Chapter 145

"Young man, why did you eat so much? Is my noodles not delicious?"

In a noodle shop, the boss asked me.

I shook my head and said with a bitter smile, "no, it's delicious, but I have no appetite."

"Have a cigarette." Seeing my sentimental appearance, the boss threw a cigarette at me. After I took it and lit it, he asked me earnestly: "anyway, there are no people in the store so late. Let's chat?"

"OK!" I promised, because I was very upset and wanted to talk to someone.

"OK!" The boss turned and went to the refrigerator to get some bottles of cold beer, and went to the kitchen to prepare some cold dishes.

Then we talked. I listened to his story first.

The boss is in his fifties and has opened this noodle shop for more than 20 years. He has basically been guarding the shop all his life. When he was young, he also did some magnificent events, but later, life became dull. He told me that people will experience more or less unforgettable things in their life, but with the passage of time, they will gradually forget them, Even the deepest feelings will be smoothed by time.

However, he didn't tell me any great truth, because he told me that the truth from others is always light. Only when he experiences it, can he understand how hard he is to remember, how hard the time that slowly fades away is

After he finished speaking, we touched a glass of wine. He smiled and said to me, "tell me your story. I feel that you are young and different from others. You have a very unique momentum. I think your experience is not as little as I did in those years."

I took a deep breath, raised my glass, shook the foam from the light, and slowly told my boss about my story.

Of course, it's just my story with Xiaoya

After the boss listened, Patted me on the shoulder: "love is actually very mysterious. Everyone has different views. Some people think that love should be vigorous, but others think that love should be plain food, daily necessities, oil and salt. In fact, from your perspective, it seems that you live because of her. It's difficult to put it down. Do you want to put it down as much as possible?"

I pursed my lips and nodded, The boss said with a smile: "In fact, it's not necessary. Since you're so hard to remember, don't try again. Sometimes, the more you want to forget something, you'll be more reluctant. It's better to be free and easy. After all, she really exists. She can't disappear because you forget. Live well. There's still a long way to go in life. There are more people you will meet and more will happen Something you'll never forget. "

"Boss, a bowl of beef noodles!" At this time, there was a cry at the door.

The boss got up and smiled at me, "well, I won't talk with you. I have guests here. I have to make money to raise my wife and children."

"Thank you!" I also got up and sincerely bent down to thank him.

The boss disapproved and said, "Hey, let's talk about something idle and boring. Thank you, young man. I think people are always accurate. Come on."

With this, the boss shouted to his wife in the kitchen, "wife, beef noodles, put more beef!"

"OK!"

When the boss turned back, I had left. He looked at a pile of bills on the table in amazement.

Walking on the streets of Tianhai city at night, I was a little agitated.

"You are my good brother Zhang Xiong's life!"

"Brother, don't say anything, it's all in the wine! I'll do it, you're free!"

"Son of a dog, do you raise fish or whales? Give me a drink!"

I giggled and looked at the young people drinking at the stall not far away. I suddenly felt old in my heart.

But it seems that my age is not much different from theirs. I even look younger.

Maybe it's a different experience

Unconsciously, I had a sense of inferiority.

I really, really envy them, laugh happily and live carefree.

It seems that Chen Qiu is destined to be extraordinary, but I want to get rid of this extraordinary and be willing to be an ordinary person.

The kind of ordinary people who run in the sun and don't have to worry about life.

I was overwhelmed by the pressure of life. I thought that I would be safe and stable when I returned to Dongyang City with all my skills, but everything was different from me. These words, happiness and simplicity, were farther and farther away from me.

Unconsciously, I came to the downstairs of the hotel and looked up at the suite on the top floor. The light had gone out. I took a deep breath and chose to leave silently. I had no face to face whether it was Xiaoya or Xia QingHan.

Finally, I came to an ordinary hotel and opened a room. Lying in a room of less than five square meters, the whole room can only accommodate one bed and one aisle. It's not that I can't afford a better room, but that I lack a sense of security. I'm afraid that I'm alone in such a large room. That feeling of loneliness suffocates me.

Lying in bed, I put my arms on my pillow and looked at the ceiling. My ears echoed the discussion of the children downstairs. They were talking about where to play tomorrow weekend.

I turned over and turned my mind around. It was all what the noodle shop owner said to me. He said that sometimes her happiness is not her own generosity, but selfishness, because you don't know whether she is willing to share joys and sorrows with you.

What if you want to? If she is willing to take risks with you, will you give up?

I thought for a while and didn't know what the answer should be.

If Xiaoya wants to, I'm naturally very happy, but according to my heart of walking on thin ice, I won't agree, because I don't want her to suffer with me.

forget it!

I snuffed out the cigarette end and smiled bitterly. Now what's the use of thinking anyway? I never hear from hearsay. Seeing is believing. Xiaoya and Gu Lichuan live in the same room. I don't know what will happen. I don't dare to imagine. Whenever I think about it, I feel heartache and can't breathe.

"Ding Dong."

The mobile phone under the pillow vibrated and I took it out. It was the news of Xia QingHan.

"Wang Chen, this may be the last time I sent you a message. Of course, don't be excited. I didn't commit suicide or be killed. The concert is over and you're gone. There's nothing I miss in Tianhai city. It's ridiculous. When you told me you were coming to see me, I was very excited, but in the end, nothing happened to us. Now it's nothing to say What do you mean? Tell me about you. Now you seem to be in a fog. You can't see anything clearly. I can understand. It's like I love you. Even if the whole world opposes it, as long as you speak, I'm willing to abandon everything for you. "

"Chen Ya isn't yours anymore! She really isn't yours! Don't blame her. After all, you sent her away with your own hands. You may think it's for her good, but seriously, if a woman doesn't even have the courage to bear hardships with you, you don't need to be together at all. Are you afraid? The final answer is that Chen Ya doesn't like to be with you You are bumpy and wandering. She likes quiet, simple and stable days, and you are doomed to big storms. "

"All right! After talking so much, I'm too lazy to say it again, because I know you can't listen. In the future, I won't take the initiative to disturb you. Whatever you like, I'm still willing to wait for you, one year, five years, ten years! All my life! I don't care if I'm the last person to grow old and die alone. As long as you are willing to look back for me, I'll marry you! I've recognized you all my life! It's difficult for me to find you, but it's easy for you to find me. When you figure it out, come to me. "

"Xia QingHan is a woman who loves you deeply."

I almost subconsciously edited the words "sorry", but when I really wanted to send it, I remembered what Xia QingHan said to me before the hotel left.

Stop saying sorry to her.

Perhaps the three most powerless and useless words in the world are sorry.

In the end, I didn't reply to any word after all.

I am destined to break the heart of Xia QingHan. Xiaoya is my world. Why am I not the world of Xia QingHan?

The next day.

morning.

I found a breakfast shop downstairs. I still didn't have any appetite, but I reluctantly ate some in order to have physical strength.

After that, I walked like a walking corpse in the streets of Tianhai city. I walked aimlessly and blindly. Qi Weihua sent me a message saying that he Haoran had completely disappeared since he Haoran escaped from prison. It is estimated that it is to avoid the limelight. I will not appear easily for a while.

Of course, unless you catch me.

I don't blame Qi Weihua. I know he wants he Haoran to die more than I do!

I don't know how long later, it was a little dark. I came to the door of a western restaurant. A sports car sped away from me, stopped at the western restaurant not far away, and got off the car. I didn't care at first, but I felt more and more familiar with my back. When I looked at it, what I didn't think was, It's Xiaoya and Gu Lichuan!

My heart couldn't help a pain. I almost wanted to escape, but my steps followed them. I walked into a milk tea shop opposite the restaurant and ordered a glass of juice at will. I looked at Xiaoya sitting by the window, holding my chin. I looked a little tired and didn't know what I was thinking.

She looked changed and changed into new clothes. Don't think about it. Gu Lichuan took her to buy it in the morning. Wearing a famous brand on her is very temperament, just like a lady. She wears gold and silver. As long as she likes it, Gu Lichuan will buy it without hesitation, regardless of the price.

Gu Lichuan is very good at taking care of Xiaoya's feelings. He will considerately hand Xiaoya the menu and let her choose first. He maintains a gentleman's demeanor all the time. He knows Xiaoya better than me and knows Xiaoya's taste. He will put the cut steak on Xiaoya's plate. Xiaoya shows a sweet smile. Such a scene of love makes others envy, but it is too dazzling in my eyes.

At that moment, I had to admit that I was jealous! I'm jealous!

Gu Lichuan didn't disappoint me after all. He loved Xiaoya more than I did. I lost completely. Xiaoya will live a happy life with him, carefree and not like me.

My heart seems to be stabbed by a knife. I should bless them and laugh!

However, I struggled for a long time and still couldn't smile for a long time.

Finally, they were about to finish eating. I also recovered. After checking out, I walked out of the milk tea shop. Finally, I looked at Xiaoya and said deeply, "Xiaoya, you must be happy!"

With that, I smiled bitterly and turned away

At the moment I disappeared, Chen Ya in the restaurant suddenly regained her consciousness, quickly looked out of the window and rushed out without any consideration.

Gu Lichuan also followed out, full of fog: "Xiaoya, what are you doing out?"

Chen Ya frowned and looked around. She seemed to see my figure, but there was nothing at the scene. She could only shake her head and said, "I seem to see my brother... I should be dazzled."

"Oh." Gu Lichuan seems a little depressed.

Soon after, I came to the railway station in Tianhai city and bought the nearest flight at will. For me, it doesn't matter where to go, as long as it's not Tianhai city and Dongyang City.

I sat in the lounge in a trance, as if I had lost my soul.

Soon after, the high-speed railway was about to start. The prompt of the radio pulled me back to reality. I thought back. When I was about to leave, the mobile phone in my pocket vibrated. I took out my mobile phone and looked at the strange number. I couldn't help frowning. But when I thought carefully, it should be brother Bao's, because this is my satellite mobile phone. Except for the people in the address book, only brother Bao knows.

I answered the phone and said, "brother Bao."

"Ah, Lord Chen." Brother Bao smiled and said, "are you still in Tianhai city?"

I looked at the crowd waiting in line to go to the platform, hesitated and said, "well, it's still there. What's the matter?"

Brother Bao smelled the speech and sighed deeply: "well, I have some trouble here. I don't know how to deal with it. I hope Lord Chen can help me."

Last night, I promised brother Bao that if there is anything, you can come to me. If it's within my ability, I'll never give up.

Originally, I was going to leave and leave the city forever, but brother Bao wanted me to work again. For a time, I didn't know what to do.

But soon, I made a decision and said to brother Bao, "OK, brother Bao, tell me a place. I'll go now."

I don't want to be in arrears or ruin the reputation of Wang Chen.

Soon, brother Bao sent me a position.

Now that the decisions have been made, I didn't hesitate to turn around and leave the station directly.

I stopped a car on the side of the road to the address sent to me by brother Bao.

At nine o'clock in the evening, I came to this nightclub. I wondered that it shouldn't be. Brother Bao asked me to go out. There must be something important. Otherwise, he can solve it easily with his own ability. Since it's an important thing, he must find a quiet place?

Can you calm down by choosing such a noisy place as a nightclub?

But I didn't think much. I couldn't resist this strange feeling and stepped into the nightclu