Chapter 330

With that, the atmosphere froze again.

In fact, since I learned that Lawson had an illegitimate child, my whole body was like a jerk and skinned. My body was whipped and my soul was broken. I was no longer me. My name was not song Yao. I became a person I didn't know.

This me, let me feel strange, feel disgusted, feel sad“ Song Yao, I knew that what I said was superfluous. After all, you still can't accept it! " He husky voice, "in order not to please you, I'd better go back."

He looked at me and slowly stepped back. This time, he really had to go.

All of a sudden, my heart gave birth to a kind of unspeakable desolation. The relationship between me and Lawson is not as solid as a rock, but is gradually drifting away. I'm afraid... His departure is a fuse of division and a time line. He and I really can't go back to the past. Our marriage, the foundation is not reliable, as long as there is a little wind and grass, will immediately question each other. No, in fact, most of the time, I question him.

It's sad. At the end of the day, lowerson and I are not suitable. He kept saying that I loved him. But my heart is in doubt, I really love him? What I love more is myself. But in the final analysis, what a person loves most is himself. If you don't cherish yourself, it's impossible to love others. Even if you fall in love, that love is not healthy.

I swallowed a mouthful of saliva. I respect him.

"Well, you go back and have a good sleep."

In order not to disturb my mother, he and I quietly went downstairs, walked out of the hall and went to the gate. On this dim yellow wall lamp, I looked at Lawson and said in a slow voice, "I'm not a fuss. Even if I believe you, I can't deny that our marriage is in trouble. You want me to understand, and I want you to give me a little freedom. I want to think independently. If necessary, I will see Xu Yan again. "

"OK, I'll arrange it for you."

"No, I want to get around you."

"Why?" He was puzzled.

"Because she's a woman, and I'm a woman, and she and I just want to have a woman to woman conversation. You're a man, and you're a lot of people. " I'm blunt.

Lawson's eyes lit up: "OK, I respect you." With that, he turned and left.

He pretended to be calm. However, I can still see the deep loneliness in his back.

Back in the room, I put on the quilt and forced myself to sleep. I was very sleepy, but when lowerson left, I couldn't close my eyes. As soon as I closed my eyes, I kept thinking about things. What kind of woman is Xu Yan? Is it really as kind and harmless as Lawson said?

I stayed up until the next day, and my eyes became pandas. My mother's health is better than me, early in the morning, went to the kitchen, busy with breakfast.

The noise in the kitchen is too loud. I want to remind my mother to keep it down. But I held back.

As soon as I got out of bed, my cell phone rang.

I look at the caller ID, want to reject, want to turn off. But three seconds later, I quickly answered: "wake up so early?"

His voice is hoarse: "can't sleep, always miss you."

I said bitterly, "do you love me so much? It's really a kind of love! "