CH 277

Wen Qingyou x Jiang Lingwei (10)

Despite being hurt by her cold words, Wen Qingyou just turned around and walked out a few steps, but still stopped.

He stopped in his tracks, knowing that he might really never turn back once he turned his back. Two voices struggled in his body.

Was everything to love her purely, or to fulfill his own dreams?

But this struggle lasted only a few seconds before Wen Qingyou turned around again.

He thought, as long as Jiang Lingwei was still there…

As long as she didn’t leave…

But under the colorful and flashing neon lights, the familiar figure had long since disappeared.

All that was left were the fallen leaves blown by the wind, with a somewhat mocking desolation.

At that moment, Wen Qingyou understood.

It turned out that between them, it wasn’t just a matter of one making concessions.

She didn’t belong to him.

She didn’t belong to anyone.

He already loved her passion and freedom; wow why bother destroying all that beauty?

Sometimes love should be fulfilled in another way.

‘Take the initiative to let go.’

‘Don’t force her to go to a world she didn’t like.’

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In the bar, Jiang Lingwei didn’t say another word even after she came back from outside.

The pregnancy test was something she deliberately let Wen Qingyou see.

She knew he would come to ask, knew he would be nervous. But since vomiting at home for the first time that day, and then Wen Qingyou raised the topic of marriage, she felt inexplicably uneasy and anxious.

She could feel Wen Qingyou’s desire for a family, but felt that she could not bear the responsibility.

She could not give Wen Qingyou a future.

She had no confidence and dared not try such a relationship that she had ostracized in the past.

When she went to the hospital for a checkup, she also once wondered what to do if she were really pregnant.

Saying that she would abort it was merely a way to calm and comfort herself. She was not so cold-blooded, but if she were to carry it, she was not ready for such abruptness.

In those days, Jiang Lingwei’s world was also a mess, and she didn’t know what to do.

Fortunately, the final examination result was just an endocrine disorder caused by overwork and gastritis from overdrinking.

Although the result made Jiang Lingwei relieved, it was those days of conflicting struggle that made her finally make that decision.

She took the initiative to be the heartless one, so that Wen Qingyou would turn back and not waste time on her.

It was because she knew how excellent he was that she was more reluctant to hurt him.

The person beside Jiang Lingwei asked her, “Sister Wei, who was that man just now?”

Jiang Lingwei hesitated for a long time before she replied softly, “A stranger.”

They were not meant to be on the same side, but they provoked each other.

If it wasn’t for the sudden occurrence of this incident, Jiang Lingwei would have always thought that it was just a fling.

What was more, she never thought that when Wen Qingyou brought up the topic of marriage, she would feel uneasy because of her rejection.

She didn’t know when she started caring about his feelings.

This feeling brought Jiang Lingwei so much discomfort that she hurriedly pushed him away and whitewashed her world, hoping that everything would go back to the past, and she would still be heartless and unrestrained by anyone’s emotions.

As she wished, Wen Qingyou did not contact her after that night at the bar.

Perhaps, adults’ farewells were like this, with a decent exit and no further disturbances.

One morning half a month later, Jiang Yuhe told Jiang Lingwei, “He’s going back to New York.”

Jiang Lingwei paused, then lowered her head. “When?”

“Tomorrow.”

“…”

Although Jiang Lingwei wanted to get over this relationship as soon as possible, even though she once felt that she would never be bound by anything or anyone, this time, she still overestimated herself.

Jiang Lingwei drove Jiang Yuhe to his flight that day.

But she didn’t go in and asked her brother not to say anything about her coming.

The farewell stopped at the door, and from then on they would travel the mountains and seas, each to their own end of the world.

When the plane took off, Jiang Lingwei mentally said ‘Please take good care of yourself’, but never wanted to acknowledge her sour eyes at that moment.

She could only comfort herself that she was just a little uncomfortable, and compared to a lifetime of no restraint, this moment of disenchantment was nothing.

She was Jiang Lingwei, the Jiang Lingwei who belonged only to herself.

The relationship of less than six months ended abruptly, at the most passionate time, but also with the most passionate closure.

Jiang Lingwei thought she could quickly return to the past, but even the people around her could see that since Wen Qingyou left, she changed entirely.

At first, she lived her life the way she used to, but unconsciously, she would always suddenly wander off at some lively moment.

She seemed to have lost something; something was missing inside her.

Gradually, she began to feel weary; weary of blinding lights, weary of the ear-piercing music, weary of noisy crowds.

In the end, Jiang Lingwei didn’t know if she was tired of herself.

Eight months later, Jiang Yuhe was going to propose to Wen Yu and planned to invite all her family members back from the US to witness their happy moment together.

At that moment, Jiang Lingwei felt that her heart, which had been silent for a long time, finally felt a ripple.

She also finally discovered that subconsciously, she had been looking forward to all the news related to this man.

It was just her ridiculous pride that was still unwilling to admit it.

It turned out…

She never gave up.

However, Jiang Lingwei ended up disappointed.

On the night of the proposal, both the Jiang and the Wen families were on the rooftop.

Only Wen Qingyou was not.

He did not come back.

Not a bit of leeway was left on her side.

He was unwilling to return even for his sister’s proposal. Jiang Lingwei knew very well that in his heart, their story might have become a past that he never wanted to face again.

After that night, Jiang Lingwei became more and more reticent. The daily routine was nothing but work.