C58 Unspeakable taste

I have an indescribable feeling in my heart. The two women in my life, Qing Er and Liu Yue, have already lost their lives and became the women of the Corydalis. Right now, Qing Er is very likely going to become the women of the Old Third as well.

Suddenly, a commotion broke out in my heart, and the scenes of the past that Qing Er had lived through for the past seven years surfaced in front of my eyes.

My state of mind after recuperating in the mountains for a year was disturbed by Old Third's letter. That night, I tossed and turned without sleeping.

The next day, while I was wondering if I should go down the hill, the secretary from the Party Committee office in the village came by on his motorcycle and said that the newspaper had asked me to come back urgently and that I had some important things to do.

I didn't have time to think about it carefully, so I told Old Xing about it, got on my secretary's motorcycle, and went down the mountain.

The next morning, I went back to the newspaper office.

Just sitting down, Mei Ling walked in and smiled at me: "Come, to Secretary Ma's Office!"

When I arrived at Secretary Ma's Office, I found out that I was going to be promoted.

After the research by the Party committee, it was decided that Mei Ling will take over the position of Assistant to the President and help with the work of the President, taking charge of administration and infrastructure. At the same time, Liu Fei will take over Mei Ling's position and take over the position of Director in the Party office. This way, the person in charge of the Public Information Department and the Party committee, after repeated research, will agree to let you take charge of the work. Secretary Ma looked at me. "As for poverty-reduction cases, the Party committee has already decided on a new candidate to switch with you. They have already informed the city's poverty-stricken office …"

So it turns out that Mei Ling, Liu Fei and I have all been promoted, but Mei Ling has actually become the Assistant to the President, and is truly too damn awesome!

It was only after New Year's Day that I found out that the Assistant to the President was not appointed by the Municipal Committee Organization Department Sect, but rather that the Secretary Ma himself had obtained the internal bill for the food, or perhaps the Normal level. It was only because the newspaper was about to build a huge building and needed someone like Mei Ling, who the Secretary Ma trusted to display his talents in the process, to run the building so that Mei Ling could be in charge of the infrastructure and administration.

"Obey the arrangements of the Party committee and never disappoint the expectations of the Party committee. Make sure to do a good job with the Ministry of Public Information!" I calmly expressed my stance towards the Secretary Ma. In my heart, I didn't feel any sense of achievement or happiness, instead, I felt a little despondent and emotional.

"It's going to be the new year soon, the handover is complete before the new year, and everything will be in place after the new year. Mei Ling, you take care of the arrangements!" The Secretary Ma said at last.

When Mei Ling and I came out of Secretary Ma's Office, Mei Ling smiled at me fawningly. "I'm back, I've been promoted.

"Thank you!" I was expressionless and couldn't be bothered to socialize with Mei Ling.

"Your office is still Liu Fei's room. When the time comes, I will arrange for someone to change the latest computer for you. Mei Ling continued to please me.

"Thank you, Plum Assistant." I stopped and looked at Mei Ling, "I like using old computers, so please don't change your new one for me. You must not change …"

I know, that computer was used by Liu Yue.

The handover was actually very simple. On the morning before the New Year holiday, all the handovers had been completed and everyone had officially come on duty.

I became the Deputy Director of the Jianghai Daily News's Department of Public Information, presiding over the work.

After taking office, I presided over the first department room meeting, and everyone warmly welcomed and supported me when I came back. Chen Jing was especially happy, and during my speech, she would occasionally wipe the corners of her eyes.

I was very touched. This woman really didn't say anything to me. She had always been unwavering in her support for me.

It's just that, unfortunately, I don't have that kind of feeling for her.

Love couldn't be forced.

Sitting in Liu Yue's former office, looking at the branches shaking in the cold wind outside the window, I sighed with emotion.

The two women in my life, are Liu Yue and Qing Er.

Liu Yue had already thrown herself into the Corydalis's embrace, so she might be able to walk together with her.

When I thought of Qing Er, my heart suddenly tightened. I couldn't help but think of those seven years of joy and warmth. I thought of those warm and sweet memories …

I suddenly miss Qing Er.

However, I didn't have the face to look for Qing Er. I had once abandoned her so cruelly and mercilessly, and had even hurt her with indifference. There were too many things I had let down on her …

Closing the door of the office, I sat on the chair Liu Yue used to sit on. I would think of Liu Yue, and I would think of Qing Er.

Just then the phone on my desk rang.

"Hello, Jianghai Daily News, I am Jiang Feng!" I touched the phone and introduced myself out of habit. This was a phrase that Liu Yue had set down when she was the director.

There was no sound on the phone.

"Hello? Please speak! "

"You … Okay, Jianghai... University, I am... Xu... "Qingqing …" A slow, suppressed voice came over the phone.

So it was Qing Er who called. She was also replying to me in my standard language, but her emotions were too agitated and her words weren't smooth.

My heart was beating very quickly. Why did Qing Er call me? Is it to inform me that he is engaged to you, Old Third, and invite me to drink wedding wine?

"Qing Er, how did you know my phone number?" I asked Qing Er.

Qing Er slowly calmed her tone: "I just called your office to find out about your number, and I also knew that you just got promoted. Congratulations …"

"How did you know I was coming back?"

"I've been reading about your poverty reduction diary in the newspapers everyday, but it suddenly stopped. I think you've returned …"

My heart felt a wave of warmth. A year had passed, but Qing Er was still so concerned about me.

"Qing Er..." My voice was a little agitated. "You …" Are you all right? "

"Mm …" Qing Er's weak voice came out from the phone.

"Qing Er, I'm sorry," I said sincerely. "I am truly sorry, I have hurt you deeply before, I am wrong, I am wrong …"

"feng-ge, I don't blame you. I have never blamed you …" Qing Er said softly, "I don't blame her either. You all, I have never blamed you before …"

The more Qing Er said this, the more uncomfortable my heart felt, and the more I felt that my heart was filled with tender affection and love for Qing Er.

I bit my lip to stop myself.

"feng-ge, the reason I called you today was to tell you two things." Qing Er said softly.

"Tell me, Qing Er, I'll listen!" I tried to keep my voice level.

"Firstly, I agree to Old Third's proposal. Today, I'm going to register the marriage with him at the office …" Qing Er said calmly.

My heart spasms. Another woman of mine is finally going to be lost again today.

It was originally my woman, but I pushed her out and abandoned her. Now, she is finally going to be married to Old Third.

There are no women in my life.

My heart was filled with sorrow and grief. Qing Er, who was with me for seven whole years, was finally about to throw himself into the arms of someone else …

"Wishing you all the best... "Congratulations …" I suppressed the pain in my heart and tried to say the words.

After saying these words, my tears started to moisten.

"Thank you. I have a second matter to attend to."

"Speak, Qing Er, I'm listening." My voice choked.

"feng-ge, I want to tell you, I love you, I'll always love you, even after this storm, even after this year of separation, I still love you deeply, you are the only man I ever loved in my life, no matter who I end up with …" Qing Er's voice became choked with sobs. "Even if I entered the wedding hall with another man, you're still the only person in my heart …"

"Qing Er..." My tears began to flow.

"I... "I …" Qing Er's voice on the other side of the phone started to sob, "I … In another 30 minutes, he would go to the Midtown Office's Marriage Registry. I... I want... "I can see you there …"

Hearing Qing Er's cry, my tears flowed down, and I couldn't help but clench my fists as my heart felt as though it was being cut by knives.

"Old... Old Third... Today too... And that's what you told me... He … He said so himself, he said... "He also hopes to see you there …" Qing Er began to sob uncontrollably, "feng-ge … Even if... Even at the last minute, as long as... As soon as you appear... I... "I know how to …"

Qing Er was finally unable to say anything, accompanied by a burst of tears, he hung up the phone.

I put down the phone and sat there in a daze. Qing Er's crying filled my ears, and I felt waves of stabbing pain in my heart …

Thinking about the contents of Old Third's letter, I couldn't help but ponder. Could it be that Old Third had specially arranged all of this?

As I thought about it, I looked at the clock on the wall.

I sat in the office, on the seat that Liu Yue used to sit on for a few years. I stared fixedly at the clock on the wall, watching the second hand move about in circles, watching the minute hand move little by little.

I grabbed my hair and fell into a painful situation...

If God wants to destroy a man, he must shilling him for madness. But I've been mad for so long, and why didn't God destroy me, and why did God give me space and leeway to think?

Some people would always be engraved in their memories. Even if they forgot her voice, her smile, and her face, the feelings they would have whenever they thought of her would never change.

At the moment, Liu Yue was the same, Qing Er was the same.

Liu Yue no longer belongs to me, could it be that I want to lose Qing Er again?

The years of youth are like a river, the left bank is an unforgettable memory, the right bank is worth grasping the youth, in the middle of the flow, is the melancholy of youth. There were many beautiful things in the world, but not many truly belonged to him. See the flower blooming in front of the court, honor and disgrace do not alarm, look at the sky rolling clouds, to leave unintentional. In this winding mortal world, being able to use a normal heart to treat everything around him was also a kind of realm.

I was unable to maintain my calm and tranquil heart. My heart, which had been lonely for a long time, once again surged with raging waves. I was once again moved by Qing Er's crying to the deepest part of my brain that had been affected.

I closed the door of my office and ran down the stairs at top speed. I got on my bike and rushed out of the newspaper office, running with all my might towards the registration office in the city under the winter sun, which was melting the snow on the street.