Chapter 57

Some of me wanted to do that. I thought it might be unbelievable for me, but I really did it.

I think song Le also likes me, otherwise he won't draw my figure on his paintings, or he won't give me a response when I hold him, so I think this may have been together in some sense.

You may have some good ideas about our ending, but just like the blooming Ylang, it has only three days of flowering. After withering, it goes straight to autumn. No, maybe it goes straight to winter.

Yilan flowers withered. Song Le didn't leave at that time. He rented a small house at the head of the village where he painted. I think Li Zhuang is really a good place. She has mountains, water, flowers and grass. For a painter, sketching is really a good place. But I didn't think of this. I was like a girl who was dazzled by love. Well, I was really an ignorant girl who was dazzled by love at that time. I thought song Le stayed for me. I even refused the meeting arranged by my family for Wang Er and me. My father was very angry. First of all, I made him lose face. Secondly, in this small village, this matter will spread far and far. My reputation is not good, and it has something to do with his lax discipline. His dignity as the head of the family is lost. So he was very angry. He said that if I went out to see song Le again, he would break my leg, but I was not afraid of him doing so, because I knew that he would only scare me. But since Song le and I had been made public, all my family members have basically given up on me, and I simply gave up on myself. In such an era, a girl who did such things for others was very disrespectful, so my reputation has become bad, that is to say, it is not good for someone to point out when she goes out.

But at that time, I didn't think there was anything. I thought it was worth the criticism for song Yue, because such a man of quality transportation made me give up my life like dross. I thought it was worth it. But I didn't think about it. I didn't think about these things. Song Le didn't think about it for me at all. He didn't even say that he wanted me to avoid some of those people. He didn't think about how sad I would be when I heard those words. Besides, he never proposed to come to my family and ask my father to marry me. So I showed people for a long time with this kind of no three no four face, until song Le left half a year later.

After song Le left, my life gradually became calm. Although the people in the small village were feudal and conservative, they were still simple. They no longer criticized me. I continued to live a life of working at sunrise and resting at sunset, and occasionally went to the river to see the water. I wonder if there will be a boat on the other side of the river. It's song Le who said he would take me.

I think for a long time, a long time to Wang Er has been married, song Le still did not come back.

Let me think about it. When did I hear about song Le? It's time for the sun to bloom again, and all the younger students in the village have come back. In that context, it is obvious that the development of rural areas has not been able to meet everyone's living conditions, so every family is basically strong men or those young men go out to work. I have to know that song Le's news is also when they brought it back.

Oh, I haven't been married for so many years, maybe because my reputation is not very good. But I feel that song Le will come back to me. My illusion did not change when I heard from him, because the news from later generations was that he saw me in an art exhibition.

As for why he recognized it, first of all, it was because of the large Yilan flower in Lizhuang. Although people in the village didn't like it very much, they also had a deep impression on it. Second, he must have heard my story since he was a child. As a young painter outside the village, I didn't listen to my parents or even married, So he based on the background of the painting and the girl in blue. He thought it must be me, so he came back to tell me. In terms of age, she should be my son's generation, so he called me aunt. He said, aunt, I saw you outside. On a picture scroll, there are many scenes in Lizhuang, but you are on every picture. When I heard those words, my expression was very indifferent. Then he was embarrassed to leave by himself, but the moment he turned around, my tears suddenly fell down, because I think my waiting for these years may be worth it.

Because song Le still remembers me, he is willing to show me to others, which shows that I also exist in his memory.

About three years later, I got his news again. At that time, every family already had a TV. Although I had no children, my brother's daughter also provided me with a pair of glasses to install a TV for me. I saw that song Le was on TV, and he was very old, but as soon as he spoke, I was attracted by him. I put my presbyopic glasses on my nose and watched the TV carefully. He said that he once came to Lizhuang when he was young. At that time, landscape painting was very popular, but he was only a painter of landscape painting school and didn't pay much attention to it. However, he felt that the same landscape paintings on the market had no soul. What is the soul of painting? He felt that there was a kind of person who grew up from the scenery, and she was the soul. Therefore, he had a little ambiguous relationship with a woman and a girl in Li Zhuang, who was always full of love in his eyes. The woman he had with him was the soul in his painting.

At that moment, I was suddenly relieved that I was just a passer-by in his life, not because I grew up in Lizhuang, but because I was full of love for him. I think yilanhua is really a kind of miserable words. She must think that the flowers she blooms with her life are very beautiful. In fact, after she blooms, she will soon be forgotten, because this autumn or another winter, after she blooms, there will still be many flowers in full bloom. At the moment when others see her, they may praise her or stop to appreciate her, but once her flowering period is over, Immediately there will be other flowers to replace her, this is Yilan flower, this is me.