Chapter 49 - What If He Says No To Me?

Mona's POV:

Lilly: Why I will feel jealous?

I just feel nervous because I don't want any girl to play with his true feelings...

He is very pure in heart, Mona, he doesn't know how to cheat a girl, and he always takes good care of me out of his true feelings on me. Maybe he will treat the same way if there is some other girl in my place...

He is very special, Mona, I never see such a kind pure heart men in my life...

(I understand Lilly is in a dilemma about her feelings towards Lance. I am sure she is loving him but something is stopping her to express her feelings. So I asked her openly.)

Mona: So, What about your true feelings for him Lilly, You can hide them from Lance, but not from me, you are in love with him, right?

(Lilly stays quiet and involved in her deep thoughts.)

Mona: If you are ok you can share with me...

Lilly: He is just a friend to me Mona, a good caring friend, that's it...

Mona: Okay..,

(I said and get up from the chair because I don't want to insist her to say to me her personal things and I don't want to force her that she is loving him but the fact is I understand she is loving him but she is hiding for some reason. Whatever, I can't help her if she is not interested to share with me. In between my thoughts Lilly hold my hand.)

Lilly: OK, I will say to you what are my feelings about Lance...

(I turn around my head and looked at Lilly, she immediately hold my hand pulled me back to sit in my chair.)

Lilly: I don't want to hide my feelings with you Mona I will say to you openly please listen to me...

(I nodded my head as ok and hold Lilly's hand.)

Lilly: I went through a lot in my life, Mona...

On the first day when I look at you, I saw myself in you, but the circumstances in my life changed me and I went to the extent to sell my body for money...

Please don't look at me in a cheap way...

Mona: Hey, it's okay...

Lilly: I am not that kind of person to sell my character for money but I got some problems in my life where money is the only solution for it. So I entered into the lifestyle of a stripe teaser but after some days I realised it's not the original me...

The profession is not giving me satisfaction instead I went into depression, so I left the job and joined as a dancer in this pub but my sad past haunts me always and sometimes it makes me to went into depression.

All my friends left me just because by looking at my profession and many boys cheated me after using me on the bed...

And I fucked up with my life but everything changes when I met Lance...

At first, I thought he is like a usual man and he also wants to play with my emotions but till now he did not even touch me in a lewd way and he didn't take advantage of me. He always respects me as I am...

He always takes care of me and protects me and feeds me with his delicious food...

I am so lucky to find such a great friend in my life...

Mona: So, he is only a friend?

He is not anything other than a friend?

Lilly: Till a few weeks back I feel he is my good friend but then I realised there is something else is going on between us..

I feel happy when I am around him and I feel jealous if he speaks to any other girl, and I feel like I want to spend the rest of my life with him...

Without knowing myself I fell in love with him, Mona...

I realised I am loving him from the deep down f my heart and I can see a beautiful life ahead with him...

But...

Mona: but?

Lilly: I am not correct to him, Mona, he deserves the best person than me who did not mess her past...

Sometimes I feel like I should not cross the line in my life, so I can happily live my love life with Lance without guilty...

My sad past is obstructing me to stay far away from him and my sad past is taunting me to don't ruin Lance life by entering into his life...

Mona: Everyone will make mistakes in their lives, Lilly, but the real mistake is when they repeatedly do the same mistake...

Knowingly or unknowingly you did a mistake to save your life from the financial crisis but it does not mean your entire life was ruined by your decision and you no need to blame your past for everything...

The past is past...

What all matters are what are you now...

And I know you are a very punctual self carried independent women and you deserve a man like Lance...

So please don't keep your distance from him just because by thinking you are bad in your past...

Say your true feelings to him and I am sure he will understand you as you are now and I am sure both of you will lead a happy blissfully life...

Lilly: What if he says no to me?

It will be a big disaster in my life, Mona...

I may not take it in an easy way...

It may lead to depression and I can't bear it...

And what should I do if he completely avoids me?

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