29 Part 20: I’ll start from the zero

What happened to Koja ... what Koja heard ... and what Koja saw ... was something really shocking…

Koja experienced new things at that moment in which he knew the truth…

It was definitely ... the feeling of persecution…

After he was part of the ruling class in the mysterious land…

He suddenly went to the ordinary class ... to know their suffering and to understand what they are suffering ... but it was still hard for him to believe that … the organization destroyed his homeland…

And killed one of his acquaintances … Lecia it was someone really important for koja !

Yes, that was the first crime committed by the Special Organization ... and it was a crime against the people of Koja.

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And…

New feelings have been formed within the depths of Koja ... after his mind absorbed that happened ... and, what kind of feelings they were?

After koja woke up … he found himself lying on the bed of grishia … he sat up very quietly holding his head with his right hand … It seems that he was still affected by what happened to him at that time.

Then he started staring at his forehands with those very depressing looks…

" The only thing I'm sure of now is...… that I'm living an illusion !!! "

He stayed like that for a moment while he was feeling a heartbreak…

Then…

He went to the balcony of Grishia's room …. It was already the night there … so…

He started staring at the dark sky….

With those dead looks…

This...

This darkness...

It does not equate to anything inside me !

Koja's mind ... was filled with such expressions that showed how uncertainty he was feeling….

After the sharp turn, his life took … he just decided to … look at the sky that he used to look when he was a kid….

While koja was saying those words as if he was feeling really sad…

The boss of the Phoenix corps was behind the door of the room with the NetD0G…

They were just listening to koja without doing anything else…

" What now? "

And that what the netD0G said…

So the boss answered:

" Do you want to…. get in first? "

" No ... I'm not interested in him all that much .... are not you the one you wanted to save him or something like that? "

Suddenly at those moments and while the two were trying to convince each other to enter in order to check Koja … someone arrived at the place…

And it was…

Maya…

" The boss ! NetD0G !! "

Who finally returned from the house of the city's old leader which is located on the big hill in the backside of the city … it seems that the two did not know how to meet Koja after what happened to him … but it seems that a chance has come ! so the boss said:

" Hmm? Maya? "

" Oh …it was a long time no see Maya-san "

With a smile:

" Hai !! NetD0G….. and thank you for your past help ! Boss, I came after I was looking for you and Koja ... I went to the house of the leader of the city as we wanted and..... "

Suddenly the boss interrupted the words of Maya with a fake smile saying:

" Hey hey hey wait a minute ! A-Ah what do you think if you say that details to him … he is inside the room "

Maya….

Turned to the opened door on her left side…

Looking at the inside with that expressionless face…

Then…. We a slow move ! she entered the room … That face she was making ... as if she knew something was going on there…

To find…

That person who was sitting on the edge of the balcony ... Watching the sky with very depressed looks…

Koja noticed that Maya was looking at him with that expressionless face … he even noticed when she made that childish smile….

But…

He didn't say anything….

He just kept watching that darkness which was filled with steady lights….

So, Maya did the same …. she raised her head, and started staring at the sky with a little smile on her face…

" It's an incandescent night ... despite its darkness ... the sky of the night ... It would inevitably be boring if the stars did not decorate its darkness "

Koja answered those words saying:

" But the darkness of the souls ... cannot be lit, no matter what kind of light that is glowing in its depths "

With a strict face:

" Chigaimasu…..!! "

Then she continued her words with a little smile:

" You are totally wrong ! the darkness is just ... a light that has dimmed until it extinguished … darkness is the misguidance that we live after ... we move away from the right path … but what we don't know is …. that there is always another chance to stand back from the depths of darkness ! Since the flame of the right path will never disappear no matter how surrounded by darkness "

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" But ... yet I still feel that darkness in my inner depths ... even though I worked hard to carry out what my late master entrusted me with ... and after I awoke from the illusion that weaves around me I found that everything I did ... had no meaning ! until now ... I still can't believe what the organization was doing behind me, how stupid I was when I thought the organization would make us walk again on the road that our commander had made ... And here I am, falling down again … after I thought that I was falling up, walking in the footsteps of my master … I have killed many innocent people, I have broken the promise that I gave to my master ... to protect the people of this continent, from the moment of his death ... I...I did not do anything right … will he ever forgive me? They even killed Lecia ... that idiot ... she apologized to me even though I was the one who got her into all this ! Because of my selfishness in knowing what happened to the place to which I belong ... Lecia is dead now !! THAT ORGANIZATION ... THAT DAMNED ORGANIZATION !! I will inevitably destroy it !!!!!!!  "

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Suddenly….

Maya…

hold koja tightly…

After all those feelings that rushed into the depths of Koja … Maya felt like Koja needed something like this…

" Gomeni ! I didn't want to make you feel something like this … I... I'm sorry !! I did not want you to go through what the people of this continent have gone ! I'm sorry !! I just wanted to show you how much we are doing our best to make this continent's citizens live in peace ! but, Now... everything is okey ! everything will be okey….. you can cry the much you want ! that must be … really painful ! but from now on … no one will exploit you anymore ... this is a promise ! "

Koja inevitably could not restrain himself after those words that Maya said...

Koja ... After he felt the persecution ... Here he now feels as if someone is standing by his side...

So he cried...

He cried and wept very loudly .... he cried because the organization had exploited him and made him live a fake life...

And he cried after he knew he was not alone again...

Yes, those feelings that were made in his depths ... made him shed tears of sadness and joy at the same time...

( I will definitely walk on the steps of my master again ... I….I will start from the zero )