Chapter 1135

Honglin has never told anyone about his own pain in his heart, but now, facing the dawn, a simple home child, he wants to say it, because he wants to let him know How dirty the world is, far from what he imagined, or because his wealth and stability limited his imagination, or because his class was superior.

Just as a good person who brought him to Chiba country once said: I want to take you back to your real life and be a real prince. You don't need to live such a vagrant life any more.

Young, he believed it.

At that time, he looked forward to the day when he was in exile with his mother. He could not eat enough food and wear warm clothes. But he also knew that at that time, his mother loved him, but what happened later? Little by little things began to get worse, that with him looking for happiness, did not carry to the end.

When the last one to protect him fell down, Honglin became a helpless man. He could beg for a living. He could even go to work as a handyman to work for free. As long as there was a stuttering, he could not die of hunger. But at that time, a man saw him, and then he was brought into the endless darkness.

He still remembers that the last word that the man who wanted to take him to a good life said before he fell was, "don't tell them who you are."

Later, he was paralyzed by pain. He killed too many people. Every day he spent in pain and guilt. Every day, he wanted to die. But in order to live, for his mother, and those who had fought to keep him alive, he has lived until now.

At the beginning, he had been waiting for others to ask him who he was, but no one had ever asked him. Later, he did not remember who he was, or those painful days, and let him forget who he was, because in his life, there were killing everywhere. He no longer remembered who he was and who was standing in front of him. He only remembered that he wanted to live.

Tianming looks at Honglin, and the smoke cuts off his face. At this time, in the night, he is weak as a touch of air, and may leave at any time. At this time, Tianming really understands how painful Honglin is in his heart, but the pain, for him, is a kind of solid stone like indifference, which turns into that kind of indifference For him, there is no reason, because he lives in that environment.

"You..."

"I live in such an environment. Killing people is my lesson, just like you recite the text. Daggers are our pens. You write and write. But we don't even have to look back. We can only keep killing and living for the sake of living. There, you don't have the moment when you want to breathe after survival, because no one will give you time I once thought about letting my best friend die, but when I began to hesitate, he blew his knife at me

Tianming looks at him in perfect condition. He knows now that some people's injuries are not presented on the surface, while some people's injuries are in the deepest position in the heart.

"No one has ever thought about why we teenagers will experience this, and we have never thought about it. Because we are only living together, we are still living well. But for the world, we are just a group of garbage. A group of garbage can be thrown away after use. For ye Qingyan, we are also It's also rubbish. "

This is very calm. Honglin doesn't even have a breath. He just says it smoothly. But who knows what such a saying means? He has been as calm as water. That is to say, why he didn't react at all when he saw such a scene in Lin's family, and why he could handle Xiaoman's bullying with his hands and feet People killed.

All of them have been dealt with without any trace. At dawn, he always thought that he was a cold-blooded man, but now, he knows that he is not. He can tell others the painful process, which proves that he is really a person who wants to live well.

But now, things are different. Tianming looks at him: "you have come out from that time, which proves that you can come out at any time. Moreover, you know ye Qingyan very well, which proves that you are close to him. If everything is climbing up layer by layer according to the order, then you should be in a very high position. Why do you I don't want to escape. "

If it wasn't because of this opportunity, did he intend to die in it?

"Ah Why don't I escape? " Honglin looked at his eyes, but seemed to be looking at other places through his eyes. At last, he gave a long empty voice and said, "I just want to die."

Want to die? Why does it feel so painful to say it in his mouth? For him, it was a painful thing, but later, when everything was said, Tianming thought that Honglin's heart might not be a stone, it was full of holes.

"Want to die? You, why do you... "In such an environment, it is not easy to live well, but now he wants to die? Obviously, this is such a ridiculous statement that even he thinks he is ridiculous. However, such a red order makes the dawn feel sympathy. He is ashamed of his idea.

"In our class, there are a lot of things that can't be explained. When you reach the age of 30, if your physical mechanism is no longer, then you will be executed. There, you are only 18 to 28 years old, about 10 years of youth."

The sky widens its eyes. There are still such things in the world. Some people, even at the age of 30, don't know what they want, but there, they are going to die at the age of 30?

"But didn't you choose one by one? Why... "

"Because we are garbage, a group that is destined to be abandoned from birth."

Tianming felt that his outlook on life, world outlook and everything else had been overturned. He never imagined that some people could still live such a life. No, he never imagined that there would be such a dark place in the world.

So "Why don't you resist? How many of you have grown up? Why not fight collectively, but kill each other one by one? "

"Because our power is given by them. We have no ability, prisoners and garbage. When can we have a voice? We just want to live. "

"Then why did you want to die again?"

"No, by us, I mean them. After I killed them, I have already been in their community of life. I killed them just to let them die painlessly, which is salvation, but I always know what I want."

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