21 Chapter 20

"...Philia,What should I do?..

These memories... Are they really as true as I think they are? I hope not... But the pain and hatred are so real... It hurts...It sill hurts even if I tell myself that I won't allow myself to hurt again...I told him that I won't harm his life again... but the truth is that.. I want to rip his smile off his face..

cripple him and lock him in the dungeon to torture him ...let him feel as hurt as I was.... These thoughts scares me... Am I falling into the darkside of my heart? The demons in my heart are tainting my already tainted heart.. I don't want this... Why can't, I be a normal twelve years old?... It's been three years since we met.... My souls are still either suffering or harming others in the other worlds... I don't like this...

I don't want to do anything about this... "

Thider complained as she stared at the moon... The full moon and the shining stars... the beautiful sky...and occasionally ,there will be shooting stars in the distance..

They were sitting on the rooftop of the lotus lake pavilion.. .

A girl and a cat..Both staring at the bright moon....a peaceful picture...

But Thider was not at peace...

She had a nightmare again...and she couldn't sleep at all...

Her cultivation needs a peaceful mind and a heart that is not bothered by negative feelings...

But obviously.. .It did not help ...

not at all....

"You.... Are you regreting your decision of not killing them from the start?"Philia continued staring at the moon...

"Thider,do you regret not killing a child ?"

Thider shook her head.."You are hurting me...Philia.. How could I regret? One is my sister...one is my best friend... Even if they betray me in the future... The most I'll get is another painful memory.."

She laughed self-mockingly...

"May be I should follow my mother's steps and become the next heroine of Phoenix and clear the dark miasma of the southern parts.. "

"With your complex heart and unstable feelings... the best outcome will be that you replacing the current demon king...."

Philia snorted...

Thider smiled..... "May be that's the best outcome... They will go their way... I will go my way... "

"What about your mercenary? Zin,Yin and your father?...You still have a family to protect..."

Philia said... 'This girl is in a serious case of depression ..'

"They have their own lives..."

'My mercenary is built for Yin... She can protect the younger ones and Yi Yi... My eldest sistet is going to be a wandering cultivator... as free as a cloud..

My brothers are doing very good in their lives... Zin have found her love... So is little Ye...although I'm not sure about that bastard third prince.. .. I'm sure no one in the Sen family will sit and watch if he dares to bully her... As for second sister and the future murderer..

Their future is the best among them...and since I made him swear to the heavens ... He probably would not move against

the Sens...'

"Thider ? Thider!"

Thider jolted and looked at the fluffy cat in a confused expression...

"What?"

"You are thinking too much..again! Don't think too much

....Your hair is turning white !"

Thider looked at a lock of her hair which had become as white as the moon... and sighed..

."I'm gonna blind the whole world with this stunning Appearance of mine..."

"....."'What's up with this sudden joke?'

"Hey,this lens are great... I can see the world like normal people..

Where did you get this?"

Thider said as she took out a mirror and looked at the violet eyes ....

"Violet is unusual in this world... "

Though in her past life...It was something not uncommon...

"It's something the second master

invented for me...."

"For you?"

"Yeah,I used to be a blind demon"

"Ohhhh,"Thider nodded...Then,she picked up the furball ...."And you are not blind anymore?"

Green eyes looked away..

"Of course not..."

But Thider had already took the lens out...and put it on his eyes unceremoniously.. .

"Noooo,"

"Don't you dare do that again..."

Thider said crossly...'Damn cat.. what's he thinking?!'

"I really don't need this..."

The voice had changed from an old one to a youthful one...and Thider sensed something strange.

Beside her was a collection of dark energies which is the mortal enemies of Heroes.. .

'The power of a demon king'

Damn,it's goimg to burst out !

Thider held the dark energy and pulled it into the bracelet ....

But her action didn't stop somebody from knowing the news

Emperor Feng woke up with a start

and he rushed towards the balcony,went out and looked into the direction of the Sen manor..

"Wei...."

...

"Phi...Philia?" Thider asked the young man in front of her...

He looks like a sixteen or seventeen years old...but that's really not the truth.... He was wearing a black robe...,black clothes...black shoes.... his long black hair is swaying in the wind .

His skin is white and smooth looking... his eyebrows are thick straight .... The violet eyes were staring at her in a frightened way.

"En..."He said...trying to back up away from the child...

'Is she gonna hate me ..now that I'm in a demon shape..'

Then,he heard something that made him curse..

"Where are your fluffy cat ears and tail?It would look great on you...like those boys in BL mangas.

....."

"Curse you! I'm a mighty soul !

How could you say something like that to your contractor...."

"Yes,yes,I know... my kitty cat"

"Don't call me kitty cat!" Then,Philia looked at the girl in dark blue dress and saw the usual dotting expression on her face whenever she looked at him...

"Aren't you surprised?"

"Huh?" Thider looked at the young man..."Of course.. I'm surprised... I'm surprised that there aren't any fluffy ears or some horns on your head or fluffy tail on your back... Sigh...And I was hopping that I could finally touch a demon cat's fluffy ears..

Ahhh,I miss my fluffy dreams..."

Philia backed away further.. .

Cold sweat seeping down his back...

'How stupid of me... This master of

mine has no common senses.. .'

"But.... can you change into a girl form?"

"Eh?"

"I want to see you in a girl form..

with fluffy ears and tail and saying 'Meowww' like this..."

"Wahhh,Hell ! Nooo.."

Goosebumps rose up all over his body ...Why does this girl have such a weird taste..

"You are not going to see that!"

And he took the lens off ...and turned into a fluffy cat again...

He glared at Thider and hissed..

"Huh! Go ask another cat demon to do that! Idiot!"

And he fled away....leaving a laughing Thider..

"Ha ha ha ha ha..."

Thider laughed till her stomach hurts... and stopped laughing..

Her eyes are smiling ..for the first time since the dreadful memories haunted her every night..

.....

"You seems very happy ,today..."

Feng Jiu said as he looked at the girl who was humming a tune in a good mood... unlike the other times when her laughter brings a tint of sadness no matter how much she tried to hide it...

'How can she hide it from someone who is always looking at her'

"Oh," Thider smiled brightly..

Sunshine made a halo above her black silky hair with a white lock in the front.. ..Thider said it was due to overthinking things...Her smile was more genuine than ever...

She smelled a red rose from the garden..and placed it behind Feng Jiu's ear.... making him blush

'Again!That's something I should be doing!' Feng Jiu lamented as he touched the rose...but didn't remove it...

Looking from afar... Fidelis shook his head...and told his friend..

"Does our master has a split personality?"

But he didn't get an answer because of Thider...

She said something to Feng Jiu...

"Last night... I discovered another side of my first love..."

#BOOM#

Last night...

Fi...First L..Lo..LOVE!?

Both Fidelis and Demos' eyes were as wide as their mouths hunging like an old bull's dislocated jaw...

'Crap ,Master is not going to explode again ...right!'

They turned to look at their master... and surprised again...

Feng Jiu was very clam for someone who just heard his fiance talking about her first love...

'Clam? ' Feng Jiu clenched his hands..'Clam indeed! But this is much better than hearing that she's with that courtesan again...'

"Ohhh,what's was that side?"

Feng Jiu asked as if he was asking about the weather.. .while looking at the fluffy cat sleeping on the table with a glare as cold as winter..

Thider ws not aware of this...and she answered with a dreamy expression..

"He turned into a beautiful man!"

WHAT!

This time ,Feng Jiu is not so clam...

Even more so wben he heard the next lines...

"He's even more beautiful than you... but it's something to be expected... He's my beloved after all"

Philia could feel really strong killing intent directed at him...

which startled him... because no one in the right mind would want to kill a fluffy cat like him... even the dogs won't do so...

'Who is this lunatic?'

Then,he heard the most annoying words...

"I wish he could change his form into a girl...with fluffy ears and tail...that would be more lovely..

but as expected...he is just too shy

....Hmmm,in fact,he looks like you..both acting cool and are easily shy..."

Feng Jiu and Philia both rolled their eyes..

'Who looks like who!?Don't compare me with this sickly human/stinky cat!'

Fidelis looked at his master who is on the verge of collapsing...and sighed...

"Master has it tough..."

Demos sighed beside him...

"I agree..."