C69 Folk customs

"Elder brother by blood …" Qing Er kissed me lightly and whispered into my ear: "Before Spring Festival, we will be betrothed, betrothed, which means, according to the customs of the people, I am your unmarried wife, and you are my unmarried husband …"

"Mm …" "Yes."

"Your parents and my parents are close relatives, our families are very close relatives …"

"Mm …" "Yes."

"We're all going to call each other 'parents' instead …"

"Mm …" "Yes."

"Hee hee …" That's great, we finally came to this day, it's so close to the Spring Festival, this year's Spring Festival, I can stay at my mother-in-law's house, engaged to a marriage, can I live on this kang with you? Does your parents not care? "

"Mm …" "Yes."

"What, you won't say anything other than 'En' or 'Yes'?"

"Mm …" "Yes." I blew lightly into Qing Er's ear. "I'm currently focusing on enjoying my Qing Er's gentle and soft jade. Where would I be able to think of anything else?"

"Hee hee …" "Hmm …" "Then enjoy it, do you like hugging my body?"

"I like it, your body is amazing!" I praised him heartily.

"Mm …" feng-ge, I really like it when you praise me. In the future, can you praise me more? "

"No problem."

"Dear... "I love you …" Qing Er kissed me deeply.

Qing Er gently rubbed his face against mine: "feng-ge, do you love Qing Er?"

My heart trembled for a moment, and I hesitated slightly. "I love Qing Er."

"Do you love me as much as before?"

"Yes …" I turned Qing Er over and moved him down, stroking his face. "Qing Er, not only do you love me like you used to, you will love me even more, and I will love you even more deeply and deeply …"

My words came from the bottom of my heart. In the past, the love between Qing Er and I was more at the end of the day, but now, I feel that it was more about my responsibilities towards Qing Er.

This kind of responsibility is bound to accompany me to accompany Qing Er.

Qing Er looked at me. "What does this depth and depth mean?"

"It means responsibility."

"Responsibility?"

"Yes, it's as if we grew up overnight, our psychology and physiology have all matured. To me, to a man, loving a woman is first of all about responsibility, responsibility, care and hope, loyalty and sincerity. After experiencing so much, I seem to finally understand all of this …"

Qing Er hugged me emotionally: "feng-ge, you have finally grown up, you have finally matured. You are really a good man, I have always thought of you as a good man …"

"Qing Er, don't say it like that. I am not a good man, I have done many things wrong, I have committed many unforgivable sins. I am now trying my best to make up for my wrongs …" Liu Yue's figure appeared in front of me.

The faint pain began to return.

I'm sorry about two women.

"Don't say that feng-ge, everything that happened in the past might not be your fault, and it might also be my fault. I have also done things that weren't good," Qing Er thought that I was only apologizing to her, "It's all over now, don't blame yourself too much. If you keep looking forward, I will forgive you in the end, no matter what you do, as long as you go back to my side, I will accept you and forgive you … Actually, Liu Yue was also very unfortunate, I heard from Sister Lan that after you split up with her, she suffered a fatal storm and was almost destroyed by an anonymous letter. Even now, after more than a year, she still can't raise her head in the office, and is always being pointed at and poked on the back of her head by others. Woman, it's really not easy. She's really strong, too. If it were me, I wouldn't even be able to survive … "Actually, I feel that when we have time, we should go and see her. It's also not bad for everyone to be able to be friends …"

I was moved by Qing Er's magnanimity and magnanimity, so I gently patted Qing Er's back.

But, even if Liu Yue sees me, will I still have the face to meet Liu Yue?

"I know that she's very beautiful, very refined, very mature, very charming, very capable, and I can't compare to her," Qing Er continued to speak, "Furthermore, from the words of the Sister Lan, I also know that her family is quite unfortunate. She and I are two different types. You and I have been together for so long that you're tired of it. If you want to change your taste, I can understand it. I know that in other ways, including in bed, she will definitely be better than me. But, I want to tell you something, I don't know anything right now, I have never experienced the matters of the wind and moon, so the most important thing is to hug and kiss you. But, sooner or later, I will experience it all, sooner or later, I will understand it all, sooner or later, I will become a mature woman, a charming woman, and I will give you everything that she can give you, and whatever purity she can't give you, I can give you as well … "

I didn't know how to explain it to Qing Er, nor did I argue with him, I just silently listened.

"Yesterday, I wanted to give it to you, but it was actually filled with anger, I just want you to know that I am also mature, charming, and clear, I have always cherished our first time, I have always kept it for you for the first time," Qing Er softly continued: "You don't want me, I understand your feelings, and I know that you do not want to sully my first time, but between us, everything always happens, and I will always give it to you, my body, which is only reserved for you, and I will only offer it up to you … I understand your mental barrier. What you said makes sense, and I will continue to keep it for you until the shadows in your heart are cleared away … "

My heart felt heavy.

I've always thought that you were mine and would never be able to run away. However, when I realized that I lost you, I realized that I was wrong, I always thought that I was the right one to keep the first night for you. However, after we broke up, I thought that if I had already given you my body, if you knew that you were a woman, then perhaps all of this wouldn't have happened.

Qing Er's words stung my heart, and brought me back to that first night before, the fourth day of my work. That was my first time, my first time being so ignorant, my first time being unable to enter the river of women, my first time crossing the river of women.

Yes, if I had been having a relationship with Qing Er since a long time ago, would I still choose to cross paths with Liu Yue for the first time that filled with curiosity, impulse, and exploration?

Without that first time, would these things have happened again?

Was this Qing Er's mistake? I have asked Qing Er many times before for it, but she always keeps her guard up and didn't give it to me, which resulted in this incident in the end and this series of consequences.

I was brought into a strange circle by Qing Er. All of this was clearly caused by my own disloyalty, was clearly caused by my own indulgence and self-abandonment, how can it be attributed to Qing Er, who kept my innocence for me.

"Silly girl, what are you thinking? How is it wrong for you, you are right, you are holding a true and pure love for me, you are holding onto a firm and unswerving love for us, I have done so many things on my own," I hugged Qing Er tightly, "Actually, it's not that I don't want you right now, I really want you, but I cannot sully your holiness. Facing your alcohol, I am ashamed, I am determined to cleanse my soul. At that time, we … Actually, I know, in your heart, you still want to wait until we're really married before … "That's what you've always thought …"

"Mm …" "I know, you want, I feel it …" Qing Er giggled: "Isn't that kind of fun? If you want it, and you can't hold it in, isn't it uncomfortable?"

Qing Er's words made me want to laugh, but I held back. In this aspect, she is just a piece of white paper, I don't understand anything.

"That's right. I've always been hugging you, always being tempted, my body always responding, but I just can't help but want it. It's really hard to hold it in …" "So, I think, in the future, we can't sleep like this. It's better to sleep separately …"

"But, I like it when you hug me and sleep …" Qing Er pouted his lips and looked at me: "You won't just not miss me, won't you?"

"Who asked you to have such a beautiful body and good skin. When I'm with you, can I not think about it?" "If you do not want to, then it is truly a bad thing. This means that in my eyes, you are an ugly monster that no longer attracts me …"

I couldn't help but reach out my hand again, causing Qing Er to immediately fall limp, his mouth half open.

I couldn't bear to, so I took it back and said to Qing Er: "How is it?

"Eh? "I don't know, but I can't tell you what it feels like …" It took Qing Er a long time to regain his composure. "Oh my, why does it feel like this?"

I couldn't hold back my laughter. "Silly girl, from today onwards, you will know the feelings of other places. For the first time in your life, there are still many, many things … I'll take you through it one by one... "Go to sleep …"

Qing Er responded with a "Okay" and obediently snuggled beside me, quietly falling asleep.

It couldn't be denied that Qing Er's body was extremely alluring to me, but it also couldn't be denied that the part with Mei Ling that created that enormous shadow was difficult to erase in my heart. Thinking of all this, the shame in my heart would make me stop in front of Qing Er's beautiful body.

Also, every time I caress Qing Er's body, every time my body starts to have an instinctual reaction, every time the Yu Huo in my body starts to burn, Liu Yue would unwittingly pop up from my brain, the beautiful snowy moon that I had with Liu Yue … When she thought of this, the fire in his heart vanished, and her instincts receded into the distance. His heart was as cold as ice.

These two aspects, became the biggest obstacle between Qing Er and I.

I must overcome these obstacles, overcome them. The best weapon is time, time can take away everything, that's what I hope.

The next day at dawn, I quietly dressed, quietly opened the door, and tried to slip into my room.

He didn't expect to meet his mother who had woken up early to do housework the moment he stepped out of the door.