C54 not perceiving

"I just got back to the newspaper and saw you riding your bike back to your dorm, so I rushed over …" Mei Ling didn't notice my abnormality and walked towards my dorm with a charming smile.

I didn't say anything and closed the door behind me. I turned around and grabbed onto Mei Ling's hair with one hand and her body with the other and threw her onto the bed a few meters away after Mei Ling let out a surprised cry.

The wooden bed let out a painful groan under the impact from Mei Ling's body, and the bed was almost broken.

This is the first time in my life I've ever hit a woman.

With an enraged roar, I immediately rushed to Mei Ling's side and grabbed onto Mei Ling's hair, then fiercely pulled back and pulled Mei Ling's face to the sky, facing my eyes that were filled with fire.

"Ah?" You? What are you doing? " Being tossed around by me, Mei Ling almost suffocated. Looking at my fiendish expression, she was so scared that her face drained of blood, and she could barely speak.

I gritted my teeth, without saying a word, I extended my right hand and fiercely slapped back and forth on Mei Ling's snow-white face that was smeared all over by the Spirit Demons.

"Pa?" "Pa?"

After slapping twice, Mei Ling's white face immediately turned blood-red.

Mei Ling gasped after being beaten up by me. It took Qing Er more than ten seconds to wake up as he looked at me in fear, "You? Are you crazy? Why use such violence! Me? "I can't take it. It's too cruel, can't you be a little more gentle …"

That shitty bitch, she's still thinking about the love of a man and a woman.

"F * ck?" That's all in your head! " I grabbed Mei Ling's neck and bellowed: "Speak? What have you done? "Speak!"

Only now did Mei Ling come to her senses, knowing that I wasn't doing that thing with her, but questioning her.

"Me? "Me?" Mei Ling, who was stuck in my throat, could not say a word. Her legs kicked wildly as her hands danced chaotically.

My hand was relaxed, but it was still on her neck. What have you done? "

"You?" "What do you mean?" Mei Ling caught her breath and tried to sit up, but I held onto her neck and she was unable to move.

"What do I mean? Don't you know what you did? " I said, still fiercely.

"What did I do? I know what you want to ask. " Mei Ling's expression softened as he stared at me.

"Speak, what did you do to Liu Yue?" I glared at Mei Ling.

Mei Ling finally understood, and her expression immediately turned weak: "I … What did I do? She's in the Xiejing, I'm in the river, her province, I'm in the city, what can I do? I didn't do anything! "

Mei Ling refused to admit it even if she died, and at the same time asked me: "So it was because of this that you hit me, for a woman, you hit me like this, since I was young, no one has ever dared to touch my finger, if you become capable, you dare to hit me!"

I took out my dagger and suddenly pressed it against Mei Ling's throat as I roared hysterically, "Damn it, don't say it, don't say it, I'll cut your throat right now!"

At that moment, it was really possible for the infuriated me to cut Mei Ling's throat. I had already lost my head from anger, and my jealousy and guilt about Liu Yue drove me crazy.

When Mei Ling saw that the shining dagger was about to cut into her neck, saw my bloodshot eyes and my twisted face, she became afraid.

"I... "I said …" Mei Ling's voice trembled, "I … That night, I accidentally saw your diary, saw the matter between you and Liu Yue, and also saw the matter between Liu Yue and the former Vice Mayor. I'll... And so, I wrote that letter and sent it to the Provincial Committee Advocacy Department … "

If it wasn't for that damned diary, if I hadn't gotten drunk that night, if I hadn't had met with Mei Ling that night, none of this would have happened.

Liu Yue repeatedly warned me to not get too close to Mei Ling and to stay as far as possible. However, I had always pretended to be deaf and ignored him, as if I didn't hear anything at all.

I already knew that Mei Ling and Mei Ling wouldn't be able to tolerate each other, but I still indulged in the thought of having a relationship with Mei Ling, and gave him an opportunity to do so.

It is true that there are Mei Ling's factors in this, but there are also my factors. If I had listened to Liu Yue's advice, how could such a thing have happened? From a certain point of view, it could even be said that I personally destroyed Liu Yue's future prospects and hopes.

My heart was filled with intense guilt and remorse.

"You?" Why are you doing this? "Why?!" I glared at Mei Ling, my voice filled with grief and anger. The hand holding the dagger became powerless.

Mei Ling took the opportunity to push away my hand, and sat up on the bed. She stroked my swollen cheek and looked at me hatefully: "Why would I do that? It's because of you, it's because I can't see that she's stronger than me, why does everything belong to her, why did she transfer me to the province, why am I the official student now? She wants to bring up the accessory part, why does she want to enjoy the man's life, I have to take what's left of her … Isn't she very good? Didn't she have a backer? Didn't she want to have a bright career? "I want her to know that you shouldn't be so arrogant since you've achieved your goals. I just want to give you a way out. Don't think that you'll be fine after you've been played around …"

"You fucking bastard. You disgraceful logic. Your father doesn't want you to care. Fuck you, you despicable, shameless, vile person …" I was so angry by Mei Ling's reply that I dragged her down from the bed: "Get out of here, before I change my mind and cut your throat, in the future, you're not allowed to step even half a step into this room …"

I snarled and waved the dagger in my hand.

Mei Ling was frightened by me, she did not dare say more, and anxiously ran out.

I kicked the door to death, threw myself on the bed, and burst into tears.

It was I who had destroyed Liu Yue, who had sent him to the end of the road, who had caused Liu Yue's dream and future to come to a dead end.

Liu Yue would definitely know that it was an anonymous letter written by Mei Ling, and would definitely know that Mei Ling obtained this information from me, and would definitely think that I leaked it to Mei Ling in order to get revenge.

However, Liu Yue didn't have the slightest complaint against me, but instead entrusted the Corydalis to tell me to be strong, wake up, and not to lose myself.

At such a time, she was still concerned about me, and even forgave me so much after I broke up with her. What a magnanimous heart, what a pure and selfless heart!

I was in so much pain that I wanted to die. I almost went mad as I kneeled on the floor in front of the bed in the dorm facing the direction of the Xiejing.

After I woke up a little, I knew that it was impossible for me to kill Mei Ling. That would be against the law and it would cost my life; I also knew that I could not speak of this matter to anyone, and without proof or evidence. With just my mouth, no one would believe me.

Moreover, although the things that Mei Ling had said were not the nature of the things that she said, they actually existed.

Also, this kind of thing can't be explained. The more you explain it, the more it seems like you want to hide it, the more people won't believe it. The best way is to remain silent and let time take away everything.

I hate Mei Ling.

This hatred belonged to a completely different nature from the hatred he had towards Liu Yue and Qing Er back then.

I no longer hate Liu Yue, and my heart is only filled with deep guilt and self-blame. At the same time, I also wish her and the Corydalis a happy and happy life, even though my heart is still incomparably deep in love with her.

To love a person is not necessarily to have; to love a person is to wish her happiness, not to seize it.

That day, I suddenly had this thought.

That day, I didn't recover from my pain until it was almost dark. It was only then that I remembered that the script for today's meeting hadn't been written.

Time is tight. It will be in the papers tomorrow.

The key point was that he still had to find the Secretary General of the Municipal Committee to examine the script after writing. Because this meeting was very large, all the leaders of the four big groups were present.

I struggled to my feet, washed my face, put on my coat, ate no dinner, picked up my bag, and headed for the office.

It was time to get off work, and all my colleagues were heading out, except for me.

Entering the office building's lobby, they coincidentally met Secretary Ma, who was heading downstairs.

"Good morning, Secretary Ma!" I respectfully greeted Secretary Ma.

"Xiao Jiang, you just returned from the interview?" Secretary Ma stopped in his tracks.

"That's right. Today, we're going to interview the People's Liberation Army's Great Assembly …"

"Mm …" I just finished driving it and I'll be back. This is very important, I must write it well and not make any mistakes! " The Secretary Ma warned.

"Mm …" I nodded quickly.

"Go on, it's been hard on you!" Secretary Ma smiled and walked out of the office.

I know that the Secretary Ma has a good impression of me and likes me a lot.

I hastily went upstairs, and just as I reached the 2nd floor, I coincidentally met Mei Ling at the corner of the stairs.

Mei Ling's face was partially covered by a scarf, just barely covering the swollen part of her face.

Seeing me, Mei Ling's expression became somewhat fearful. His body couldn't help but tremble, and he unconsciously stroked his cheek with one hand.

I didn't say anything. I looked at her deeply, gritted my teeth, and continued up the stairs.

I have nothing to say to this woman.

Being beaten was her deserved retribution.

When I reached the door of the office, I saw Liu Fei busily packing his things. He had not finished work yet.

Liu Fei and I bid our farewells and entered the office, and my colleagues left.

I turned on the computer and began to write.

Today, I was distracted, distracted, a bit busy, and my writing speed was not as good as it used to be.

The thought of having to review a draft made him anxious, and he typed faster and faster.

When I finally finished writing, it was already 9 o'clock in the evening. I hastily called the secretary of the Secretary General of the Municipal Committee to contact him regarding the examination of the script.

"The Secretary-General is currently accompanying the Leader for a meal in the county. Please wait for a moment, I'll go ask." The secretary told me.

Because of the frequent interviews with the manuscripts, I had gotten to know the secretaries of the city council and the city government, and the secretaries of the big teams all knew me.

After a while, the secretary called back. "The secretary said that he won't be going back to the city tonight. He can't go over the script. Anyway, you write these types of manuscripts often. Just make sure that you keep them in mind."