Chapter 617

Guilt, tangle, introspection, uneasiness. And now her head is really in a mess.

"Can we meet on a summer evening?" Fang bin is still waiting for an answer from Xia Wan. She thought carefully for a while and found that it was really inappropriate to think about any question at the moment. She had no answer except headache.

Simply, Xia Wan agreed to come down.

"See you at the end of the week."

She also wants to see Fang bin. She has a lot of things to find him. She needs to have a good chat with him.

Fang Bin said something, summer evening all one should, for a long time did not say a word, Fang bin seems really reluctant to hang up the phone, until summer evening said he was a little tired, have words to meet tomorrow said, Fang bin this full of expectations to tell her: "then I'll wait for you tomorrow, we never see each other."

Hang up the phone, the day has been completely dark, summer night did not turn on the light, she was a little tired, very tired, like a seriously ill person, insisted on so a while. She was sick all over. Xia Wan holds the table and leans slowly on the dark table with a trance.

She has been sitting like this for nearly a day.

She was stiff all over, but she didn't seem to feel it or calculate it. She just didn't want to move or care about it.

She has been thinking about it all the time. It has been so long since she came back to work as a nanny for Gu family, got close to Gu Chengyuan, met Dongdong as she wished, and finally got injured and hospitalized in Gu Chengyuan. She has gradually indulged in such days.

This kind of life is like a family of three, father, mother and children. However, all this is false.

Can't go back, everything can't go back. Hatred has built an insurmountable watershed between all the love and memories. No matter how much desire and fantasy she has, it can only be shattered in the heartbreak again and again.

From the time she received scar plastic surgery, from the time she came back to this place again, from the time she told Gu Chengyuan her name was Xia Wan, she knew that once this revenge started, it would be irreparable. However, she clearly hates Gu Chengyuan. She clearly knows that she will get revenge this time

But the heart, but very painful.

Now, even she is confused. When she repeats again and again that all she has done is for revenge, is she telling others or hinting at herself.

She figured out that Gu Chengyuan couldn't recognize herself, so she was exposed to Gu Chengyuan's eyes. At first, she was nervous when she heard Gu Chengyuan say that he was like a friend of his, but later she relaxed, and Gu Chengyuan couldn't recognize him.

Then she was relieved. She wanted to get close to Gu Chengyuan and find a chance to revenge him. After a long time, she began to put most of her energy on Dongdong.

He and she began to pay attention to Dongdong and do everything for Dongdong. She tried to make up for it. Like a mother, she did receive Dongdong's love, or she loved Dongdong inexplicably when she met her for the first time. Maybe it was mother and son's heart to heart. It's a destiny that can't be changed.

It's all in her calculation. It's all set by her, but the only thing she can't figure out is her own heart. Time ran, the original Revenge of the late summer has gradually softened in the broken time, never to be seen again.

The one left behind.

Xia Wan smiles bitterly. She falls in love with Gu Chengyuan again. In other words, she never forgets it. She just puts it in the deepest part of her heart. When she can't see it, she tells herself that she doesn't love it.

It is said that a woman's heart is like a needle in the sea. Xia Wan found that there was nothing wrong with this sentence. Up to now, even she can't see her heart clearly. It's a blur. The entanglement of light and shadow has always been difficult to choose.

She always remembered what Gu Chengyuan had done to him. How could she forget the pain? She hated Gu Chengyuan's cold-blooded ruthlessness and his hypocrisy. However, mu nuanjiao loved Gu Chengyuan. Even if they didn't mention it, there was a sweet time between them. The love between husband and wife was a day that Gods could not envy, Can be in this kind of circumstance, Gu Cheng Yuan all has to go to hand to her. Xia Wan doubted whether that gorgeous time was her own imagination.

For this matter, she spent so much effort to come back to revenge Gu Chengyuan. In fact, she wanted to ask Gu Chengyuan, how he was so cruel.

But all this is just time, just a little time, she once fell in love with Gu Chengyuan, isn't it ridiculous?

Cousin Tang Yi once said that she couldn't let go of Gu Chengyuan, just because they were all one person, so she still had expectations in her heart, so she was soft hearted. At that time, she didn't recognize herself clearly. She thought she could do it, but the result was so accurate.She thought of Fang bin, in fact, seriously, Fang bin looks handsome, character is also very good, in the darkest time of her life, Fang bin has been with him, take care of himself, so to speak, Fang bin is also his benefactor.

The son of a noble family is as gentle as jade.

Fang bin has always been worthy of this title, he can be gentle, treat the people he likes, if you want. As long as he wants, he can spoil his lover to heaven. He is reliable and treats his friends. As long as he helps them, he never shirks. At the beginning, for the sake of his best friend, he could accept a strange woman beside him, or he was a woman who was not in his mind. For this promise, he wasted too much time, but he never refused and did his best.

He is really good. If you say something bad, the number of women that emperor is willing to chase Fang bin is countless. How can she get Fang Bin's attention.

Does she like Fang bin? Xia Wan asked herself, but she didn't know. All the time, Fang bin has been around her. During the time when she just escaped from Gu Chengyuan, she was only accompanied by darkness. Every day she was in a trance. There was no memory, only Fang bin. In Xia Wan's memory, only Fang Bin's memory was the clearest. In that vague memory, Fang bin existed from beginning to end. Xia Wan remembers everything about Fang bin very clearly. Say don't love, with this period of time, summer evening also dare not say oneself, each other bin don't feel, but say love, summer evening but can't be sure.

Her other side bin, grateful, perhaps there are family, but love, summer night's heart was Gu Chengyuan, at that time just learned that all his only one obsession, to now, the heart is only Gu Chengyuan.

Xia Wan has been used to Fang Bin's company. He is used to anything, just like Fang bin asking for help and getting used to Fang Bin's existence. It's a habit that can't be changed easily.

Tang Yi said, no matter she or Gu Chengyuan, as long as someone is around, you can put down that thought. Gu Chengyuan is impossible, so you come.

For example, Fang bin, with Fang bin together, and then completely draw a clear line with Gu Chengyuan.

Xia Wan couldn't do it. She couldn't choose. Because of love, she couldn't leave Gu Chengyuan. Because of habit, she didn't want to hurt Fang bin. Because of hatred and habit, she had no sleep all night.

On Sunday, Dongdong seldom didn't have to go to school, so he didn't ask him to sleep a little more in the summer evening.

After all, it's not a very serious thing for children to go to kindergarten. Sometimes children are lazy, and mothers can't bear it. What's more, Xia Wan already feels that he owes too much. Looking at Dongdong's sleeping face, how could she have the heart to disturb baby Xiangxiang's dream.

Gently choked to Dongdong was horn, summer night heart warm into the kitchen. If you come back to Gu Chengyuan again and change your voice carefully every day, just to prevent him from finding something, it's as dangerous as an agent. Facing her little son, this delightful little milk bag really gives her infinite happiness. Therefore, danger and happiness coexist during this period of time.

Walking into the kitchen every day to make breakfast for Dongdong is the happiest and most comfortable time in summer evening.

Dongdong likes to eat fried eggs. He makes them every day in the summer evening. The eggs should be the best stupid eggs bought from the countryside. The egg white is clean and the yolk is attractive. The eggs are yellow and fragrant on the fryer, with a cup of hot milk, two pieces of toast and tomato sauce, and a banana apple salad. There's no one else to have a good breakfast.

Because Xiawan is only responsible for Dongdong's breakfast, so it's very important to make it.

"Aunt Xia Wan"

The tender voice came from the door, and Xia Wan found that her little son was lying by the door now, showing his milk white face and looking at her with a smile. She can't help liking in her heart and can't show her past closeness. She can only go to touch Dongdong's head and ask him if he is hungry.

You know, in the face of her baby, she wanted to kiss his little lips and bite his little feet countless times.

"Dongdong, why did you get up so early today?" The gentle voice of summer evening makes Dongdong feel good. The little guy waved to summer evening with a smile: "Auntie, you lower, I want to whisper with you."

Xia Wan bent down with a smile, feeling the intoxicated aroma of Dongdong's small face.

"Auntie, can you accompany me to the hospital today?"

As soon as Xia Wan heard this, she was worried. She thought Dongdong was uncomfortable and asked eagerly, "what's the matter? Are you sick there? Do you have a cold? "

"It's not me. I'm fine. Don't worry, Auntie The little guy quickly waved his hand, hugged Xia Wan's neck and said in a low voice, "it's dad. He's going to the hospital for review today."

Indeed, it's time for Gu Chengyuan to review.This matter is also clearly recorded in the late summer

This is his first reexamination since he was discharged from hospital last time. Summer late know that he should not worry about this man, can still clearly help him remember review time.

Dongdong looked at Xia Wan very seriously, blinked big eyes, vowed: "aunt, Dongdong is very good, know that aunt is not willing to go to the hospital, but you don't have to be afraid, also don't give you an injection. Just, Dongdong wants to accompany Dad... Dad gave a lot of blood last time, but dad is not afraid. Dad is a hero. "

The little guy gets excited and tells Xia Wan that if she accompanies her to the hospital, she will repay her well in the future.

Xia Wan couldn't resist her son's naive temptation. She pretended to be curious and asked, "then tell your aunt what kind of reward do you want to give her?"

Dongdong seriously thought about it, reached out his little hand and gently touched the scar on Xiawan's face: "aunt Xiawan, I will take you to the best beauty salon when I grow up. I'm going to take the ugly scar off your face... You're going to be beautiful. "

Summer late some want to cry, to his son disguise, she deeply feel guilty.

"I don't trust my father alone. Aunt Xia Wan, would you like to go with us?" Dongdong just said his careful thinking, of course, this little thought can only be said to Aunt Xia Wan alone.

Knowing the reason, Xia wandang's heart relaxed. She looked Dongdong up and down. She was really in good condition. She couldn't see any discomfort, so she was relieved. She was afraid of Dongdong's mischief and didn't dare to say if she was hurt. That's too bad.

But the summer evening began to tangle, she had promised Fang bin to go out on Sunday a few days ago, and she and Fang bin have not seen each other for a long time, agreed to go out for dinner today.

"I'm sorry, Dongdong. I'm afraid I can't go with you because I have an appointment with my friend today." Summer evening touches Dong Dong's head and says.