Chapter 361

She didn't tell me this herself, but I saw it with my eyes.

When she looked at the man, there was light in her eyes.

Unfortunately, when I first saw it, I knew that man was not a good man.

He is tall and handsome. At first glance, he is the favorite of all official ladies.

Unfortunately, his eyes did not fall on her, but on the throne where the emperor was sitting.

The man had greed in his eyes, but she didn't.

And I'm still by her side day and night.

I know she is a noble and beautiful princess, and I'm just a little imperial doctor. I don't deserve her.

She began to wipe her tears secretly. I knew it was the man who owed her.

But I don't know how to comfort her. I only study new prescriptions again and again and devote myself to taking good care of her body.

Seeing that her body is getting thinner and thinner, but her face is getting ruddy, I can feel better.

But I didn't expect that she was robbed on a trip.

I was drunk for three days and nights.

I also went to find her, but the thief took her away, and there was no news. I don't know what he would do to her, but I think my princess will go farther and farther after all.

That day was the hardest day I spent. I carefully hid my emotions in front of people and faced them with a masked face.

Only I know how my heart suffers in the dead of night.

Finally she came back. She was thinner than when she left.

I wanted to ask her what the reason was, but I knew that if she didn't want to say, I just asked.

Later, the queen came twice. She seemed to be in a much better mood and gradually had a smile on her face.

Even once, she used her handkerchief for me herself.

It was the first time that I had what belonged to her. I was in my heart, beating fast. My beautiful princess, did she finally look at me more?

However, soon one night, I found the trace of the suspected man. He sneaked into the palace to have a private meeting with her.

I knew he was under her bed that day, but I pretended not to know. I just asked silently and left the princess's room.

But I never thought that it was only that time that I accidentally lost the handkerchief she gave me.

I wanted to go back and find it.

But I know very well that the man is there. I must let him know that there is a princess in my heart.

If he goes on like this, I will report to the bodyguard to take him away regardless of the Queen's face.

But the good times are not long, and we are going to March and fight again.

The princess also disappeared again.

I know. She was taken by this guy.

The place I went this time was where the guy was. I'm going to find her.

But I didn't expect that the guy was despicable and wanted to kill me. At the moment he kicked me off the cliff, I saw the anger in the princess's eyes.

I think she hates this guy because of me, even if it's worth dying.

But I want to survive. I want to continue to protect my princess.

Finally, heaven has eyes, I went back alive.

I saw my princess again, and her eyes were full of joy at her recovery.

The two of us just met and looked at each other. We already knew the thousands of words each other wanted to say.

She said that she knew my mind, and she was already a withered flower and a withered willow. She didn't deserve me.

I know what she means is that she won't accept me. I'm depressed all day but forced to smile.

My parents also urged me to get married at this time.

Before that, they had urged countless times, and even the matchmaker had to level the threshold.

But I told them again and again that I didn't want to get a wife.

One come and two go, let those matchmakers eat too much and shut the door. There is a saying in the capital that I am cold and aloof and don't like ordinary girls.

I just smiled and told them that I like men.

I had a drink with general Feng.

I know someone in his heart, but I dare not say it.

It doesn't matter even if it makes people guess. He and I are both honest men, not afraid of other people's evaluation.

Gradually, my parents no longer forced me. They knew that no matter how hard they forced me, it was useless.

Even when my father saw through my mind, he called me into the room to scold and slapped me again.

This is the second time he hit me. He told me that no matter what the princess is, I don't deserve it.

What if you deserve it or not? I can't marry, and I'm not allowed to be with her.

Even herself could not take this step.

I once thought that we would be like this in our life. I didn't know that the emperor ordered me to be the son-in-law.

There is no doubt that this is a great happy event for me.

I can finally win the woman I love, but unfortunately, I don't know her mind.

On the night of marriage, she sat under the swaying red candle, and the big red cover covered her. I gently opened the red cover and saw her look that haunted me.

But I also saw that she was unhappy, so I didn't touch her.

I put her in bed, and I slept on the soft couch next to her, sleepless all night.

I began to wonder whether I was right or wrong.

Is it right or wrong to love someone and imprison her around?

However, I am reluctant to let go anyway.

Even just looking at her from a distance is a kind of happiness.

Fortunately, because of her mother, although she was unhappy, I finally knew that she was happy with me.

She never mentioned the man again.

A pair for life.

So did my father and mother, and so did I.

Two years later, we finally had our own children. Looking at the little girl carved with powder and jade, I thought of her.

The little girl's small group is really like her at that time.

I will bring her up with her.

At that time, I even thought that we could see our good daughter grow up and get married.

But who could have thought that a serious illness took her life.

My daughter is still young, but she is seven or eight years old.

My mother advised me to continue, but I knew that her position was irreplaceable.

I have a family, a wife and a daughter. This life is enough. Even if I sing about wine for the rest of my life, I will not be lonely with her in my heart.

When her daughter was sixteen, the Queen chose a good family for her. They were very talented and beautiful.

I know. After this, it's time for me to accompany her.

I resigned my office from the emperor and built a thatched house in the suburbs.

Right at her grave.

I remember she liked listening to me play the piano. I remember she liked listening to me sing poetry.

I remember she was afraid of being alone.

But now, she doesn't have to be afraid anymore.