Chapter 192 - 191

Philip had been sitting alone in his room for a while, watching the two empty beds, where his friends used to sleep. Sigh after sigh he drowned in the silence, his hazel eyes traveling from wall to wall and from every dusty corner to the window where he would stare at the trees, their dark leaves and the twinkling stars appearing through the small parting in the scenery. Such a beautiful place to call home, in the heart of nature, bathed by the gentle moonlight and on the nights it hid a shower of endless stars began, lights in the sky, showing him how small he was, lost in a world where everything was bigger than him and that way his problems seemed meaningless.

He turned on his side, laid on his bed and fixed his pillow slightly, trying to find a comfortable spot. Nothing brought him comfort though, not the soft pillow, nor the cold sheets, the warmth of the heating. He felt lonely, forgotten and suddenly the upcoming burden of his new position was a bit too much, it came a bit too soon and his thoughts would race, his consciousness would question him, can you really do it? The voice would ask, again and again. 

"Can I…" Philip mumbled, unaware of his own potential when he heard footsteps on his doorstep. 

Two familiar voices, nagging and a swear, then the door was busted open as Mika walked in, his face hidden because he held Reina's heavy luggage in his arms. 

Philip sat up immediately, lookin at them with wide eyes as the red head let go of the huge suitcase in front of her bed and the raven haired girl walked in, letting go of a few bags on the unmade mattress. She exhaled, whipping her hands on her tight jeans and looked around.

"This place still smells of too much testosterone." she commented and Mika scoffed, a bothered frown on his face. 

"You…" Philip mumbled, utterly confused and he blinked. Had he fallen asleep while he wished for things to change? Had his loneliness created a scene where he would be happy, even for a while? 

His jaw hung, an expression of surprise and Reina chuckled, pushing back her hair dramatically as she moved forward, standing underneath his bunk bed with her big eyes focused on him. 

"Get down, depressed boy." she told him, signaling her with her index finger to come down. "Now." Reina added, showing him she was actually serious and Philip tossed away the sheets, getting down in a hurry. 

"What are you doing here?" he asked her, ignoring Mika for the time being. 

"Someone came to me, begging for me to return because I was the only one who deserved to be the Beta with my high intelligence, power and beauty. He said I was much better than him and that he actually wished he was a girl because guys stink." Reina said with a playful expression and Philip frowned, not really understanding what she was talking about. "Mika apologized. He said he will give me the position of the Beta." She said, making her words simpler and Philip breathed in, his eyes landing on the red head who was sitting on Reina's bed, anxiously playing with his fingers.

"I am sorry too Reina. I shouldn't have acted that way. You are a precious friend to me and yes, you do deserve that position, more than anyone. Thank  you for coming back." he told her, taking the initiative of hugging her and the girl smiled as she patted his back. 

"Talk to him." she whispered to Philip and the werewolf frowned, letting go of her. 

The two best friends looked at each other and the girl could not decide who looked more awkward. It had to be Mika, he had been picking on the skin at the sides of his nails, biting his lip and tapping his foot, waiting for his conviction. 

"Don't do that to your fingers. It will bleed." Philip said and Mika  froze, stopping every movement.

"I am sorry Philip." he said.  "I know you can't forgive me for what I did. It's only reasonable but can I get a chance to prove to you that I want to be on your side? That's the only thing I am asking for." he said. 

"I don't know if I will ever be able to forgive you." Philip stated, the hurt obvious in his hazel eyes. All the opportunities, all the doubts and all the harsh words. Mika was involved in everything. What did it matter if he had no bad intentions when everything he did led to disaster? 

"Then I will keep trying, even after I am reborn I will keep trying. You're like my brother." he said and stood up, wanting to take a step closer but in the end he decided not to. "I don't want to lose you? I don't want to be the villain in your story."

Villain? Was he really a villain? Stupid, well yes that he was, but he wasn't a villain. He too like everyone else was trying his best in his own way, that was what Philip's heart was telling him but his mind, his mind worked as a cruel reminder of everything he had told Kai and that hurt, it hurt more than anything, still Mika was and had always been his best friend.

"Do as you wish. I won't stop you but don't expect me to act like I always did." he said, his expression strict but Mika smiled faintly, Reina clapping with excitement. 

"Perfect! Now kiss!" she joked and the two boys looked at her. Their faces filled with disgust. "Don't tell me you two had never…you know…even when you were teens?" she asked, pointed at them back and forth. 

Philip coughed, rubbing the back of his neck and Mika's eyes widened. 

"Let's just go get dinner. I am hungry." Philip said. 

"Yeah, let's go." Mika agreed.

"Yeaaaah, yeaaah" Reina said with a cheeky smirk, dragging her words as she closed the door behind her.