C67 You love her

"You love her, that's why you did it with her, that's why you didn't do it with me before, we used to agree to be virgins, to stick to each other until the day of our wedding, but you are no longer, then what's the point of me keeping it, before, I was saving it for love, and tonight, too, I'm not keeping it anymore … I want you to take me, I want to give myself completely to you, I want to know clearly, you love me, I want to feel the love from your soul to your body, I want to use my body to take your soul, and I want you to take my soul as well … "

Qing Er said with hidden bitterness.

At this moment, my body reacted very violently.

For this purpose, Qing Er stupidly wanted to give his body to me.

I can't let Qing Er do this.

I felt a burst of sorrow and pain in my heart. I suddenly felt very inferior to myself, as my body was tainted by Mei Ling's body, so I was no longer worthy to be with Qing Er, I could not use my dirty body to taint Qing Er's pure body of a virgin, or to desecrate Qing Er's pure heart and soul. At least I could not do it now, or at least for now, my heart could not accept it.

I held Qing Er in my arms and caressed his beautiful body. The fire in my body gradually subsided and reason had the upper hand in my mind. My heart was filled with pity and love for Qing Er.

I used a gentle tone and said to Qing Er, "Qing Er, you're so silly. "My body is very dirty, I am not worthy of you right now. Give me time, let me cleanse my soul and body. I think, it will be on the day of our marriage that we can …"

"feng-ge, I actually don't hate Liu Yue, and I don't think it's easy for her either. She's not a bad person, and also, I feel that this person isn't bad, and she's a good woman, and we've had this relationship before, I don't mind you being dirty, I don't think you're dirty," Qing Er said as she looked at me: "If by the time of marriage, you still feel that you're not clean, then you wouldn't want me anymore?"

"You don't feel that I'm dirty, but I can't, I feel that I'm very dirty," I gently kissed Qing Er's neck. "I won't wait that long, when I'm with the beautiful and pure you, I will be quickly enlightened and nurtured by you, and I will slowly adjust myself. I think, once my heart and body are clean, once I feel that I'm worthy of you, on the day of our marriage, I will truly have you.

Qing Er only knows about the relationship between Liu Yue and I, and not Mei Ling and I? That's why I said that. And the reason why I felt that my body and soul were dirty, was because of Mei Ling.

"Oh …" Qing Er blinked his eyes: "Then I'll listen to you, I don't understand this, I don't have any experience, you are already an experienced person, you understand it already, don't lie to me, if you lie to me again, I really have no way to live …"

I have said this, as long as you don't hate me, and don't drive me away. In this life, I will never leave you, and I will love you, and I will love you, and I will protect you, and accompany you, forever. It is precisely because I want to be together with you for a long time that I will respect you, and not treat you as I please … "

"Ask for your parents' opinion as well as my parents' opinion. Of course, it's mainly your opinion. As long as you're willing, we can get married tomorrow …"

Qing Er was very satisfied with my answer. "Mn … Actually, I don't think it's a good idea to get married too early. We're both poor now, so we should at least save up some money or do something about it … "Actually, I still listen to you. I'll do whatever you say …"

I patted Qing Er's shoulder. "Um … "Good girl, we still have a long way to go, go to sleep …"

"Mm …" feng-ge, good night … " Qing Er snuggled in my arms in satisfaction and meekly fell asleep.

I was wide awake in the dark, staring into the dark.

Even though Mei Ling is the main reason why I didn't do that thing with him tonight, in my heart, I still faintly feel that there is another mental barrier. This thing is hidden in the bottom of my heart, and it would jump out from time to time to stimulate my sensitive nerves.

My body has returned to Qing Er, my soul is still wandering around, and I am determined to make myself return completely, completely from the bottom of my heart to the rest of my body.

Tonight, I have finally found out about Liu Yue's situation, and found out about Liu Yue's recent injury. A year, what kind of life did Liu Yue lead? She, who was confident, optimistic, and determined in the past, was destroyed to such a state by this anonymous letter, becoming the laughing stock of other people's ridicule and ridicule, becoming the target of other people's contempt and trampling. I don't know how Liu Yue endured this year, or what kind of humiliation and contempt she endured.

My heart felt like it was being cut by a knife, and my heart ached so much that it hurt to death.

All of this was brought to her by me. If not for me, all of this would not have happened and Liu Yue would have been able to lead a different life.

I am the cause of all the evils in Liu Yue's current state. I am the culprit, and I cannot be forgiven.

Fortunately Liu Yue still had Corydalis by her side, and this was more or less a relief to Liu Yue.

And I, in a different way, hurt these two women, two women in my life.

Now, I am back to Qing Er's side, with Liu Yue by his side.

Perhaps, this was the arrangement of fate, fate.

Thinking up to here, I couldn't help but hold Qing Er tightly and lightly kiss his forehead.

Good night, Qing Er!

Tomorrow was coming.

Tomorrow was the beginning of a new year.

Tomorrow, everything will be new!

The next day, when I woke up from my warm bed, there was no trace of Qing Er by my side, nor was there anything in the room.

I actually didn't know when Qing Er had woken up, or when he had gone out to buy pork ribs, or how he had stewed them.

I sat up. "Qing Er?"

"Eh? "Coming?" Qing Er's voice sounded from outside the door, following that, Qing Er pushed open the door and entered.

"You're awake, feng-ge, I went to play with my colleague next door …" Qing Er walked over with a grin, hugged my head and kissed me on the lips: "Happy New Year, my brother … …"

It could be seen that Qing Er was in a very good mood, and was very happy.

"What a fragrant ribs …" My appetite was growing, and I was going to dress and get out of bed.

"Don't, just sit under the blanket, it's warm under the blanket …" Qing Er stopped me, took a hot towel and passed it to me: "Wipe your face, then I'll get you a toothbrush. After washing up, you can sit on the bed and eat …"

"Hehe …" Qing Er, you will spoil me this way … " I said as I wiped my face with a hot towel.

Qing Er casually said. After I have finished washing up, I will scoop up the soup and carefully carry it in front of me, "My blood brother, after suffering in the mountain for a year, I'll have to properly recuperate and heal your body …"

Qing Er waited for me to eat dinner before he started to eat.

Then I got up and packed.

At 9 AM sharp, Qing Er and I boarded the bus home.

At noon, we first went to Qing Er's parents' house, a town's encampment in Nanjiang County.

Qing Er's parents were extremely happy to see me here, and they welcomed me as if I was their guest. Qing Er's mother was busy cooking, and Qing Er's father was going out on the streets to buy my favorite Ziran lamb.

Qing Er and I were watching television in the living room.

Once he returned home, Qing Er immediately became a Princess Jiao Jiao. Sometimes he would pester his mother to act like a spoiled child, and sometimes he would tell his father to do all this.

The old couple ran around happily under the direction of their daughter, but they were willing to do so.

"My good daughter, father hasn't seen you in a long time. Today, father is able to serve little darling. I feel really happy in my heart …" Qing Er's father's face bloomed with happiness.

"Qing Er, what do you and Xiao Jiang want to eat? Tell mom and I will make it for both of you …" Qing Er's mother was busy in the kitchen, wiping the corners of her eyes as she spoke.

I know that the happiness and hardships Qing Er's parents had today, including the passion they had for me, were all for their daughter. Their daughter's happiness was their greatest wish.

For the sake of their children's happiness, they could do anything.

Qing Er has been doted upon by his parents and treated as the apple of their eyes, but in the outside world, he was mercilessly bullied by me, abandoned, and hurt heartlessly …

Qing Er is a delicate princess in my home, but in front of me, he has to work diligently and endure hardships. He can work however he likes to serve me, and help me do all the work …

If Qing Er's parents knew about the suffering Qing Er had suffered in the outside world, they would have definitely died from pain and heartache …

Looking at Qing Er's parents' happy state and Qing Er's spoiled look in front of his parents, I felt extremely guilty in my heart.

After we ate at Qing Er's house, Qing Er's father and I chatted in the living room. Qing Er and his mother talked about something in the inner room.

"Xiao Jiang, to be able to see you and Qing Er back together today, her mother and I are very happy. No matter what happened in the past, to be able to return, to be able to reconcile, that's good," Qing Er's father said to me amiably. "You are all still young, and the road ahead is still very long.

I nodded my head. "Uncle, you're right. I'll remember it."

When you are outside, you still have to take care of me. When you do the wrong thing and you have to take care of me, it is not easy for the two of you to work hard outside, but you have to be calm when facing problems, unite when encountering difficulties, and coordinate when encountering conflicts. In the future, you will have to walk your own path.