Chapter 277 - § GARBAGE §

CHAPTER 023 

'Can you love me?', 'I want you to love me.', and 'Let's make love.' These were the three most known phrases of invitation for the lovers to say if they were desiring intimate copulation. In short, Yanarym practically demanded to him that they should have sex. 

This doesn't feel right, Lyndon gaped into the teacup that was becoming cold. How come she was no longer the same predictable woman he was using all this time? Since when did she come to be straightforward and charging? How did that modest and shy girl turn into someone this courageous? She's asking him… to love her, have her? Why is she asking him for sex? Is she out of her mind?

"What?" Of all the words he could say to her, this was the best he could process to utter.

He peered at her convicted eyes and there was no room for negotiation. If he rejects her, will she overthink and start to cry again? Act pitiful to gain his sympathy? Even if she cried blood he wouldn't give a damn. But he guessed she knew that he had to do something to coax her—please her. When did she become so controlling? Why does it feel like she was the one who's holding the string, the puppeteer? 

"Touch me, Lyndon, make me yours," Yanarym took his hand and directed it to her chest. The 'virgin' aloof prince's eyes widened in bewilderment, forcefully snatching his hands away from her body like he was burnt from touching her. 

"Are you crazy Yanarym? Why would I touch you?! You're so disgusting!" He roared in dissatisfaction, which later caused him to freeze at his spot realizing what he yelled at her was not nice to say to a woman who was in love with him. 

Fuck! He growled in his head, I fucked up. 

Yanarym smiled in her head, this was why Lyndon was much more manageable to regulate than Kraig. Lyndon was too honest for his own good, and his egocentricity would doom him as well. Look at him, he would not even put in some effort to deceive her. 

He could only exploit the original because she was crazy in love, but Yanarym had herself supervised. There was no way that he would be able to influence her because it would be an impossible feat for Lyndon to make her fall in love. Better men couldn't make her stay, the worst man can? No way in any way, she was not cut up for that bullshit tale of love. 

She was not disparaging the original for loving the kinds of Lyndon… well, maybe I am. Not maybe, I am criticizing you right now, Original. I mean, you can pick a better man to fall in love with! There's Marcus for example! He is much better than this garbage Lyndon or that trash Kraig! Woman! Make better choices! Love yourself better! Value yourself a little higher! Don't—never apologize nor be intimidated by the fact you were setting your standards too high. It's not high! It's your worth! 

But who am I kidding? People become too foolish once they surrender… that's why I could never understand that love. 

See the original, in the first place, Lyndon did not intend to make her head over heels for him, she tripped by herself, and Lyndon just pushed her on the cliff, which was such… a tragedy. 

Nevertheless, the shine for Lyndon was over. It's my spotlight now, Yanarym grinned. In the game of manipulation or to any game at all, the one who first loses their cools will be crowned as the loser. That was a golden rule. With this situation, Yanarym must have Lyndon under her control and she will have him. 

Nonetheless, she had to consider that Lyndon hated her. Like any fairy tales and story cliche books, Yanarym had read. Tiana was the woman that was adored by any male lead in this world. She had Kraig, the male lead, and another male lead, Lyndon, swarming to her. 

Tiana could ask everything from those two and they would gladly comply to make her smile and such. With that said, the other woman, who was the female lead's enemy, namely her, Yanarym's character as of the moment, was the one who the male leads to detest, especially Lyndon who was very picky in terms of his people. 

He was that type of person, that if his friend hates certain someone, without knowing why he would hate that certain someone too. So, as he assessed Tiana as his person, and Tiana hated Yanarym to the core, Lyndon felt the same way as Tiana's towards Yanarym. In a nutshell, Lyndon loathed Yanarym because Tiana did not like Yanarym… 

The garbage doesn't even see me as a person at all. He thought of Yanarym as his tool, a disposable and reusable tool—a puppet, his doll! That drives my conviction to become the worst karma of this garbage! She would not leave this world until this man learned his lesson. I don't care if he had his past trauma or what he is going through. He doesn't care about the original's pain, so why should I care about him? Yanarym clenched her jaw. 

Achis killed people too, he killed the original too, but he was a man with philosophy. Movu had a rougher past than Lyndon. And, Alvan received his retribution when Alyx killed him in the original plot. But this person...this Lyndon and that Kraig… 

Yanarym was not sure if Lyndon's hate for her was greater than her hate for him. If he was disgusted by the idea of having sex with her, what about her?

Well, he is handsome! Although it was such a refreshing idea to have some hate-sex… 

No! I loathe the idea of pretending to be in love with him. 

Wake up Yanarym, don't get or be swayed by superficial things!

You are pretending! Pretending! ...It's a good thing that she was this great at pretending. 

Guide-sama: "Why are you having an internal conflict? If you like it, you like it. Don't deny it."

"Shut up! Don't interfere with my thoughts! I still have privacy to protect."

Guide-sama: "..." 

If she knew that she would end up with these kinds of people. She would rather ignore the social norms in the recent world and have a lot of fun with Yashnile and Yazeno in the sheet. 

Guide-sama: "..." 

Lyndon gawked at Yanarym, she was zoning. And he couldn't utter a word to bring her back to her senses. Then, she slowly blinked her eyes as if she returned to her consciousness. 

"Disgusting?" She muttered with an awestruck expression. "You are disgusted by me?" She didn't even cry. It caused Lyndon to feel more troubled. 

Guide-sama: "You want to use the guilt card on him too?" 

Oh, please Guide-sama, this man has no such thing as conscience. He's an asshole, he doesn't have feelings.

Guide-sama: "Then, you were not planning to bed him, right?" In her head, Yanarym's lips curled into a smile. 

Although he's a fallen apple, he's edible.

Guide-sama: "So, you are going to sleep with him." 

"Yes! So, shut up!"

Lyndon came to his senses after spewing his thoughts, hurriedly reaching out for her hand. "No, no, no, you're not disgusting." 

Yanarym glared at his hand and brushed him off, "You're lying, you were disgusted! You said it with a firm tone, your expression earlier says it all!" 

"Yanarym, are you saying that I don't love you? Did I ever make you feel that way? Why are you making me the bad guy? It was just…" 

"I'm dirty? I was held by another man? And your enemy at that?" 

"Yes, no! I mean no! You're not dirty." He held her hand again but his disgruntled expression was contradicting his words. "You're the most precious thing that happened to me. I don't want to stain you, that's why I don't want to touch you." 

'Is he serious?' That was the stupidest excuse Yanarym heard in her entire fifth life. How could a person be this dumb? And the original believed his lies? These kinds of lies? What does this man think of me? A dumbo, cuckoo-brain? I am nowhere near that ignorant pea-brain female lead! At least he should change his aggravated expression while saying that dialogue. 

"I'm already tarnished Lyndon," she said dryly and was about to pull her hands off of him. "But if you are that bothered that I was held by Kraig, then fine with me. I just should go." 

Lyndon was baffled if he should let her leave like this, or sacrifice himself to keep on exploiting her. 

Everything was going perfect, Kraig would leave Tiana if Kraig became this loser's boyfriend. Lyndon could be there for Tiana and they may end up being together, he could ruin Kraig when he already established his place in Tiana's heart. So, he could stop using Yanarym and just dumped her anywhere.... all and well.