Chapter 169 - 168

"Are you sure?" Lun asked Kai. 

His best friend had managed to drag the vampire outside his room. After Philip's visit something had shifted in Kai. It was as if in his mind the ending had clicked and now there was only living with this pain inside of him. He had told Lun about wanting to go back home while they sat at the little restaurant the hotel had. Just a few plastic tables and some very mediocre food at best but it was peaceful and well, it wasn't his suffocating room. Kai had wrapped his hands around his warm mug, black coffee steaming as he nodded his head. He had thought of this. The only place that could keep him away from Philip, the only place that could have his mind occupied was BloodBound. There was no city, no country in the mortal world that would keep him from trying to find the werewolf and as romantic as it sounded it was equally depressing. 

"Yeah, I think it's time to go home. I can't stay here any longer." he answered and Lun sighed. He took a slow sip from his own coffee, his eyes focused on the rim of the white mug as he spoke. 

"It will be dangerous, Kai. In BloodBound are the Nightshades, it will be as if you're returning in the jaws of danger." he told him and the young prince scoffed, a cold grin on his face,

"Last time I got caught because I had something to lose. Now, they should be the ones scared of me. They took everything from me." The prince said, his eyes turning into a frozen sea. He had so much hatred in him, so much despair and the thought of the Bloody People simply magnified that. If he ever happened to meet one of them again, he would rip them to shreds, break their heads, rip out their hearts, torture them slowly because that was what they deserved.

"You're making the right decision for the first time in your life." Xan's voice was heard from behind them and his older brother entered the conversation uninvited. He sat on the chair next to Lun, not even sparing him a glance as he talked to his younger brother before him. "Don't worry about the Nightshades, mother will protect you." 

"Yeah, like she did last time. We all remember how that went." Lun said, his tone filled with irony and Kai chuckled. He would be fine, if he went back home with them, with Lun he would be fine. It was just a new start, a new beginning like the countless ones he had had over the years. Philip would eb a distant memory again, in a while, he wouldn't hurt so much, he wouldn't cry so much and the nightmares would stop. In a while  he would be able to feel numb in front of the world again. He just had to wait it out. 

"What is your problem?" Xan asked him, shooting him a deadly glare and the brown haired vampire mimicked him right away. They kept this little intense staring contest for a while. Kai didn't dare to step in, he simply sat back in his chair observing the upcoming fight. 

Lun seemed to be fed up with his brother, it took him some time. The prince thought in his head as he could only describe his brother as insufferable. He wasn't exactly bad but at the same time he was the worst. So stiff and he had this weird obsession with the rules and on top of that he was a very well known mama's boy which was disgusting to say the least, thinking of who their mother was. 

"My problem is that you're a shitty brother, Even a beggar mass murderer would do a better job at being a sibling than you" 

"A what? Have you lost your mind afia boy?" The crown prince asked him and Lun's eyes widened.

"How did you call me?"

"Mafia boy. Why? You don't like it? We all know that's what you are. You dare to talk about my mother when your father has people sniffing off drugs from his palm while having fun. Pretentious little shit." Xan insulted him and Lun shot up as if he had been shocked. He looked down on the older vampire, his eyes showing how mad he was and Xan smiled, proud that he had managed to push him to his limits. 

"I know." Lun answered, surprising him. Xan stared at him, confused as to why he was agreeing with him. "I know very well who I am but what you don't seem to understand is that there is a big difference in knowing your mistake and in being oblivious to it. I know how messed up and horrible where I grew up is and I feel like shit because of it, because I can't change it. But you, you Xan simply choose to close your eyes and ears. Pretend that is okay. You are simply delirious while I…I am trapped." the tall vampire answered him leaving the crown prince stunned as he walked away. 

Xan blinked a few times, his pale hand that rested on the table forming a fist and Kai looked at him.

"He was right." Kai said coldly and his brother scoffed, annoyed.

"Get your shit ready we're leaving tonight. Make sure you leave that pet of yours, John, behind." he told him.

"John will come with me. If he wants to." the young prince said, making his brother laugh.

"Suit yourself, make your life even harder." 

"At least I am honest." The vampire commented on it and made his brother stop on his track. He looked at him, his expression unreadable and Kai tilted his head to the side, trying to guess what insulting thing he was going to say next.

"Don't be an idiot. None of us has been honest, never in our entire lives.. I guess I am not the only one who is deluded here."