Chapter 36 - [Bonus ] 35

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Loving someone could be a curse or a blessing. It could be simply excruciating or a trip to heaven. It could even be both at the same time. The ups and downs, the shouts and the heartbreak, the laughter and the kissing. All of them tasted like poison and a remedy at the same time. Love was a concept for the fools, the romantics and the broken ones. Those who dreamed of a better tomorrow and held their breath the moment the main characters held their hands in a movie.

Love was a dream and a nightmare, the goal but at the same time the whole journey. No one could really define it, no one could put a label on the feelings of the heart while many had tried even more had failed. Hormones or a disease of the soul, a disease yes. A pain that spreads through your body more and more as you realize the hold it has on you.

Love is a muse, for the one that writes and the one that sings, for the one that acts or the one that paints. It is the muse of the living, the inspiration and the root of life itself but still it is also a killer. Merciful that comes into the night. A breathtaking end, so scarring that cuts your heart in the middle, a slash of the knife. That could be love, the power to end things before they become hate and darkness, the need to keep the happy parts alive even if the memories had turned into a ghost, the true feelings already dead and forgotten.

What was love anyways? Could you answer that question? Could anyone actually? For every person love is different and for Kai, the third prince of the Avger Monarchy love was and will always be a bittersweet curse. A delusion of a world he could never have, a fruitless hope. Kai could not see the sweet side of it, he could not feel the happiness with the sorrow, he could only feel the self hatred, the pain and the despair that came with it. Because he wasn't good enough, he wasn't strong enough and he was always a monster. Monsters do not deserve love, they do not deserve to feel the happiness in a kiss or the passion of an intimate touch. Killers, murderers and sinners. All of their spirits had gathered in his soul because killing the person you love, the one you adore so, the one you worship even though you are the one that rules was the worst crime of all and he had committed it.

A cold night, two hundred years ago, the young and beautiful prince had found his lover and stabbed him right in the back. He had seen the betrayal in his eyes, the pain and his voice as he cursed him for the rest of eternity still echoes between his ears. This unbreakable spell that he could never stop no matter how hard he tried.

His lips felt dry, his throat was burning as he felt something cold touch his lips. It was a liquid, its taste strong and actually truly horrible as it slid on his throat and traveled in his body. The prince coughed, wanting to throw up but he couldn't move. After he had swallowed everything his eyelids fluttered open. The sight in front of him was blurry at first but slowly the image was beginning to get clearer.

In front of him stood a man, someone he knew. A man with a kind smile and honest smile. A man who knew how to cook and could sign the songs he liked with the sweetest tone. He knew that man with the snow white hair that always smelt like lemon and the dark eyes that looked at him with agony.

"Soran…" he said, the word coming out dry as he said it. The sound of his name didn't come out well and Kai was disappointed. He wished he had said it better, sounded a bit happier but he couldn't do that. He was feeling so weak.

Kai realized though that the excruciating burn had stopped. He didn't feel as if his body was burning with high fever anymore and he noticed that what had remained was just a heavy exhaustion. "You…" Kai mumbled "You gave me the antidote?" he asked and the man smiled.

"Maybe I did." he said playfully. "It is such a relief to see you alive." he told him and pushed his dump hair back, showing his beautiful face. Kai smiled.

"Who are you?" A cold question was shot towards the white haired man.

"I am Soran. I was Kai's and Lun's classmate back at the Academy. Kai and I were close friends." he said. His answer was going towards Philip. Kai panicked, the vampire had met him before, there was no way he didn't remember him and in his panic he tried to sit up, his body giving up halfway there. Soran caught him, helping him lie down again. "It's fine. Don't worry. I won't say anything" he whispered in his ear.

"He is tired, you don't have to be so close to him." Philip said and the vampire took a step back, getting away from him. "And why did you bring him here? Was the bottle too hard for you to carry?"

"Shut up Philip. Stop whining like a baby. We went there to fix your mistake." Mika told him and his friend stared at him with a furious glare. He was not going to make a scene right here, he didn't want Kai to know what his best friend had attempted. He was going to get an explanation on why this farce happened the good way or the bad way.

"You. Don't talk." Philip said. "We will be leaving." He announced and he walked towards Kai. He passed by Soran, bumping his shoulder rudely and the vampire grinned, recognizing instantly this kind of jealous behavior. Philip stood close and moved his face towards Kai's ear. His breath landed hot on his body, making shiver even at that state. "Remember what I told you okay?" he asked with a grin and he heard Kai click his tongue. "You can't run away now."

"I don't do one night stands." Kai whispered and Philip shrugged his shoulders.

"Maybe it's time to start now?" he said with a cheeky smile. "I will come tomorrow to check up on you." he said

"You don't have to." Kai told him with a frown.

"Who will stay with him?" Philip asked, ignoring completely his words.

"I will." Soran announced and the wolf stared at him dissatisfied. "I don't have anywhere to stay anyways. So I think it would be best for me to stay here. If that's alright with you Kai." he said and everyone looked at the tired prince. Kai smiled and nodded his head making Philip snort. He never smiled like that when it came to him, he thought and his eyes widened embarrassed with his own thoughts. It wasn't like that. He didn't care like that. He reminded himself as he rushed towards Mika. He grabbed him by the arm and pulled him out, leaving without saying a word.

"Boss, are you sure you're going to be okay?" John asked him with a concerned expression.

"Yes, don't worry. I've taken the antidote, in a few hours I will be completely fine actually. Go home and get some rest. We are opening the shop like normal tomorrow." he announced.

"What? But…"

"No skipping work. I am an immortal being. I will be fine." he stated and John retried with his head facing the ground. He knew it was a bit self but a part of him had hoped that maybe he would be able to skip work tomorrow and sleep in but maybe Boss was truly some kind of super powerful vampire and had read his thoughts.

"Lun…" Kai called him out as he was the last one that had remained in the room together with Soran.

"What is it, my lovely best friend?" he asked him and Kai smiled again.

"Thank you, you saved me." Kai told him and Lun smiled proudly.

"Not exactly. This guy right here did actually. Akai was not very fond of helping us until he talked to her. Thank him, graciously." he said and winked at him. Kai rolled his eyes but still he didn't say anything as he heard Soran laugh.

"Thank you." Kai repeated and his friend shrugged his forehead. He approached him and kissed gently his forehead before he left with a carefree smile on his face. He was relieved. Even though he didn't show it Lun had been worried, he didn't know what he was supposed to do if Kai died. "Thank you too Soran. Really" Kai said once they were left completely alone.

"Don't mention it. Is there anything I can do for you?" He asked.

"Can you help me sit up. It's kind of weird talking to you and staring at the ceiling" Kai requested and his friend helped him. "Much better." he said in a relieved tone.

"Are you surprised to see me?" Soran asked him.

Kai took a few minutes to think, yes, he definitely was but not in a bad way. Soran had helped him, even the horrible way things had ended between them he still helped him to get out of BloodBound when he needed him the most. So he was happy, extremely so that he had managed to see him again.

"Definitely. But I have to say that I am happy too. You and Lun, you were the people closest to me, two hundred years I had been all alone but now...I don't know. Even though I had been telling myself that I am better off alone seeing you two has actually made me feel...better? In a way" he said, not sure about how he should explain his feelings.

"I am glad I got to see you. After that night, for many years I couldn't stop worrying about you Kai. You were wounded and bathed in blood. I...I still don't know what happened and that scares me." he said

"I've taken a blood oath Soran. I can't say anything." Kai said and the vampire's eyes widened. He sat at the edge of the couch, looking at him with a concerned expression.

"Kai, that is very dangerous. He...he is here, how can you not fight the urge of not…"

"Even if he is here…" Kai said, his eyes turning cloudy. "I am done with him, Soran. Forever. What I did, he would never forgive me. I saw him, as he died, the hate. This part of my life is closed no matter how it hurts. I need to be away from him, for his own good too. I can't put him in danger."

"I am really sorry Kai but honestly I do not understand" Soran said and Kai chuckled.

"I know. How could you. Sometimes I don't even understand myself. What I know is that once I make sure that John is safe, my friend who got turned into a werewolf, I will be leaving, before Philip turns twenty I will disappear." he explained.

"So you've decided to go against fate?" Soran asked him.

Was that what he was doing? Kai wondered. Maybe. What was written in the stars for him was being with Philip, it was destiny, fate as many called him but he believed it as simply a curse of the universe. At first, during those early days he felt as if he had won a grand prize until they found him. The Bloody People. They were the reason his whole life got ruined. They were the ones at fault for Kai being a killer and he couldn't talk to anyone about it. He couldn't reveal the horrific truth because that simply meant he would die later. He wished for death, he had asked Philip to kill him after all but why did he feel relieved in a way? Was he still selfish maybe? Wanting to live even after what he did. He was perplexed, fighting with himself every moment of the day and that tired him.

"Maybe, or maybe I am simply running away from fate." he said and Soran smiled.

"Kai…" he called out.

"What if you rewrite destiny with me? Now after two hundred years?" Soran asked him and his eyes widened.

"Soran what…"

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