. His hands deftly took off my clothes. I knew what he was going to do. The punishment was just another torture.

Maybe I should be glad that Xia Ze is no longer here.

I tightly hugged Cheng Ruojun's back with both of my hands. That way, I would be able to relax a little and ease my pain.

Cheng Ruojun's mouth slowly slid down, his movements as rough as ever. Maybe one day he would tear me apart and then hide my bones under the bed. He might let me, after I die, listen to his laughter in bed with other women, and he would be able to do it.

Cheng Ruojun carried me to his bedroom. I couldn't care less about the servants in the house right now, so I wasn't worried that they would see me.

The servants in the house know what to do. They know what to watch out for in this house. I understand.

Cheng Ruojun threw me onto the bed. No matter what he did to me, I could only accept it.

Anyway, by the time it was over, all the bones in my body were broken, and he was fast asleep beside me. I turned to look at his face, and he still looked very handsome.

I sighed and closed my eyes. I remembered that afternoon, that afternoon was the best time of my life. Previously, I would feel ashamed when I thought of that incident, but now, I won't.

Not only did he never apologize to me, he even tortured and controlled me time and time again. Right now, I feel that this betrayal is instead a revenge against Cheng Ruojun. I feel extremely happy in my heart.

Besides, it was that person who made me experience the joy of being a woman. That kind of thing should have been done because both sides were happy and happy, not because one side was willing to give in to the other. I don't want to give in to that kind of thing anymore.

I opened my eyes and the moonlight shone through the window curtains, leaving a mottled reflection on the floor. This clear and cold moonlight was like water as it streaked across my body, allowing me to see the wounds on my skin. Some of them had not healed yet, so I could still feel the traces of blood after a light touch.

He was still fast asleep. He didn't know that the person I was thinking of at his side was another man.

I closed my eyes and imagined the man's hand sliding across my skin. His kiss fell softly on my face, inch by inch, and if it had been him, I would have been happy as long as he held me close.

That night I had a beautiful dream, because it was so wonderful that I didn't even want to wake up, but I had to wake up again.

In my sleep, I heard my cell phone ring. The first time I pressed it off, it rang again, and the phone woke me up. Like every other time, I picked up my cell phone and saw the name on it, and sure enough, it was my mother who woke me up.

She'd been trying to control me, and I realized now that he was belittling me, oppressing me, controlling me, making me lose my self-esteem, and constantly clinging to other people's lives. I was living a miserable life now, largely because of my parents.

I hung up the phone again and went to sleep. If only I could choose when I was born, I meant not who I could choose to be my parents, but whether I could choose to be born or not. I didn't want to be born, and it would be best if I didn't have a next life.

I closed my eyes and thought of the gentle man again, his hand sliding down my cheek and down my belly, but just then there was a knock on the door, and then it was opened, and I popped my head out of the quilt.

I saw Sister Guo standing there, her expression was still respectful, but her eyes were filled with disdain.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

Sister Guo answered, "Your mother called."

She despised me, but she despised my mother even more.

"She told you to answer the phone right away or she'd be coming over." Listening to Sister Guo's words, I was extremely dissatisfied in my heart.

"If she really comes, you can kick her out. I won't answer the phone, so hang up."

The Sister Guo stared at me, as though he was warning me, but at the same time, he seemed to be reminding me, "If your mother can't come in, then she might have to go to the Cheng family."