C43 Whether sweet or spicy

I actually ate all of the 2 chapters of rice. I don't know how I ate it. I don't know if it was light salt, or sweet, or spicy.

Seeing that I had finished eating, Liu Yue came over and sat down. She called the waiter to order him to take away the tableware and garbage, to clean up my battlefield.

After the waiter packed up and closed the door, Liu Yue sat on the sofa opposite of me and suddenly took a deep breath, then said calmly: "Jiang Feng, it's great that you are here, let's talk!"

I knew that the critical moment had come, and the mystery was about to unravel.

I sat there nervously, waiting for Liu Yue to say something. I didn't know what was about to happen.

My emotions had begun to sink, to sink into a bottomless abyss.

But I was still struggling, not missing a single opportunity. I firmly believed that even if it was a spark, it could still set the prairie ablaze.

Though I can't see the fire now.

"Are you busy these days?" Liu Yue asked softly.

"The same." I hissed back.

"Did you enter the mountain a few days ago?" Liu Yue must have seen my script.

"Yes, it's an interview in the mountains!"

"I saw that script. I saw it in the provincial and Chinese education newspapers. It's not bad. It's very newsworthy and typical …" Liu Yue continued speaking softly.

I felt a wave of relief. Liu Yue and I were obviously speaking in a softer and softer tone, praising and encouraging me.

My heart began to rise and fall as it slid towards the abyss. I even raised my eyes to look at Liu Yue, and saw the depression and resentment in her eyes.

My heart skipped a beat. I lowered my head and stared at my feet. I didn't say anything.

"Are you all right at home?" Liu Yue continued to ask.

"Fortunately, everything is fine!" "No," I replied.

After that, Liu Yue fell silent, and I fell silent as well.

After a long while, Liu Yue took a deep breath and continued to speak with a faintly discernable voice: "Is she also alright?"

My heart jolted. It's finally here!

"She?" I looked up, puzzled. "What about her? Which her? "Who is she?"

Liu Yue looked into my eyes and frowned, "Who is she, you know … "Don't pretend in front of me. I hate pretending, especially men. What's so good about pretending …"

I was discouraged, blushing, a little ashamed of myself.

"She has already broken up with me, it has nothing to do with me anymore. I don't know if she is doing well now." I changed my mindset. To put it bluntly, it was equivalent to tacit approval of Qing Er and me.

"Why did you break up? Why not? She was such a good girl, such a kind, gentle, gentle, quiet, and outstanding girl … It's because of me, isn't it? You only broke up with her after I was with you, didn't you? You've been hiding it from me and from her all these days, haven't you? " Liu Yue asked.

I could not answer for a moment, my head bowed.

"If you don't say anything, you're silently admitting it..." You deceived me, you deceived Qing Er … " Liu Yue's voice was distant, as if she came from a heavenly country that was far away in the unknown, "Do you still remember what I said to you? What I hate the most is deception. What I cannot forgive the most is deception. What I cannot forgive the most is deception … "But you, you are actually practicing and deceiving me …"

My heart tightened, I twitched, I shuddered, and cold sweat broke out on my forehead.

"Perhaps you must be guessing how I found out about you and Qing Er? Actually, how do I know? This isn't important, so you don't need to ask. If you don't want others to know, then don't do it … The important thing is that I know that you have been lying to me and hurting her. She is so weak and innocent, yet you actually dared to do it … If I didn't know about this, maybe you would've continued deceiving me and tortured Qing Er's injuries forever … " Liu Yue's voice was filled with anger.

Without a doubt, when Qing Er came to the Xiejing to study, he found Liu Yue and told him about her relationship with me.

I didn't expect that Qing Er would actually have such courage and courage to do such a thing. It was very obvious that I had underestimated Qing Er, I didn't expect him to do such a thing.

My heart surged with hatred towards Qing Er. Release my cold spear from behind my back, stab my black blade, ruin my good fortune, destroy my happiness!

"Sis, I'm not lying to you. Of course, if you think that it was a lie, then it was also a white lie, and it was also a lie because of love. You should know how deeply I love you, and the first time in my life was given to you …" I raised my head and looked at Liu Yue: "I admit, Qing Er and I have a relationship, but we are only girlfriends, and nothing substantial has ever happened between us. To put it bluntly, Qing Er and I have never had a physical relationship, so we have always maintained the purest of mental relationships and relationships … However, ever since I had you, the balance in my heart was completely out of balance. My entire spirit world instantly collapsed, and my so-called love with Qing Er couldn't even withstand a single blow. In order to not lose you, for the sake of our love, I didn't tell you about Qing Er and I. In order to not hurt Qing Er, in order to reduce the blow I had on her, I finally broke up with her … I did all of this for you, for our love, for our future … "

I was suddenly full of energy, talking, explaining, defending, using all sorts of far-fetched and self-righteous reasons.

Liu Yue listened quietly, and looked at me who was impassioned, and patiently allowed me to finish.

I can see that Liu Yue's eyes are a little moist, filled with intense pain and loss, as well as the continuous existence of despair.

After I finished speaking, Liu Yue was silent for a moment, then said: "You must be tired from talking, drink some water … Jiang Feng, I admit that your eloquence is very good, your eloquence is much better than when you first joined the job, many times better … I admit that what you said is reasonable and logical. Even from face to face, you are still able to explain it all. I also know that you gave me your first time … But between the soul and the body, I think the soul is more important... Jiang Feng, I just want to tell you one thing today. Ever since I lost my consciousness in life, I have set up the principle of being a human being, and that is: no matter how space and time changed, I would never destroy my own conscience, never base my happiness and happiness on the pain and harm of others, and never hurt innocent people … So, Jiang Feng, it's a pity, even though you've said so much, you still can't move me … "

I was surprised. "You?" What do you want? You? What are you going to do with us? "

"Jiang Feng, I... We... It's time to end everything for us! " Liu Yue stuttered as he suddenly stood up. He turned around abruptly and stood by the window, not allowing me to see her face.

"No?" I sat there in a daze, my mind blank as I howled, "No?" "Don't?"

"You should have your own life, you should have your own life. You and Qing Er, you two are the most suitable and happiest pair …" Liu Yue's voice gradually became tranquil.

"No?" "I don't agree?" I sat in a daze, continuing to howl, "I love you, I can't do without you... "You love me too, you told me yourself, you love me, you love me so much, you love me so much …"

Liu Yue was silent for a moment, then her voice transmitted over: "I'm sorry, I've misled you, our relationship was built on the basis of sex, it was built on the basis of your relationship with your mother. We lack the foundation of emotions, we don't have a warm bed or soil for emotions, our so-called love is more of sex, between us, there is no love, only sex …"

"You're lying, you're lying to me, you're also lying to yourself," I suddenly stood up, turned around and walked to Liu Yue's back, "Do you dare to use your eyes to look at me, and say what you just said again?"

Liu Yue did not turn around. She stood there motionlessly as her shoulders trembled slightly: "Don't force me …"

"The relationship between us is not sexual, but pure, noble love. I know that you love me very much, just like how I love you so deeply, Qing Er and I are finished, the harm has been done, love, not trade, not sympathy, not friendship …" Since it's over, since you love me, I love you, too. Why? Why! Why did you do this to me! " I plopped down on the bed, excited.

Liu Yue continued to maintain her silence for a moment, then opened her mouth, her voice slow and forceful: "Jiang Feng, you are wrong, there is no love between us, it is not love between us … "We were wrong from the start, we are destined to have no tomorrow, and we are doomed to have no results. Our end has long been decided, and is unavoidable …"

"Qing Er and I have truly ended. We had no contact for a long time now and I no longer have her in my heart. I hope that you don't take advantage of this and not make a big fuss … "The past, forever past …" I got up again and paced back and forth restlessly.

"You?" Liu Yue suddenly turned and stared at me: "You? To be able to forget and erase your past so quickly … "7. New Years …"

"That's because with you, there's only you in my heart. Ever since I started with you, there hasn't been any other woman in my heart …" I'm a bit guilty, but I'm trying to be reasonable.

I saw Liu Yue's eyes suddenly become sad, then I bit my lips and blurted out a sentence: "But, I'm sorry, I don't have you in my heart, I already have someone else in my heart!"

With that, Liu Yue turned and looked out of the window, one hand supporting herself on the windowsill, her shoulders trembling violently.

I froze. "You?" What did you say? You have someone else in your heart? "

"Yes!" Liu Yue's answer was very short.

"You?" You don't love me. You love others? " Corydalis suddenly popped out of my mind, and I felt a burst of inferiority and jealousy in my heart.

"Yes!" Liu Yue continued to answer.

My brain went numb and my thoughts were in a mess. "So, even? Even without Qing Er, even? Even though Qing Er and I broke up, you? You won't be with me? You're with me just for the sake of? For the pleasure of the body? You never really loved me? What did you say to me, what did you love me? Are you all putting on an act? "

"Yes!" Yes? Are you right? Both? " Liu Yue's voice was a little incoherent, and a little hysterical. She stood there with her head against the window, and her shoulders continued to fiercely tremble.