Chapter 18 - 18

Reed continued to nod seriously until he met my eyes then we broke out laughing like preteens at the unintended innuendo of the word banana.

"Wow, we are dorks," I said shaking my head still giggling a little.

"Yes, we are. Now finish it please," he demanded.

I shook my head at his tone wondering if this man ever took a break from being bossy, then went back to the questionnaire and began reading the questions with more thought. They were broken up into sections and each section had a list of questions regarding the heading of the section.

Section 1:

Vaginal intercourse … Approve

Penetration with penis… Approve

Penetration with foreign objects i.e.: Bananas

That caused another round of laughter and I made Reed change it to toys. I threatened to set it to a hard limit if Reed did not which made him chuckle and agree.

Section 2:

Anal intercourse

Penetration with penis

Penetration with foreign objects i.e.: dildos

I was a bit more hesitant about that, seeing as up until now I'd had some pretty subdued boyfriends. Most of them started sweating and freaking out if you attempted to deviate from missionary.

"I've never-"I started and then swallowed not sure if I could say it out loud.

His eyes flashed with heat.

"Are you saying you've never had anything up that pretty ass of yours?”

I shook my head embarrassed at having this conversation. A smile broke out across his face that was all about male ego and possession.

"I am so happy to be the first to break in that tight little ass of yours," he said as he caressed my cheek.

His thumb rubbed across my lips and my eyes fluttered shut as I sighed leaning into him.

"Not yet, little pet," he whispered even as his lips brushed against mine.

I opened my eyes and gave him a pleading look which caused him to laugh again.

"Patience. I promise, after all is said and done, and your signature is on all these papers we'll begin. But until then I need you to focus."

I sighed. "You know patience has never been a strong point with me."

"Well, that is what we'll work on first," he said then dropped his hand from my face and tapped the paper.

I looked at it and realized I had not actually put anything down for the next sections. I wasn't sure what to write considering I hadn't tried any of these things before and I was afraid it would all be too painful.

"Trust me," was all he said, and even though it had only been a few days, I did.

Now I read through the third one, this was all about oral and there was hardly anything on there that I did not want to do with him so that was easy until it came to a line about gags.

"No," I said looking at him.

He raised an eyebrow. "No?"

"No, you are not going to gag me," I said firmly giving him a stubborn look to let him know that I refused to budge on this.

"Why not?" Reed asked.

"Because there's no reason. Why would you want to gag me?" I asked in disbelief.

"Mia, there is hardly anything I don't want to do to you," he said laughingly.

I softened towards him because I felt the same thing for him. I looked down at the line I stopped on and took a deep breath, I wrote disapprove next to it but also wrote soft limit.

He wrapped a comforting arm around me.

"That's my girl. We will certainly work up to that point."

The next few sections flew by. With his help, I was able to cross off not only piercings but also branding, scarring, blood play, and burning, along with several other things that just made me shudder. When it came to whipping and flogging, I felt myself grow shy again since it had been a deep dark secret that I like a little pain with sex. I couldn't look at him when I wrote approve next to light whipping and light flogging, but the sharp intake of breath he gave went straight to the core of me and I knew I'd made the right choice. Next came spanking which I didn't even have to look at him before I put "approve" next to it, since I was pretty sure he wouldn't let me have it any other way, not that I wanted to anyway.

I set down the contract when they were all signed and filled out. I took a deep breath, wow, I was really going to do this. I was going to become a sub to this man. I felt anxiety, excitement, and fear roll around in me and I took another gulp of wine to calm my nerves, then he whisked the glass right out of my hands before I could take more in.

"I want you sober, Mia," he said with a soft smile on his face. "I know this is scary but trust me, trust in me to bring you through all of this safely and at any time you are scared I want you to say yellow, like a banana. It means you want us to slow down and pause, do you understand?"

I nodded, my voice not wanting to show itself again.

"Okay, stand and strip," he demanded suddenly, his Dom side was back.

My eyes widened at that sudden change and my fogged mind took a second to comprehend.

"What?"

"You heard me, Mia. Stand up and strip."

I slowly proceeded to get up and do as he ordered, but I found myself hesitating once again. It was one thing to fantasize about doing this and it was something totally different to be doing it in real life. I looked to him for some sort of clue or an ounce of courage that I could siphon to help me. But he just sat and watched as I slowly began to overcome my reservations and continued to do as he ordered. I took courage in the fact that he did not even look worried, he was stone silent and his faith in me was heartening.

Finally, I took a deep breath and took my shirt off. Without a bra, my breasts were bared to him immediately. His eyes dropped and I felt my nipples harden under his stare. I dropped the shirt on the chair beside me and reached for my pants.

I knew that once my pants hit the ground, I would be completely naked for him. I cringed at the idea of being so vulnerable in front of him for the first time with all my own insecurities coming back to me about my appearance. But the granite in his gaze as he watched my hands move to the waistband told me he would settle for nothing less. I closed my eyes trying to hide even as I went to push them down.

"Wait," he said as he stood up and walked towards me. "Turn around."

My eyes flew open and met his with surprise. "What?"

"Turn around," he said.

I slowly turned around as his hand swept my ponytail over my shoulder, so nothing was blocking his view.

"Now you can take off your pants," he ordered.

I closed my eyes and swallowed hard as I realized what that stance would make me do. I would be bending over and sticking my ass up in the air.. I wondered briefly if I could get away with letting them shimmy down but dismissed that idea quickly knowing that is not what he wanted me to do.