Chapter 283

"Mom, can I read with you today?" After practicing the piano, Xin'er said to Xia Yuhan.

"Of course!" Xia Yuhan affectionately touched Xin'er's small head and said.

After the mother and daughter quietly enjoyed reading for 40 minutes, Xia Yuhan said to Xin'er, "Xin'er, should we wash and sleep now?"

"I see, mom." Xia Yuhan looked at Xin'er's weak and strong figure, and tears blindfolded her eyes again. Xiner never dared to ask where her father had gone. But Xia Yuhan knew that the child wanted a father, but

After washing, Xin'er came and kissed Xia Yuhan: "good night, mom! No, don't go to bed too late! "

"Good night! Baby, mom won't be too late! " Xia Yuhan kissed Xin'er and said.

Waiting for Xin'er to sleep, Xia Yuhan went to the study alone, turned on the computer and looked at the wolf in the dark North in the QQ list. In fact, he wanted to delete it ruthlessly several times, but he would never give up when he clicked on the avatar, so the Avatar has been black now.

Xia Yuhan thought of this man in his mind. He was elegant, handsome and clean. Such a good man agreed to stay with himself for life, but now he may have become someone else's bridegroom!

Thinking of Xia Yuhan, I felt a burst of loneliness rolling towards me. This feeling of loneliness even tortured me so much that I couldn't breathe. Perhaps single women are lonely at midnight. There are too many things to deal with by themselves in half a day. In addition, Xia Yuhan's current working environment does not have too many intrigues. Facing a group of innocent children every day, her mood is sunny every day. But when she gets home every day, after xiner goes to sleep, this loneliness will surround herself from all directions.

Habitually take out a red wine. After so many years, Xia Yuhan still likes to drink COFCO red wine, a pinot noir, a goblet and a lonely woman. She stays by the computer and begins to write down her mood.

"Honey, it is often said that 500 times of looking back in the previous life can change one pass in this life. So how many times do you have to stare in order to exchange for a love affair in this life? People say that five hundred years is a time of reincarnation. How many five hundred years will it take to fulfill the long cherished wish that has not been fulfilled in previous lives?

Dear, how many five hundred years will it take for the love of the previous life and the love of this life to end? Is there more than endless reincarnation from generation to generation?

Dear, who is the lover of my previous life, and who gave me the love of this life? Is that you I hope that person is you, but I'm afraid that person is not you. Wait for a person, need to look forward to how many years; And it takes only a moment to lose someone.

Dear, I don't want to renew my love in my previous life, but I just want to stay with you in this life. Just this time, can you hold my hand, don't let go easily, and don't lose me again, okay?

The road ahead is too far. Can we have enough courage to go through the rest of our life together? Maybe I can't become stronger, maybe I will still be as stupid as now. Don't you love me?

Honey, in fact, I don't want much. I just want to live our life with you. It doesn't have to be rich or beautiful. Just don't let my heart break, don't let me feel that love is a very tired and bitter thing. I just hope you can give me some warm encouragement when I'm depressed.

Sometimes I feel more and more greedy. At first, the woman who would feel very happy as long as she got a little response from you, but now she doesn't understand contentment more and more. Love makes me greedy. I want to occupy your body, your heart, your future, and even your memories. Do you still want to love me like this?

Honey, you said you would always love this playful and disobedient woman who only belongs to you. But dear, don't spoil me. I just want a little love from you. It's enough to stand by my side quietly and hold my body from behind when I'm sad.

Surprised at your transformation in the past month. Now you close your heart and don't let me in. Why is the woman who made you decide to open your heart not me, but someone else.

Too much uncertainty, let me always dare not take the step towards happiness. For a period of time, I felt that the whole person could not really be happy, so I chose to shut up and talk about this emotion. Thought that as long as this, love will slowly fade, and even the man I love who can't extricate himself will be forgotten after waking up in a dream. As everyone knows, such an idea not only hurts yourself, but also hurts you.

As for commitment, it's not that you don't want to give, but that you don't dare. You're afraid you can't afford it, so you can only choose silence. Did you think so before? But do you know that your silence and my silence have suffocated our love. Don't you think it's a pity?

Often ask myself, I must be crazy to love someone. If I love so much, I'm afraid of missing it. Honey, you should know that sometimes a turn is a lifetime, and there is no chance to recover.

My heart seems to be in a war, pulling each other. No matter what the result, the most painful person is himself, but he can only bear it silently. Maybe people will meet several times in their life. Can't move forward or back. This is a one-man war. But in the eyes of outsiders, it's just a little quieter than usual, and no one will notice it. However, this war is doomed to be single handed, and no one will give any form of support. It's like a drop of water against a whole desert.

In my eyes, you are a sunny, wise, mature and clean man. You have experienced real injuries and ups and downs, and have been involved in this real society. I admit that I am a person who has not suffered too much, but I will temper myself by suffering for you.

But when I think that if we go together, if we leave this seemingly prosperous city and go to a quiet, natural and plain town together. Build a small house of our own. In winter, we make tea and chat around a very warm small stove to outline our happy tomorrow. I do.

I know you are a very confident man. I remember more than once, I asked you with a little self mockery, how could I like you and fall in love with you. Why do others think you have nothing outstanding, but I regard you as a treasure? You never answered me. Is there a reason? Or you don't want to.

Honey, in fact, there are too many people better than us in this world, but it's not easy to find people who can really fit each other, isn't it? In this society, too many things happen every day, full of too many temptations, too many intrigues, too many drunken fans, too many traps, too many dark sides, and sometimes even make people feel cold unconsciously. Perhaps the reason why there is morality between people is that there are chips restricting each other. But I know that no matter what conditions, you are precious and worthy of my love in my heart.

Xia Yuhan wrote that the man in front of him became more and more clear. When he stretched out his hand to touch, the handsome face disappeared. It turned out that it was just his own illusion!