Chapter 501

She doesn't belong here

when Huo jingnian looked at his mother's back, he had mixed feelings.

He Xinying, I hope you are worthy of my persistence.

Sometimes he really feels very tired. Even if he knows the current situation, he Xinying can only stay with him. He doesn't need to worry, but he is still worried that her condition will be out of control.

But sometimes when he saw her bright smile when she was awake, he felt that even if he did something wrong, it was worth it.

And he Xinying's recent state seems to be less and less as he wishes.

She often lies on the bed in her bedroom, staring at the ceiling and walls for hours.

Once she looked at it and suddenly turned to Huo jingnian and asked, "why isn't this wall pink?"

"Pink?" "You like pink, don't you? Let's paint it pink later. "

He Xinying just gave him a blank look.

He only thinks that this is he Xinying's sudden whim, but he doesn't know what she is thinking.

Although he Xinying has been in a trance, she still remembers some things clearly.

She remembers that the wall in her house was a girl's pink, but it wasn't here.

Vaguely, she knew that this was not her home.

It's not the home where she lived for more than 20 years, nor the room full of girl's worries.

When she was a girl, she wrote down all the feelings and doubts about Shen Junquan in her diary.

And this is not the same room.

Subconsciousness is a strange thing. In her illness, he Xinying has always been confused between reality and illusion, but she knows that she doesn't seem to belong to this place with only white walls.

Perhaps, it is precisely because of the existence of this subconscious that the frequency of her illness is getting higher and higher, because she has no sense of security in this place.

Or maybe she has basically recovered, but in a short period of time, she has become more and more serious. There are other reasons, but she does not know now.

In order to support the company, Huo jingnian spent more time at work and less time to take care of the family. He had to find a familiar nanny to help clean up the room. If he went to hire a new nanny, he was afraid that he Xinying would not accept it.

He Xinying didn't respond to the baby sitter's arrival. Huo jingnian thought he could rest assured, but he didn't expect that he had just returned to his room to work. After a while, he heard another cry outside.

He rushed to the living room with a splitting headache and found that it was the nanny who turned out the old photos of her and Xiaochen to clean up the room. When he Xinying saw the photos, she began to cry.

Huo jingnian frowned, motioned to the nanny to take the picture away, then gently hugged her and patted her on the back.

"It's all right, it's all right. I'm here. Tell me what's wrong with you? "

He Xinying let go of his arms, looked at him steadily, and said very clearly: "ah Chen, I think Xiao Chen."

There were tears in the corner of her eyes, but she said it soberly. Huo jingnian was stunned for a moment, then comforted: "you will see him."

"But I want to see him now." He Xinying muttered, "I haven't seen him for a long time."

Huo jingnian's heart was full of turbulence.

Xiao Chen is in Shen Junquan's place. Maybe she doesn't want to meet her.

Besides, he didn't want he Xinying to see Xiaochen.

If she goes, Shen Junquan will take advantage of her.

Unless He went to run for her.

Shen Junchen and Zhang Junquan would not give in to this idea, but Shen Junchen and Zhang would not give in to it.

"I know, I know." He thought about it and said to he Xinying, "but as you know, Xiaochen is at Shen Junquan's, I..."

Hearing these three words, he Xinying's face changed slightly.

She didn't want to hear these three words again.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned him." Huo jingnian noticed her face and said apologetically.

"I don't want to see him." He Xinying said, "but I really miss Xiaochen."

Her expression drifted up and she said with a smile, "it's time for Xiaochen to go to kindergarten."

Huo jingnian knows that she is worried that Xiaochen's daily life will not be taken care of, but in this situation, she can only think of a way slowly.

"Xinying, I promise you that I will let you see Xiaochen, OK?" He exhorted cautiously, "but not yet."

Although he has managed the business of the company again in order to get through the crisis smoothly, his capital is only enough to last until next week, but the result is still uncertain.

If he wins the final contest with Shen Junquan, he will have a bargaining chip to talk with. At that time, let alone Xiaochen, even if he Xinying wants to meet more difficult people, Shen Junquan will not dare to object.The Shen family is bigger than the Huo family. Naturally, they can't afford the risk of failure. For the sake of their family business, he is sure that Shen Junquan will agree to everything.

He is willing to gamble for he Xinying, but only if he wins.

He Xinying nodded gently, still looking like a weak bird.

Her mind was sometimes confused and sometimes sober, but her heart was somewhat clear.

Shen Junquan's moodiness scares her. Even today when he has confessed, he Xinying is subconsciously resisting contact with him.

And in front of this man, she knew that his gentle and considerate always can let oneself at ease.

Perhaps because of her illness, she seemed to be more and more dependent on him, and more and more inseparable from him.

On the other hand, Shen Junquan and Xiao Chen still miss he Xinying every day.

"Is it fun?" Looking at Xiaochen fiddling with the new jigsaw puzzle, Shen Junquan asked.

"Fun..." Xiao Chen replied in a weak voice. Before he could make a complete picture, he put it aside.

"Why not play?" Shen Junquan asked suspiciously.

"Dad, I miss Mom." Xiaochen curled his mouth, as if to cry, "when will mom come back?"

Shen Junquan looked at the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle and was silent.

Recently, he has bought a lot of jigsaw puzzles for Xiaochen, but he is afraid that he will always ask this question.

But no matter how interesting the toys are, children will not want to play any more.

What's more, the reason why he bought the jigsaw puzzle at first was also because he remembered that he Xinying seemed to like it.

It seems that he is still too kind to Huo jingnian. It's really time to speed up the pace of destroying the Huo family.

Huo jingnian is so strong that he doesn't want to compromise.

Since he doesn't want to compromise, don't blame himself for being impolite.

Does he think that he is the only one who can do anything about he Xinying?

Shen Junquan put out his cigarette.